Nevermind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remembered you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

We hold in our hearts, the sword and the faith.

Breast friend Wafi talked some sense into me today. I guess I was selfish. He was right. Trust is a choice. My friends, my boyfriend, my family.. They are more than willing to accept my trust in them. I was just blinded by overthinking. Maybe I was just so afraid of putting my trust in anyone. I'm a sensitive person and I tend to keep it up, because I don't want anyone to feel that I'm needy or emotional. Then this bulids up till full to the brim and I just cry it all out alone, of course, without being a burden to anyone. And it goes on repeat. I guess that's how my life goes. Trust isn't just about telling all your secrets and having them keep it a hush. I'm talking about that Trust, you put into someone and believe that they will never want to hurt you physically or emotinally. That they will never make use of you or step on top of your head to gain something for themselves. That they will never badmouth and backstab you with other friends.

No one is perfect, I admit. I'm sure everyone will have at least done one of the actions I've mention, I am guilty too. I guess that's why they say life is a risk-taker. It's either you decide to trust that person, and had em crushing that trust like a paper cup, or not trusting a person, who is totally trust-worthy? You'll never know.

Yknow what I'm saying? The world is too harsh for the word, Trust.
Thinking about it, it's just so sad. How I understood the phrase, "Trust is like a mirror. Once broken, you can fix it back, but you'll still see the cracks."
Because right now, I can still feel it. That void.
That vague moment, sitting on the closed toilet seat in the handicapped cubicle, hiding away from everyone, listening to My Chemical Romance's Desert Song.

We hold in our hearts, the sword and the faith
Swelled up from the rain, clouds move like a wraith
Well after all, we'll lie another day
And through it all, we'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come
To stare or wash away the blood?

Yes, I will and can forgive, but will never forget the moments that scar me for life. This song pulled me through, and it tells me that, yes, we'll always wonder if tomorrow every comes. It will, if you grit your teeth, pick yourself up with all the last remaining strength you have, and fight for your battle to a stronger you.

This is why I had the first paragraph inked.
It tells me to always prepare myself for obstacles (swords up) and hold faith (aka shield) for people whom I love and loves me back the way I do.
And I had it remind me that even if every last person I ever loved had betrayed me (super touch wood), I have myself and I'll fight for ME till my very last breath.


For now, I'll try to put my past aside, and learn to start trusting. Cherish every single of your loved ones before it's too late.

I am ready.

There's no one I can really trust right now.
I tell myself all the time, I fight this battle alone.

Little bunbun!

Pix from last sat's Helipad!






Jaggerboomz to start the kickoff! Amazing people to dance the night away with, can't wait for perhaps Phuture the last week of July! Then school'll start in Aug and I'll prolly tone down......... not that I party daily or weekly though lol.

These pictures are from Liying's btw! She's at Thailand now, coming back on Thursday I guess? Cos we are going to City Plaza again! Hehehe, I can't stop myself from shopping. Hai, money fall from somewhere leh.

Had a mini celebration with D! Yup, it's our 3rd month, it seems so slow cos I feel like I've known him for like ages but it's only been, well that long. We agreed that we should go for like yearly anniversaries but I don't know, we just decided we should have something special today! We even planned for a vacation over to Phuket or Bali for our 1 year anni! Yea, the future is scary.. :l But hey, just a thought yknow?
But anyhoo, he surprised me with a bunny doll that I've wanted for quite long now, hehe, little buns!




I love you baby boy!

USS!

Whew! Sat night was a whippin good time with the usuals @Helipad! It hurt so much in my new wedges but the pain ain't gonna make me stop dancing hehe! Anyhow, had a few hours sleep after that and had to wake up early to go USS with D and his friends :>!

HAD AWESOME FUN! Despite the fact that it was scorching hot.. I really enjoyed.. this time round :)



I really wanted the potion bottle thingy and D bought one for me! Yay hehe! It's going to be our love potion :p





Y U SHO KUTE????



Kungfu Panda! Hehehe so big and cuddly!


