Devils or angels?

Oh cheese and fries ~
Ahem.
My brother suay! D:
He lost his phone during NS. (God knows how he lost it) But luckily, it's just a spare, old model Nokia phone.
He came back yesterday night, (and I thought he's coming back today instead -.-) went to a friend's birthday chalet (sweet eh?), &LOST HIS BLOODY PRECIOUS PHONE AGAIN!
Its his touch-screen baby laah! Omg, I soooo in love with it too okay! Damn saddening!
The MOTOROKR E6.
CLICKABLE
Damn sexy one.
So today, went to one of the M1's outlet at West Mall to get him another new phone.
Poor kor, he must be feeling so depressed.
Well, while ogling at the mobile phones displayed at the M1 shop, my father came up to me and said he'll get me the model I want when his line expires! WHICH IS PRETTY BLOODY SOON!
Oh my BLOODY! I was like, jumping for joy in my heart. :D
Tsk, but don't know if he meant it. LOL!
Anyway, my dream hunk, Sony Erisson K810i
GO AHEAD, CLICK!
ROCKS LAAAAAAAH! The keys are sexy okay! SEXY ENOUGH FOR ME.
*drools*
Oh, I loove taking photos, like everything I see, I'll like to take a snap out of it. Lol, exagerated bit. &the cam's quite good! :D
OKAY, ENOUGH.
Excited!

Random photos -.-
Oh, I noticed that they are pretty yellow flowers on the side top of the trees!
By the way, yes, it's the pathway from school to the MRT station.


Lovely yeah? There's a great view of the sunset too around 6-7pm.




GET READY,
.
.
.









BOOYA!!!!

No, I'm not promoting my ugly face.
Hah, was bored on the shuttle bus back to Queenstown MRT so I snapped. :D
Oh, it's my new braces.
I get to skip lessons on friday laahhh! :D
Oh I mean yesterday.
IT FUCKIN HURTS DAMNIT! ):
But my dentist said that if I attend my dental appointments regularly and nothing goes wrong, I'll be able to take it off,
BY THIS BLOODY YEAR!
HURRAY! I'm so bloody happy!
LIKE FINALLY! FINNAAAALLLYYYY OKAYYY!!>!?!
HAHHHH.
My brother's going back to the camp tomorrow night ):
Going to miss him and his, seemlessly-bald head.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING, SUHANA!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
HUGS, LOVES, AND TAKE CARE!
^-^

Fool.

Bloody hell.
I had a carefree, fun morning.
But.

Be Yourself Day! Yay -.-
Like whatever okay?
Should be called, No-more-uniforms Day.
That one, I'll cheer.

I'm bloody pissed today. Cos seriously, just spoils my mood.
Just so bloody extra, hyena.

There goes my lessons tomorrow. Bah.
Tomorrow's friday, quite fast eh?

FUCK, I HATE THIS BLOODY FEELING.
STOP LAUGHING YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF,
IRRITANT!
IF YOU'RE THAT BLOODY KEEN, GO AHEAD. UNRESPONSIBLE FOOL! LIKE ANYONE WANTS YOU TO STAY LIKE THAT.

I can't understand why.
Please wake up.
Really, you're fucked up.


Happy posts?
Forget about them.
I'm no bloody ball to be kicked around.
I HATE MY HAIR.
FUGLY FUGLY!
I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
>:l

Better geeetup, while you can.

Didn't fall asleep today during lessons!
Glad!

Friday's Be Yourself Day.
Soo, what am I goin to wear? :l
The weather's going to be bloody warm, so I guess I wear something comfortable instead of that stuffy o' uniform.
Anyway, it's a once in a year event! Why not?!
Maybe 2E1'06 class tee? :D
GONNA ROCK!
OH! I'm going off early from school cos I've got dental appointment.
WEE! HAPPY LAHH! Going to miss out alot of lessons. Uhh? :x
I want a whole day of Art period! It's totally not enough. Esp when Mr Goh starts naggingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg (you'll be surprised how long he can go on),
and left us with little time to do anything.
ARGHH! I want to do something?! Like a project or anything?!
Itchy hands! :D

My dad banned me from the com until I've finished my homeworkssss D:
Soo, only can get to use the com around night.
Bbaah ~ But it pushes me to do my homework.
T____T, how tiring.


If you say I don't,
why can't I?

Understand?

BLOODY.

Right, my songs kena cut to 30seconds also.
BLOODY FUCKKKK OKAAY!!!!
Kanasaaaaaaaaai!
HATE! HATE! HATE!
I'll try an alternative way, or manybe I'll just leave it there. -.-

Today rained! Umm, actually yesterday night. &it made morning so cooling.
Lovin it!
Rain falling, memories pouring.

