Thursday, March 23

YCSS BAND ROCKS TO THE CORE !

hehehe! so happy today ! BECAUSE OF BAND < 3333s
band practiced was shifted to today because there's sports' heats tomorrow . yeah , then practised with my section and then combined ppractise . FCUK MAN ! WE PLAYED SO WEELL L!!! ESPECIALLY THE CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OFF YOU ! NELSON (playing the drumset) WAS GREEAAAAAAAAAAT !!!!!!!!!! omgomgomogmogmogmgo, our band can do it ! YCSS BAND !! WE CAN DO IT !! WE WILL ACHIEVE !!! YAY!!! HAHA , then my teacher-in-charge came in and requested to hear us play . she said can hear us from the staff room : D . then we played 3 songs . omg, the first song we played , Acclamations , halfway through i feel like crying because of the achievement of my band and i feel so touched by my teacher-in-charge , Ms Loh , her spirt and support for us ! she supported and encouranged us so much . without her , there won't be YCSS band already . COUNTLESS CHEERS FOR MS LOH !!!
hees , i wanna thank her so much for standing alongside with the band at its weakest point . she'll always be there
for us (: .


anyway .. talking about crying .. i kinda miss MR TAN and GENTING . yeah ... recalled the scene where vani and i went to ask mr tan of our performance at stage . then we sort of chatted .. yeah .. how saddening . he patted on vani's shoulder , saying she played very well and should keep it up . and he praised me too ^^ . for coming to band regularly for practises T_T . but i apperciate that (: . then , vani got tears in her eyes , mr tan saw it and patted on her shoulder again , gently saying , " don't cry already . everything is going to be okay . " . with that consolation , vani cried . duh . haha , girls cry more when they get consoled . don't know why (:
sigh , and of course not forgetting when we said our goodbyes and gave our farewell presents to MR TAN .. the girls cried so hard . some of the weaker boys did cry . not surprising .. it was a very sad sad , pitiful scene .. it's even more hurting to see MR TAN trying to hard not to break down too . seeing all the girls sobbing over him , of course he will feel touched , loved and sad at the same time.


we won't forget MR TAN . and he had left a big impression on our hearts . someday he will come back to our band to see us !! WEEPEE ! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM !! . probably will be crying if i saw him . i miss him too much (: . i guess the band misses him as much as i do too (: . anyway , the band will be performing for the school during their assembly period on 23rd and 25th of april ( if i remembered correctly ) . yeah , everyone was like HUH ? WHAT FOR ? . then ms loh said that because the school knows the band has improved . then yeah , everyone was like cheering the whole day . everyone went home yippe-yah-yay (: . then idris , shak , vani , wan teng , rici and me went to cheers , bought drinks and we YUM-SEH-ed !!! HAHA. loud loud somemore . felt awkard , coz people looking at us . BUT THAT'S TO THE IMPROVEMENT OF YCSS BAND HUR !! HEHEs. yeah , can't wait for our performance ! COZ WE WILL BE ROCKING THE HALL . HAHAHAHAHHAha.


everytime i see you , my heart aches .
i don't dare to look at into your eyes , because i couldn't find love inside .
i pretend i'm fine ,
i pretend i'm happy .
but deep inside , there's nothing left to hide .
i thoguht about you ,
i thought about us .
i wondered so much .
why did you let go so fast ?
why didn't you held on to me longer ,
or maybe forever ?
i missed the times we had together .
i missed the warmth you always gave.
i missed that smile on your face ,
and that love that seem to light up my life.
but then you just took my heart and broke it ,
threw my love away ,
and left me alone , so coldly .
too hurt to move ,
too sudden for me .
all i could do , is sit there and wait ,
waiting for you to turn back .
but what's the use ? since you have already went far far away.
but i couldn't take the pain , i had no choice .
i'm just there.
i'm there ..
sitting alone .
just waiting for you to come for me ..
dumbly and blindly .


I MISS YOU LIKE FUCK OKAY . I STILL HEART YOU LAH , GET IT . GET AWAY FROM MY FUCKING SIGHT . THE SIGHT OF YOU JUST BREAK MY HEART SO MUCH . WHY DID I EVEN LOVE YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE . WHY DID I EVEN CARE ? FUGGGGG OFF !!!

no one who truly cares for me ,
i don't want nothing at all
if it ain't you baby ,
if i ain;t got you baby ..

if i ain't got you with me baby ,
so nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
if i ain't got you with me babyy..


WHY AM I FUCKING STUPID TO SIT THERE BLINDLY , THINKING THAT YOU WILL COME BACK FOR ME WHEN I KNOW YOU WON'T HUR ?
maybe because i love you too much.
WHATEVER .


xoxotina

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