Lunch @ Chilli's. D and I shared this trio platter but we still got damn full! Only the greeny fried wrap thing was nice though :( AND THIS WAS @ A PRICE OF $23.9 . DAMN! Overpriced and just average western food = pass. Maybe I should have topped $4 more for half a pork rib! Slurpsssssss..


Lollipops EVERYWHERE! Makes me happy ^_^

Been to almost every ride except for the kiddish ones, Waterworks and the water ride @Jurassic Park. Yeah such a waste, but I'm not going to wait for a ride that's a hour long! Missed the timing for Waterworks (It's a AMAZING show I bet!), so decided, well, next time!

I went extreme man. I am proud to say I've sat through both Human and Cylon @Battlestar Galactica. It's no kidding, ITS EXTREME. If you're wondering which one you should go first, take Cylon, the red one. THAT, IS, FUCKING, CRAZY! Or prolly cos it's the craziest ride I've ever taken because I screamed the FUCK OUT OF MY LUNGS and I'm having sore throat now haha. I can't get over the part where it brought us the first exhilarating drop, I couldn't even scream, I just cringed my face and thank god there's no sneaky candid camera if not it's gonna be the joke of the day.

So when D's friend wanted to go to Jurassic, we gave it a miss and decided to go home and take some rest because the both of us didn't have enough sleep the night before!
Of course on the way we had to make use of all the potential we can have at USS and took pictures with the mascots!

Woody Woodpecker's girlfriend was so mean! Look how she totally disregard me in the photo :( Plus she tapped D on his shoulders after we were done and blew his a flying kiss! I shot her in the face, "YA GONNA BE KENTUCKY FRIED CHICKEN NEXT YOU MOTHER BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!".



Naw just kidding! Hehe!



Those awkward facial expressions cos Frankenstein was strangling me!



Chicago mix, Cheesecorn and Caramelcrisp! It's the sexbomb baby! Cinemas should sell sexbomb popcorns like Garret does! So far only Cathay has the best caramelised popcorns. The rest like, meh, YOU CALL THAT SWEET?

Hopped gracefully to my motherland, CANDYLICIOUS.


Jelly beanies! Yummmmzzzzz, should totally get toasted marshmallows! Skip the dark chocolate cos as tempting as it sounds, it's gonna disappoint you like how it did to me. *pouts*

Gotta love candy shops! It just makes me feel so warm and giggly inside, like a fat kid surrounded by candies and chocolates :) Awwwwwwwwww..


When that happens, wipe it off with napkins which are made from recycled materials.



Muaks! :>

Been craving the whooooole day for chicken rice! Gotta get my fix tomorrow, lunchtime! Hehehee ooo salivating now .... no! I mean, I'm just..

so random, bye! :)

Cheap thrills & I'm lurrrvin' it!

So breastfriend and I headed to City Plaza for some sneak mission and I swear, stuff there are like supar CHEAP. Ok, not as cheap as BKK (ITS SHOPPING HEAVEN THERE!!), or as shiok but....... THE SHOES ARE LIKE, $16.90, $20?!?!!? And it's def what blogshops are selling out there for like 3x the price! OMG. I really want to go crazy with the shoes there but I have to limit myself. Broke alr. IKR? Hai.


O nom nom at a nice malay hawker section, too bad we were too full to try their popiah!















Go! Go! Rings power!











Timbre for dindin, waited for Wayne, that guy thinks he's the swag, made us wait so long for him! Anyhooo, their duck pizza was AW-to-the-SOME and so was the buffalo wings! Nice chillin' ambience, live music, booze mmmm, def coming back! What I hated the most was climbing the FREAKING STAIRS..... build elevators leh! Haha if you went up Mount Sophia you should know what I'm talking about!

uUumm umm, Helipad this sat and sun, USS with D and his friends!
FINALLY IM HAVING AN EXCITING WEEKEND. I'm so done with work, my colleagues are saying, "aaaahhhh still so long before your school starts, come and help laaaaaa". Then I keep being soft-hearted but fuck that! I need to move on and I have no more but less than 4 weeks before my school starts. Imma enjoy my work-free life since I have a choice.

Nights! o-o
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