Vulnerable. That's how I feel now. Yes I've grown much stronger, but those who matter can touch my exposed vulnerability. So if I'm mad, if I'm sad, if I'm crying secretly over you, you matter so much to me. Step on my head, and I'll still let it go. I feel sorry for myself it's pathetic. I thought I've found myself, but I still feel lost. I'm trying, I tried, I still fail. And no one see how much I'm trying.. Its just killing me.

Helipad!

Clubbing @ Helipad, 2nd time! :) Didn't turn out as well as expected I guess? :( Nonetheless, the music, the booze, the friends around it did make my day, no matter what!
We had juggabombz (Sorry didnt know how to spell so anyhow lah), Wafi wolfed it down like it's plain water and he got kinda, tipsy hehe. Im a sweaty person so all the dancing really did get to me, so unsightly in photos! :<
Anyway! These photos coped from Liying and Wafi's cam, yup raw and unedited cos of my spoilt com :( I miss adobe photoshop seriously.. hai.

:(

It is sad, how people judge and stereotype you. And how people forget about the good when they only chose to remember the negative of you. How people take you for granted, how they lied, how they badmouthed, and how they could still pretend like it's all fine. How no one sees how much I try to be, perfect. I want to be a good friend, a good girlfriend, a good daughter, a good student, a good colleague. But it's all falling apart, I tried too hard and all they see is my flaws. This is the world. I can never trust anybody with all my heart, I have never felt lonelier, my best friend is my pillow.

P.S It's really sad how my mum think I'm a slut or a "dirty" woman cos I go out at night. It wasn't till recently I start to go to clubs. Yesterday was my SECONDTH. So I'm not a good girl if I come home 3am, I'm a slut if I bought lacy and flirty undergarments from CottonOn Body and yes, she THREW THEM AWAY, without my permission. I'm 19, not 13. I'm a young adult, and it's time I start learning to fly on my own. Don't keep me in a cage because my limit is about to pour out of the brim.

This is a sad sad world, but I must move on.

So the newest update is that the insides of my CPU burned, unexpectedly and unknowingly hahaha, so, adobe photoshop is gone, years of saved photos gone, BKK PHOTOS GONE. -.- Dad wanted to get a new CPU for me, but I think I'll rather just save that moeny and buy a new Macbook Pro as I'll need it when school starts in Aug! Yup! Gonna party tonight! Bye :)

Simple day out with Suhana whom I haven't seen for ages! <3 We wanted to watch Pirates of the Carribean but the tix were sold out unfortunately :( So we watched Kungfu Panda 2! AGAIN, for me HAHAHA. Yea I watched it for the second time ........ Nice mah. Wore my glittery maxi skirt, from Siam Square, I love it to bits! The first time I saw it I fell in love with it but I thought that maybe I'll find a cheaper one at Chatuchak. I didn't!!! I knew I had to go back SPECIALLY just for it, lol, love is powderful or what? Ahem ahem.. powerful.
Got socks from NEU LOOK, gonna wear the bumblebee one tmr, together with my platform wedges! Meeting that fat rat Wafi hehehe!


P.S Oh ya! I got my Diamond lenses from JB! Nice not? Cos I think it only look good in pictures, it looks weird upclose? :/

Pigging good times!

Wild wild wet on tuesday! :> we decided to get some sunblock! Hahaha, the last time we went Sentosa, we predicted it'll be cloudy so we omitted the sunblock but it got so darn hot in the evening that we had to leave! Sunburnt like Patrick Star on krabby patty griller. Hehe I feel more sexayeee since I got alittle tanned, but it'll go off after awhile :(


Sakae Sushi tea time buffet! Youths from 13-21 yrs old only $13.9++! D ate like fat monster! Told him not to take too much of the rice because it will make him full faster he don't listen! Hahahaha, we emptied our Chawanmushi bowl, ordered the Amaebi nigiri sushi and took only the top part and dumped the rice into the bowl!
Spammed the salmon cheek cos it was sooooooo gooooooooood mmmmmmmmm, all the collagen good for my skin skin! :>




Back alley, mitchy-matchy casio watches (which I love to death), and X-men First Class at........ guess where! Heheheheee
I love you bby boy!

BACK!