You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken.

I'm bloody dumb :D

I dont know why I can't keep my eyes opened.
I'm forcing real real hard! To listen and pay attention!
But my eyelids'll just SHUT.
Bloody funny if you caught me doing it :x
I slept early, like before 11pm. AIYAAHH, damn pissed off.
I hate it when I'm tired.
I want to be energised and attentive like I am, the last two years.
Right now, everything's changin :l
Maybe due to the class' environment? Or maybe the class' just missing all my classmates in 2E1'06. That class, have never been any livelier than that.
SO THATS BORINGGGGG! ~
Who wouldn't miss their past class?
Bah, who's bloody idea?
I'm introverted.
LEARNED THE WORD FROM SUHANA ONE
Ahem.


..Hmm.
Guardian angel, guardian angel, please stay with me (:

For now, I'm just an ice-blended coffee.
GET? HAH! COFFEE?! HAAHH!
Hmm, reminds me of the creamy sweet tiramisu in Coffee Bean.
BLOOODDY ~

Jolly well, bloody well.

WHHAAT?! There's school today ahuh -.-
Oh, looks like stuffs are going to be alot better cos lessons are all reduced to 1 hour or 30 minutes!
HELLOO?!?! BLOODY BETTER THAN THE PREVIOUS TIMESTABLE OKAY?! LIKE HELL I'D SAY.
Soo, so much better lah. But, wrong timing. Everything.
Tired today, don't know why! Goin to fall asleep in Chemistry lor! Sucks, D:
Oh yeah, 5 minutes added to the dismissal time.
FUCK
5 minutes means alot okay! Especially when you're dying in the class.
OH OH, two new fans are finally coming to my classroom!
HURRAY! NO FREAKING STUFFY SHIT.

NEVER COMING HOME
NEVER COMING HONE
COULD I? SHOULD I?

Rocks, english everyday? Teacher not that strict and sitting with all my fun mates, so it's okay!

I'm not a puppet
I'm alive
I can burn inside
I can kill you
A bloody masquerade *wicked smile*

Uploaded songs on my own on Imeem. Sick of seeing those cut-off songs.
I DESPERATELY NEEDED SONGS ON MY BLOG LAH!
There they are! Made my day a fuller one.
Imeem better not cut off my songs.
Still sick of.
Sick
Sick
Sick
Sick,
I'm down with flu in the morning and now I'm fine.
I want to be okay.
Someone tell me everything is okay.
Show me.

Laugh and make a fool out of yourself.
Thinking that I'm hurt for all the shit,
No hun, I'm not.
I'm laughing deep down inside, you're the fool yourself.


Fuck school rules.
I want my smokey eyes.
I want music in my ears.
I want comfy tees and jeans.
Seriously, what's with the uniforms?
Hot, stuffy and some even ugly. Fuck, we can't even wear our PE attire AFTER RECESS.
Who cares about lookin smart? It's about being COMFORTABLE
&none of that shit.
HEELLLOOO, bloody look at the weather now.
Who'd have the mood to study?

Environment = sucks
Don't expect us to listen in class.
Thank you.

The ghost of you
It's just a mist
It's just revenge you wanted
But you won't get any of it


IM NOT OKAY, OKAY?
Tomorrow have maths remediaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal?
I feel like puking.
I want to lose 5kg. (tsk, never will I move my lazy ass.)

I'm not crazy, just ranting.
&I'm happy! not

VRROOOOOOOOOOOM!

Woah! It's err, end of holidays.
Fast.
Didn't get to enjoy holidays.
Annd, it's not a pleasant one this year.
I FINISHED MY ENGLISH OKAY! ENGLISSSHHHH!! (Copied ALL answers from answer sheet. CHEH.)

My lovey dovey love accompanied me the whole daaaaaaaaayy!
I love him her. :D



BLINK BLINK! Tsk, actually it's not that shiny.



YESSSSSSSSS! She's hot. BOOOOOOOO! I'm not.



My new hair! My new hair! My new hair! My new hair! My new hair!
LOL.
Never show full view cos really weird.
Okay, not weird.
is UGLY.
Argh, in better words, NOT SO REALLY NICE.

