dang it ;

my life's so fucked up man. seriously.
i lost that fucking receipt and now my paps don't trust me.
saying that i was just wasting his money. FUCK LAH, THE RECEIPT DON'T COST YOU, ITS THE LESSONS DORK.
fine lah, i'm also so damned pissed to explain a fuck to you.

anything means nothing anymore.

but maybe the receipt is needed for entry of the class, so, either call the CC to confirm the timing of the class or go to the CC to obtain another receipt. since they have registered my name already.
why did i join the Korean Elementary Class? because i love Korea! i love the food, the flims, thetelevision programmes they make and of course, i love the place. i don't do a thing without a reason.

million sighs to why i am born to be such a bitchy, unrespectful child.
I'M NOT EVEN A TEEN!! because i behave like a spoilt brat.
and i think i could make it by my own. i even thought of moving to Korea and start anew there.

i don't know, I REALLY DON'T KNOW! now the world is just a place providing a living for me.
wait, do i even deserve to be in this world? perhaps i was suppose to be born as a animal that will be poached on and tortured.

i'm now moving on with life without the enthusiasm. conclusion, life's like a lifeless puppet, to me.

i'm angry with paps, but i'm more pissed off and disappointed in myself. WHY CAN'T I BE A GOOD DAUGHTER? and a good girl? yes, we all should be ourselves. but being a bad girl as myself? uh-uh.
i want to be happy.
i want to wake up every morning and think, oh my god, the world God made is so beautiful that beautiful people lives in it. and skies are full of colours that'll mesmerise us. the greenery of Mother Nature and the oceans that are so blue, worries are all carried away by the waves.

but,
i'm just a bad child that nobody will want to be with.
sorry paps. sorry..


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