Tuesday, January 20

more caramel in my caramel spin please.





I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do


It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
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Just a few more days.. then I'll take it with a complete heart.

Went to Shatec Institute to fill in the application form and got interviewed.
I'm not very confident though, my interview was such a... wasted scene.
My mind was blank, only on the way back that things I've been wanting to say starts flowing back in.

I don't know what's happening to me.
I can even forget to bring my phone today.
*smacks head*

Somehow I wish I could work from morning till night,
keep myself busy, entertain customers, seeing the smiles on their face.
I need to get myself out of this awful stance.

Why are they unhappy? Shouldnt parents be happy for their children when they go for what they really want in life? Why should parents make the decisions for us? If they did, then isn't it what they WANT us to do, instead of what we WANT to do?
So it will become their "DREAMS" instead of OURS?

Fucking awsome life I'm having.
hahahahahahahah.

P.S I'm just really fucking confused by everything that's going on in my life.

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