Tomorrow see, look, giggle, point at me and laugh out loud.
Don't worry, I won't bite. I'll kill.
(:


SOMEONE HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I still suck at my clarinet.
Sigh.
Suck, I suck.
Uhh, Burger King anyone?
OHHHHH!
Speaking of BK,
I ATE BURGER KING YESTERDAY!
WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER! WHOPPER!
ROCKSSSSSSSSSS

I forgot about the Double Rendang. Gonna grab it the next time I visit BK.
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE! BK's the best!

And the concert yesterday was A BLASSST!
One of the best I've listened to?
Really gorgeous laah. Didn't regret this time (:
I wonder, will our concert be sucessful?
I'm not so confident. I can't sustain.
I suck, STILL suck.

(:
ALRIGHHHHT!
STUDY HARD FOR THE NEXT TWO TERMS!
Must improve! Ahem, detemination!
.

Pathetic.

Sing the tears.

Evanescence
Missing

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Breathe deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...


Forgive me
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you
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It's amazing how songs can touch our emotions and hearts.
Ohh, so gorgeous! Umm uhh, I know lah! Boring right! See lyrics but didn't get to hear this songs here.
Blame Imeem! D:
@#$@@#!$!@

Concert today, mess.
Grow up, please.

Guardian Angels?

SUCKS LEH!
Most of the songs I want to share on my blog from Imeem kena cut to 30seconds only!

PATHETIC!
I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG, I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG,
I WANT SONGS ON MY BLOG!

Because I just hate not being able to hear my favourite songs on my blog.
I always open my page and listen over and over okay! Bit err, funny lah but whatever!
I like! I like!

BUT, now all the songs cut down to 30 seconds. (Not all, MOSTLY.)
LISTEN WHAAAATTTT!! Walua, really not happy lor.
Searchin hard, hopefully can find a full version one.
FUCCCKKBLOOOOODDY LAAHHH!

Oh, hair's weird. :l
Don't know lah! UGGHH.
I want Joey to sleepoveeeeeeeeeer! :x


Funny lor! Suddenly angels appear, &they're damn funny.
But.. it's something like, impossible.
It's awkard being around him.
Plus, I dislike that one thing they'll do.
Oh well, to have "guardian angels" aren't that bad afterall ^-^ Fortunate enough?

P.S. Cutesy, I don't know why i like that smiley icon. Everything I type it out, I'll be like, EEYER CHRISTINA TAN PEI CHING! SO ACT CUTE LAH!
Lmao. :l
BUT CUTE LAH OKAY! SMILEY FACE MAH! BE HAPPY WHAT RIGHT?! ^-^ ^-^ ^-^

So.. hai hui lian luo ma? (:


UPDATED!

Hilary Duff
Stranger

nobody believes me when i tell them that you're out of your mind.
nobody believes me when i tell them that there's so much you hide.
you treat me like a queen when we go out,
wanna show everyone what our love's about.
all wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd,
but when no ones around;

there's no kindness in your eyes,
the way you look at me, it's just not right.
i can tell whats going on this time,
theres a stranger in my life.
you're not the person that i once knew.
are you scared to let them know it's you?
if they could only see you like i do,
then they would see a stranger too..

did i ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
did i ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
you made yourself look perfect in everyway,
so when this goes down, i'm the one that will be blamed.
your plan is working so you can just walk away,
baby your secret's safe.

there's no kindness in your eyes,
the way you look at me, it's just not right.
i can tell whats going on this time,
theres a stranger in my life.
you're not the person that i once knew.
are you scared to let them know it's you?
if they could only see you like i do,
then they would see a stranger too..

such a long way back, from this place we arrived.
when i think of all the time i've wasted, i could cry..

there's no kindness in your eyes,
he way you look at me, it's just not right.
i can tell whats going on this time,
theres a stranger in my life.
you're not the person that i once knew.
are you scared to let them know it's you?
if they could only see you like i do,
then they would see a stranger too..

there's no kindness in your eyes,
the way you look at me, it's just not right.
i can tell whats going on this time,
theres a stranger in my life.
you're not the person i once knew.
are you scared to let them know it's you?
if they could only see you like i do,
then they would see a stranger too..
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Thanks to Nuz for recommending me this song!
Oh, watch the MV of this song.
Hilary's HOT! *wipes saliva*
Taaa! ^-^ -.-

A blast! (:

Hoorray, hooraay!
Finally photos, photos, photos!

Ohh, first, the overdue-d photos. (tsk, tsk.)
THE DAY MY BROTHER WENT FOR HIS FIRST NS TRAINING.
Speaking of which,

I REALLY MISS HIM! ):


My brother, Mum and Pops!


Ferry to Pulau Tekong!


That place wasn't that bad afterall. (: Cooling and windy, probably because it's going to rain?