Brought back 18kg worth of loots! Think alot? Wafi's one 20kg, Liying was 23kg! Hahahaha! Nevertheless, it was a sucessful trip and we were all satisfied with what we've got. But yknow..... shoes are never too many and so are clothes! :D

Didn't take much picture because we were all so focused on shopping!
Will still post them after I'm done editting and uploading.
Busy week again, wild wild wet tmr, secret secret the next day, and working for the next 3 days. Ughhhhhhhhh WORRRRRKKKKKKKKKKKKK, must push myself until like, maybe 2 weeks before my school opens, then I'll stop and take a break.

Met D after I reached home fresh from the airplane AND shower of course hehehe. Then Pepper Lunch for dindin! FUCKING CRAVING FOR IT idky but anyway, yumzzzzzzzzzz! He still say he feel like eating again tmr HAHAHAHAHA! It's nice we share the same love for good food :D Then we wanted to catch Kungfu Panda 2 @ 8.10 slot but was selling fast so took the 10.15 one instead. He came over since there's sooooooo much time and I packed and categorized my loots while he playss..... poker on fb -.-
GUYZ.
The movie was fantastic btw, couldn't stop laughing and the characters are uber adorable! Hehe, needa wake early tmr! Goodnight! :>



P.S Photobucket and net is being such a BITCH, always so slow and fucked up when I want to upload and post photos. If you cant see t pics, sorry!

If you're my GA, then I'll be your devil :)

Seasalt Caramel @ Upper Thomson, just beside the famous crispy prata shop!

See that face, "Wahlau take photo so slow.. cannot wait to eat siah...."

Then I told him, "eh smile if not no ice cream for you." And he obliged HAHAHAHAHAHAH



Ji De Chi.

Eat with this pig can really grow fats cos we both share the same adoration for fooddd. But I don't mind, cos you love me for who I am, and I can't wait cross the oceans and mountains with you. I can't promise that it will be a smooth journey, but what I can promise is, as long as you are still trying, as long as you are standing strong beside me, I will walk with you till the end of our paths together.

Gonna miss you terribly while I'm off! (Which I will be cos well, this is a queued post :) ) I love you with stars in my eyes and the moon in my heart.
hahahah so cheesy, byeeeeee
xoxooxoxoxoxoxoox!!

Jaggerboomz

I know I know I know this is overdueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and I've been lazy to update blah! But anyway, I broke my club virginity a few weeks back! HAHAHA, was so much fun and of course I can't wait for the next! We decided to head to Helipad, not really that eager to head to the "bigger" clubs like Powerhouse or Butter so..... ya. (ya la I n00b)



Hahahah glasses and blazer on whil meeting Wafi for dinner! Had Pepper Lunch, can have that like alllllll the damn timeeeeee. I think I'm the only one who thinks it's really nice! Not nice like WOAAAAAAH FUCKING DELICIOUS DIE DIE MUST TRY but..... maybe I was drawn to the hotplate innovation? The beef ALWAYS melt in mouth so that's a plus point!



Then of course Wafi convinced me to take off my glasses and jacket. Haha, he's my confidence booster 4evaaaaaa.






Trained to Clark Quay, wanted to take a walk but remember how the weather was a total bitch past few weeks? So, we took a rest @ Subway wwhile waiting for the rest.







His cam takes awsome photos!
Well then, waited for the awsome clique to arrive and then we PARTY ROCK!



Gorgeous sisters!




Last pix, B00BAGE! HEhehehehe, I was having a good time shakin' ma thang.


I'M GOING TO BKK IN 8HRS TIME!!!!! Yup, it motivated me to umm update my blog at least before leaving? As usual, not sleeping...... YET. Feelin the eyebags man....
ANYWAY, CAN'T WAIT! GONNA GET SO MANY GOODIES!! :> If possible, won't it be nice to slack at a bar nearby the hotel and just talk about crap after a long whole day? Welllll yea we'll prolly be like dog-tired but hey! Suddenly all the extra unknown energy just comes out of the blue when you're on a holiday! HAHAAHAHAA
okokok, better rest! 4D3N, will absolutely blog after that, cos I'm gonna hit Wild Wild Wet with bby love and TAAAATTTOOOOOOOOOOOO next week! :D

P.S Sorry for the unequal sizes of the photos, only realised after I uploaded and I'm soooooo lazy to change. zz