don't know why ;

sigh , it's another boring day . my brother just came back from a overnight BBQ ? i don't know . then he came home in the morning and slept in the afternoon . i didn't want to disturb his sleep . so i didn't practice my clarinet . i guess i'll practice tomorrow (:
anyways , today i wanna talk a little more about me and my family .
frankly speaking , i don't like my parents . yeah , i suck . i don't know how to apperciate them . i don't like them nagging at me , talking to me . and i don't like to be sayang-ed by them. my father likes to call me baby names like , " dear " , " my baby " . i don't like it man , it just sucks . making me feel like i'm so BABY .
i know i'm bad . but that's the way i am . my father thinks that our family is CLOSE . but nah , i think not . it's what he thinks . i don't talk to him . talking to him about my life ? NAH , it's so totally wrong . he don't understand me . neither do i understand him . we clash .
anyways , my brother is happy and yeepee-ing nowadays because he got a female companion already ((: . congrats to him . i feel happy for him uh.
my parents saw my fading scars of my slits on my hand . i know they care , but they want me to tell all my problems to them ? what the FUCK ? imagine telling your parents about your personal life , like you got a boyfriend and they don't accept it . they will GROUND you immediately when they know you have a boyfriend outside .
hey yeah , they care . all parents care for their children . some just don't understand their children . like mines ? fine , i shan't elaborate anymore . family and i have a far-apart distance and i don't want to go close to them yet .


today , parents and me went to bugis . nothing much , just shop shop around . BORED .



i'm a sad case just like the other heartbroken-eds out there .

hahas , whatever .
if you run , i'll chase .
if you hide , i'll find you .
you know i'll love you .
i'll love you so deeply ,
and the words i say to you are
always from the bottom of my heart. ((:


xoxotina