Nasi Lemak for lunch at the NS Programme! Nice okay! Their food over there aren't that bad after all. ((:

The bunks there are like, for one per person. &it's comfy okay! The facilities there are reaaally good! Like community center like that. Got a entertainment room - TV, VCD/DVD player, pool table, sofas etc.
Good okay! Still got basketball court. (:
So it isn't that bad afterall!
Ahem.


BEACHING!

Unforturnately, not everyone could go. ):
I MISS YOU HANA!










Preparing for our Singapore's big day? :l


You girls'll always leave footprints in my heart, unforgotten&unforgettable.


TNFS!


With LOVE (:



Love is always patient and kind, it is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it is not take offense, it is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people sins but delights in the truth,
it is always ready to excuse to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.
- From the movie, A Walk To Remember.


SAAAAANDSCRUB!! Itchy but shiok can! Didn't think that I'll get wet sitting.


BUT WOOOOSSH CAME THE WAVES.


&ddooooown I went, with this crazy babe.


Kicking water?


Purity. Oh, how lovely H2O could be.


Adobe Photoshop rocks okay! It'll make all your images prettier, more contrasting and enhances the colours! Making it more richer and fuller. Tsk, if you got the skills, you can even photoshop away those red little pimples and smooth out complexion! *raise eyebrow*

Compare this!

Plain, dirty lookin sea water.

With this!

Mysterious, bloody, gory island you hope you'll never end up in. (:
ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Oh, queuing up to bathe is horrible. Everyone is taking their own sweet time to shower. And yeah, about 1hour+ in the toilet. Like more than 30 minutes of queuing okay!

Finally, train back to Vivo!

"Let's groove babeeh!"

We had dinner at Secret Recipe. Had Iris Lamb Stew, best lahhh!
Samantha only had blueberry cheesecake ): She claimed she's not hungry!
HOW CAN!?!?.

Shopped around before heading home.
HAD A BLAST!
I love you girls! ((:
Ohh, sadly, SPCA's not opened tomorrow. (WTF) So, cancelled! D:
Oh well, going to Joey's house tomorrow to do homework.
&maybe, cut hair?
Holy bloody, should cut concave anot?! Really don't know lah! So ugly on me lor ):
Blllaahh, that's what'll happen when you're really, ..ugly!
So styles you like don't suit laah! $%^#%^3. Bloody.

Random photos! ((:


A clique, endless memories (:


Jooeey&me when she stayed over! Loves! ^-^

When I'm bored, I cam-whore.



If only I was as hot and gorgeous as her.


THEEND THEEND THEEND.
:l, I want shopping? MORE!.

Tsk tsk.

EXCITEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDD!
So damn bloody excited!
Going beaching with all my LOVES!
Hahah, can I not get tanned? :l.

Kid, do some self-reflecting.
Hating me won't affect me in anyway.
I've seen your true colours, you're in it now.
You're free to hate me even more when you read this,
I don't mind. (:
You're just plain immature.
She's right, you oughta learn a lesson.
Hopefully the lesson comes bout soon.
Because your behaviour now,
HA HA HA.
It just makes me laugh.
Okkay, it's kind of good.
You're a comedian, you made me laugh.
You're comedian capable of things like that.
Better wake up to your senses before you regret.
No, I don't hate you.
I'm just disappointed in you.
Everyone is.
Forgive and forget, so they say.
Heed it.


I'm a b.i.t.c.h peeeople! :D


UPDATE!

Rafi is a pervert! (Like duh.)



Hahah! We're just playing around, cos it's freaking boorrreeddddd!
Wait,, or did he MEAN it? :D
DID YOU RAFI?! *angelic smile*

Fanciful :D

I will keep the happy memories in my heart.


Joey slept over! How nice yeah?!
Had good times talkin and talkin.
&ahem, drink too. Gaga! (:

Then we went to Ajisen for desserts. Nice okay! The desserts there are tad expensive but really unique and yummy.
Uhh, majority homework-doing tomorrow to enjoy my rest of the week.

WITH MY GIRLS

Bloody excited lor!
Wednesday, Beaching!
Thursday, SPCA!
Friday, TOOOWWWWWWWWNN!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!11111.
Excited excited!

Don't know if I should snack on maggie mee now.
I mean, FOR SUPPER.
But.. bad huh? :l


You never learn a goddamned thing.
&the funny thing is, you're proud of it.

LMAO.

Oh please!
Get out of my mind.

WHHHHHHHHYYYYY! ):

What?

No, I thought things would be getting better every passing day.
Who knows? It got worser. Ain't better. Shit.

I wonder how and why.
How can love turn into hatred in a snap?
&Why?

If it existed, everyone would want to use the time machine.
To turn back time, to go back to the memories they missed and they yearn to be with.
To be a happier person, to make the world a brighter place to be.
If it does exist, the world would be full of happy people. Oh I mean, EVERYONE WOULD BE LIVING HAPPILY. (No fcking wars too.)
Imagine all the lovely animals hopping around, no fear of heartless poachers at all.
ERR, wait, that didn't click with what I wanted to say.
.
.
Whatever.

However, life isn't that way. Entangled with roses and thorns, paths of the rockiness and steadiness, it's meant to be?

Like sitting here, blogging some uhh, logical thinking that I'm having inside my mind, what can it do?
NOTHING? Well.. maybe soothes me alittle from the ache.
But, life's so meaningless. Out of sudden.
Oh, it ain't going to go so well either,
cos you won't care.

Someone who used to love me so much,
someone who hates me now,
You.

My brother's going to NS tomorrow! Going to miss him yeah? (I THINK I CAN USE HIS PHONE LAH! DAMN ROCK! :X)

SHIT! I'm starting to eat much again! OH BOTHER
Stop thinking, stop dreaming!
But my heart can't accept.

Thinking alot about deaths lately.. NONON, not suicidal!
Just, what if one day your loved ones had to go?
Yeah, it's natural.
Wouldn't it just be.. so sad?
To never see them again?

What would you do if I'm lying on the hospital bed,
dying? Would you bother?

Pffft!

My Chemical Romance
Disenchanted

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

At all, at all, at all, at all.

-----------------------------

Fave this song, for some reason.
&It's bloody nice okay!

Oh, bloody pissed!
My parents are like,
study study study.

Even after doing my homework for an hour,
my dad thought I've only been doing it for 5 bloody mins!
OH MY HEY! WHAT BLOODY?!

Mapling in my brother's room after an hour's of homework..
Mums: Girl ar, stop play can anot. Go study!

Chatting with friends on msn at around 1am.
Pops: What time now?! Still don't want to sleep? Later tomorrow to tired to DO HOMEWORK how?
Me: *definitely rolling eyes*

Playing PS2 early in the morning. Dad calls, Brother picks.
Brother: Girl ar, Daddy ask you to study.






ALRIGHT! SO EVERYWHERE I GO, WHATEVER I DO, I GET TOLD OFF AND IN THE END, IT'S FOR THE PURPOSE OF STUDYING?!
WHAT THE BLOODY OKAY! DAMN PISSED YEAH?!
LIKE THIS IS BLOODY HOLIDAYS NOW. I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO ENJOY GOOD O HOLIDAYS FOR THE FIRST TWO WEEKS. NOW WANT TO ENJOY ALSO CANNOT.
IT'S NOT THAT I WON'T STUDY. IT'S JUST A MATTER OF TIME I WILL.
STOP TELLING ME WHEN TO STUDY OR NOT, I KNOW MY LIMITS, AND I KNOW I WILL COMPLETE MY HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENTS IN BLOODY HELL TIME!

Rant here also no use.
Bloody, my life sucks.

Oh ugh.

Why is it so hard?
Why is it so easy?
Why is it so easy...? For you.


If I'm so wrong
How can you listen all night long?
Now will it matter after I'm gone?

Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay.
- Disenchanted, MCR.


God, I swear it's killing me.
Help me.
Save me.
No matter how hard I try,
my heart'll kneel at sight.
I suck, I don't want to be me anymore.
I want to start anew.
I can't find back myself.
I don't know who I am.
I don't know, I'm being sensitive to everything now.
Everything I heard, it kills.
Good or bad, it's still a bad thing to hear.
Bad for my heart to take.
Hurtful for myself to control.
My soul is crying,
I'm going mental.
He misses you. Is it my imagainative play?
Or don't you even care about him?
Ohh, no, I just thought you would still think of him.
No, you don't even bother anymore.
Happy, sad.
Life.

Bloody massacre.
Soak myself in misery,
don't care.

You don't know,
just be happy.
Enough.
I love you. But, it doesn't mean any much anymore.
Regret.
Never regret in life. How stupid to be telling people not to regret, but I myself am.
Gagah.

It pours,

I'm in a daze.
Everything seem to change? Or is it just me?
Kids Central even replaced Spongebob Squarepants with Sonic. -.-
Bahness, just when I thought I could get a few laughs from Patrick or Squidward's nose. (OH, HIS HORRIBLE SKILLS OF PLAYING THE CLARINET TOO.)


He's in paradise.
I'm stuck in the tragic end.
He's everything positive,
I'm just opposite of everything.
I'm happy to see he being free and happy.
I'm sad to realise that he doesn't love me anymore.
I'm nobody to him anymore.
I'm a invisble wall,
like I've never been there.
It hurts so much.
I thought I could get over it,
but once I see him,
my heart'll kneel down before him.

Everything seem to be okay.
It's really damn painful to hear his childish laughter,
to see him ignoring me,
to see him being so happy, like I've never been a part of him.
To see him looking at the left and right, but never me.
To know that he'll never love me, like the past again.
To know, it's really over.
It hurts, I don't know what to do.
I'm in a dazed.
I'm in a tragic illusion.
When will I get out of the pain?

I'm glad he's okay.
I'm not glad I'm not okay.


Hahah, just plainly..
Read between the lines

Guys will always be guys.

Stars.

Feelin alot better now. (:
Oh, it's almost the THIRD week of June already!
Plenty of plans! *wicked smile*

- SPCA puting with my girls
- Bitching Beaching with my girls
- Homework, homework, and projects. AND MORE HOMEWORK!
- Great Singapore Sale rampage with my girls
- Eerr, Vodka? (:


OKKAAYYY! Can't wait laah!
My day today?
Shalala, fuckin bored. (:
MAPLE ANYONE?! RAFI DONT WANT TO PLAY WITH ME LAH. LOL!
P.S I can't stop thinking about Samantha looking flushed.
P.S.S I can't stop laughing to myself when I think about Samantha fallin.
P.S.S.S I don't feel great. At all.

Oh oops!

Nice.
Now I can sleep peacefully.
Maybe wake up with a big headache?
Drinking with friends is nice. Especially when you have problems,
and you need to get it over with.





Boy.
What can I say now?
I'm misunderstood?


I want to make things clear here. Tonight, before I turn in.
I didn't go around telling people you're heartless.
All I just did was, told them the good and bad times we had.
And yes, I said you were unapperciative and was a dickhead.
I was the heartless person instead. A big hole right in my heart, makes me almost heartless? Counted anot? Hahah.

I never said I was perfect. If I was, I would never complain ever in my blog. Make sense doesn't it? I don't have the perfect figure, the perfect face, the perfect err life, the perfect attitude, BLAHBLAHBLAH.
You know what? No one was ever perfect! The only perfect person I believe who will be, is someone precious in your life and God. (:

This 7 months, after thinking for a long time. It's not wasted.
I was so very happy with you. Because you made me feel comfortable and loved during the happy times. For the bad times, girlfriends told me to just erase them.
I did. And I glad I did.

I don't go around scolding people like anyhow.
Maybe my juniors? Or the guys?
Mostly it's you.
But you told me you wanted to change.
Here I am, to be there to guide you. But I guess, maybe I have lead you to the wrong path.
Mislead, and tragic.

Yes, I did talk about the bad side of you. Like, the things you shouldn't do. Nothing else. But, bear in mind that everyone wants you to change too. That's not the only thing I always do. Love and care? But you'll never believe me. But yes, I know you loved me, and you cared, so much but I never treasured it. Thank you so much. I mean it.

I won't always blame you for the things you do. Most of the time, after our quarrels, I'll blame myself... for hurting you. For not accepting you for who you are. For being someone you'll hate now.

Doing something useful? I'm trying my best to be a good QM in the band. :D
I know I can do it.
I don't know if anyone respects me, but I know my girls do.





After all the talks and drinks with my girls, I guess I'll be fine.
Especially when Samantha made me laugh so hard. LOL! She's cute okay!
I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS! :D Thank you so much girls! MUACKSSS!
Alrigghhhhhhhhhtt, had too much rum, dead drunk like Captain Jack Sparrow! Lovin' it :D

I'LL BE FINE.
MAYBE.
WEEE! Thank you Miao. ): ((:


ZZZ! So tired! SAM IS CUTE :D.

Our last sunset.

A beautiful sight, a tragic behind.

I don't know

Many doubts.
Need to clear off all this questions.
Then maybe I'll feel better?
Now, I just really.. don't get it.

(_____________________________) Fill in the blanks, whatever you think I'm going to whine about my fucking state I am in now. It's stupid, and it makes me feel stupid.

9am, parents meeting with my teacher. Don't care what he's going to say. Or rather, I don't give a damn? I got no freaking mood for almost anything.
Everything seem to turn, grey? Ohhh, how dark! I like. :D

Horrible horrible feelings stirred up inside me.
Maybe all I need is just a drink. I'll be okay.
Or maybe just a few pieces of watermelon?
Nah, no appetite.
I feel hungry, which is good. Cos I like starving myself when I need food at this time, which is like 9.30.
When I eat, I get bloated, get fat, look fat.
I'm contridicting? No, I think I've gone insane.



LOOK! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I'M RAMBLING ABOUT OKAY!.
FUCK THIS SHIT. I'M NOT EVEN MYSELF!
DRINK DRINK DRINK! DRINK TO OUR HEARTS CONTENT! MUAHAHAH!
Ayee Captain Jack Sparrow! Care to share e rumbly rum with me, hot barnacles?

Walk teh plank dickhead (No, not refering to beloved Jack Sparrow *ticklish smile*)! Yeerr thrown my thump thump down the seeaa!
BAHAHHAAH! Just purely entertaining myself. (:

Whatever And Anything.

*! *! & *!
Luckily I took out the stupid letter out before I gave it to you.
If not, I'm really such a fucking fool.
HAHAH, enjoy your game whatsoever.
AND, APPERCIATE IT.

Bah.
"I love eating cookies BUT I can't love eating cookies."
What logic ar? Wow.

Unappeciative shit.


OHHH, TOMORROW I DON'T WANT TO STAY AT HOME.
CAN ANYONE PLEASE GO OUT WITH ME?!
Oh my fuck, I'll just die from boredom or just plainly flood my room.
Should have got a job.
SHOULD HAVE.

Alright, darinet will accompany the whole day.
WEEE! Ain't she HE sweeet? (:
Nah, I think I still prefer a SHE. *pervertic look*

Yeah, happy can liao okay?
Now you fucking see?
You're the one who'll be happy,
NOT ME.
In your face, ass.

LET'S GO CRAZY!

I don't care even if it kills me.
I just want to know.
CAN YOU PLEASE UNDERSTAND?!

Why are you keeping things from me?
HELLO!? Am I nothing to you now? You have to do this?!
WHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!!!!!!!111111.
So worried okay! Still ask me to carry on with my life?!
Do I look like a lifeless robot to you?!!!!
Am I that worthless to be there to hear what you got to say?
TELL ME!
FUCKING TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
Miaow misses you alot, YOU KNOW?! Hahah!
No, really.

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
- I Don't Love You, My Chemical Romance.



Kanasai #%#^$%&@$!!#$ Bullhumanshit! (:

Went to Joey's house to practice together then we went to Bugis to eat Ajisen!
Darn nice lah. &shopping!
GRRRRRRR, NEED, MONEY.
I want that black dress at Ebase!

Oh! Today is Environment Day. So plastic bags are to be purchased at 10cents each at supermarkets. Hahah, end up carrying a yellow watermelon home. Well, worth the effort cos it's damn juicy lah. :D
Pops said that Environment Day would be on the Wednesday of the first week of every new month. Get?
LET'S SAVE THE ENVIRONMENT SO THAT THE WORLD WILL END AT A LONGER DATE.
Which means more life experiences for everyone and me! YAY!
....
*Might not be true*

BAND TOMORROW!!
Hahah, loves!
Wanna buck up for POTC so badly. I suck at that one particular part.

Oh, I'm not being or acting emo, I'm just feeling dark. -.-
Just sayin this just in case some idiotic people says I'm trying to be EMO.
Fuck off and get a life.
Emo is more like a fashion to me.
Cos it makes me look better. HAHAHAHAH!
No girly shit for me.
PASS ME THE MASCARA AND EYELINER.
I LOVE BEING DARK, SO WHAT DO YOU CARE?!

Crap.
Once upon a fucking time,
Tiger says, "I love you."
Stupid Tigeress repiled, "I love you too."
Tiger says, "I don't love you anymore."
Stupid Tigeress repiled, "I will still love you."
Tiger says, "I still love you actually."
Stupid Tigeress repiled, "I love you lots."
Tiger says, "I can't love you anymore."
Stupid Tigeress killed herself.

AND SHE LIVED HAPPILY NEVER AFTER.
HAHAHAH!!!!!!!.

I'm so very tired.

Happy birthday! (:
It's a sad one

Life is beautiful.

My Chemical Romance
I Don't Love You

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

--------------------


Life is really beautiful if you took the time to look around.
Treasure life and people around you.
I should stop complaining like an idiotica.
I'll be a good girl.
Oh how it fucking hurts. Thank you.

If I was a bunny.

Band was tiring today :D
Going to play Pirates of the Carribean tomorrow!
Damn excited lah hah. Not.
I feel.. different. Like some.. lertagic (or letargic? or neither?) bunny that's going to die on the grass plain. And then get eaten up by some vulture or something.
And decomposers will decompose my remains and give the soil nutrients. Cows will get yummy, fresh green grass and Humans will get good breeds of cow. Which also means good production of meat, leather and dairy products.
OH WONDERFUL! Then good population of cows = carnivious predators = animals and plants species no longer get extinct. Oh, I forgot something,
thunderbolt strikes all those who tempts to poach these lovely animals.
Wow, If being a bunny makes the world goes round, I rather be one than let my h.. whatever.


The world is so unfair.
Countless of chances
Time and time of forgiveness.

Yet, you can't even give me one single chance.

WEE BLEEADDY SHIT.

Finding words.

THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS
"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven


Thank you Rafi! Who sent me this song. Man, it's a wonderful song (:
Can't find the MV for this song. Searched on Youtube and they gave me MVs made by other people. -.-
Oh it's late and I should be sleeping.
But I can't.
Because.. something's missing.
Now it's my turn to ask for another chance?

I want..

To eat Burger King! Anyone interested? Darn it lah, why Jurong Point don't have any Burger King outlet? :l Seriously, BK is so much healthier than Macdonalds. God knows what Macdonalds do to their food. Have ya heard?
Macdonald's fries that doesn't decompose even after being left in a jar for TWO MONTHS
I'll never look at Macdonald's the same way ever again.
So yuppp, no more cheeseburgers from Macs! BK's the better choice. Problem is, the nearest outlet from here would be at IMM. Lol, well whatever. I STILL WANT!!
Oh, Mos burger's another choice but I don't like the cheeseburger there... Too um.. Not nice? :x Well, at least the rice burgers are OH-SO-TASTY (And quite healthy too) & the fries are BIG,FAT AND JUICY. (And better than Macs)
...Not quite juicy but err, don't know which word to use.

Actually quite bad to be throwing insults at Macs over here. But well, it's for the health-consious people. Macdonald's is darn fattening and God knows what they add to their food.

Today fuckin boring lor! So like, totally -.- Slept through the whole afternoon cos there's really nothing to do! @#%#$%^@^%!.
Dying of boredom, just like every other people.

Sigh, if only he could come out.
BOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD, like even now! Don't blame me for being boring today. Nothing special, nothing inspiring. HAHAH.
Just thaat.. I REALLY WANT MOSBURGER FOR DINNER TODAY! And have to wait my uncle visits and leave. Well, it was sort of like, surprise visit? I think. -.-

BOOOORRRRINNNGGGGGGGGG. Need I say more?
):

Deep thoughts.

Watched Shrek3 today and yeah, it rocks! :D
Shrek's newborn babies are soooooooo adorable! Hahah, makes me want to be a mum :X
I mean err, in the future.
Oh,


HAPPY BIRTHDAY IDRIS
Sorry I took so long. Hah.


I STILL CANT PLAY MAPLESTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1. @#$^$&$^@$%^@#$% What the fuck is wrong man! Stupid Gameguard just loads and then nothing happens.
AWWWWWWW MAANANNNNNNNNNNNNN. Been tryin since like, way before mids? #%@^$%^@^#
BAAHHH!!!1.

Oh, if you're going back to school for some event or remedials, don't try wearing your class tee or somethin. Today, Vani and me had to return home to change,
JUST BECAUSE WE WORE OUR CLASS TEE
How pissful is that? Effing angry can!? I know lah, precautions mah. BUT PLEASE LAH! We're just bloody students who want to attend our maths remedial man! Not like we want to go in and rob the office. I rather go rob the Music room right?!
Walua eh, senseless and waste our time lor.

I LOVE MY GIRLSSSSSSS! They are like angels can!
LOVE YALL!!!!!. (:


There's so many things
that I'd fall upon.
& then I tried, and I tried
but nothing seems to go alright
The angels tell me its a gift
but the devils tell me its a sin
I don't want to believe
but I guess that's the way it is
I got to see
The state I'm in
I dont even know myself
I tried to understand
I tried to see your point
They say
I've been holding on
to an empty treasure chest
Why don't I let it go?
Why don't I set myself away from my dreams?
I asked my soul deep inside
But it's like all tangled
I dont even know it myself.

Just feel like composing some errrrrrrrrrrrr, song or anything. Just, want to let things out.
Vodka anyone?

COMON MAPLE! WORK MAAAAAAANNNN