Gifts from beloved friends! Christmas will never fail to put a smile on anyone's face! It is a season of joy, celebration, sharing, caring and love. Best of all, since it's near to the start of a new year, it allows one to reflect, never look back at the past, set new goals and move the hell on!! Like bleh, 2011 may have sucked but lets not only pray to make 2012 better, but MAKE IT WORK!

P/S, You know who you are, thanks for the very special and personalized gift. I really wish happiness for you, and please be happy because it's not worth getting hurt over me. If I deserve better, then well, you deserve the best darling.

Christmas 11'

Overall, Christmas was well spent this year thou, it kinda felt it passed quite quietly and quickly :/

I hand-drawn our portrait, customized the boring wooden frame with blue lace on the corners and a merry love letter. Surprisingly, and coincidentally, he gotten our photos printed and bought a nice black velvet frame to go with it. Hehehee, I feel warm and squishy inside knowing we had similar gifts for one another. Buffet @Pariss Marina Square and alooottt of walking to burn the fats after that. <3

I just have to keep pretending and pretending and pretending..

“Sometimes the past is something you just can’t let go of. And sometimes the past is something we’ll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present.”

— Grey’s Anatomy

SAM (Singapore Arts Museum) with Wan Ning! Hehe headed to Purvis Street to look for Mel at her workplace and chitter-chattered for awhile cos she had to head back for work!

4 more days to my long-awaited holiday!

Deeply saddened

I dont know what I have done? Understanding that you do things that does not respect my presence is not enough to show you how much this friendship means? I risked my relationship, and because of little things, you are willing to let it ruin us? This is the best I can do. I just need you to know you can lean on me anytime you need someone.

If I truly mean something to you, you'll understand no matter what, not disregard it. That's all.

"People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there."
- Anonymous

QQ milk tea, comes with coconut jelly and small pearls. Yummy yummy! The outlet at Dhoby Ghaut tastes better thou! Haha, bubble tea queen!

"Guys don't understand how permanently damaging it is to a girl when he looks at another or cheats. Guys don't get how frail a woman's esteem is. Guys don't understand how this paranoia or insecurity or neediness carries and sticks wherever she goes .... Guys don't get how hard it is to be a girl. It's like no matter how hard we girls try, we will still never be good enough for you."


True to that.

Why are there such emotions like anger, hatred and disappointment?
Why can't there only be forgiveness, understanding and compromising?

When you care for someone, you are bound to get hurt, no matter how strong the love is.

It never fail to tear me apart.

Blogging, just so from years down the road, I know I'm still alive from all the bullshit. Settling for a part-time job that will grant me all my current WANTS and excessive art materials for school next year. Mundane. Strange, I can't wait to start working though.

The most frustrating thing is that I always fail to see how broken I already am, and I still let myself get hurt. Living for the sake of living.

I'm still learning.

Your "sorry"s don't mean a thing because if they do,
I dont see why there's a need to cry in silence.

Huhh this blog is so dead.
Anyway, wonder why I had the sudden urge to blog?
Well, assessment is just next monday, and here I am, still awake, painting my canvas!
I don't mind actually, I secretly like it, hehe. Only an exception for assessment periods lah, I not so on one, siol.








1) Wafi came to school to surprise me hehe!

2) Panda 4eva.

3) My proudest 3D product. (I really cannot make it in 3D lah, it's really not my forte ugh) We had to bring toys and use them as our subject, developing them into another toy using only masking tape and artcard. It's meant to be a bunny with 3 holes on the back, which are actually the pods to the 3 peas! My concept was a combination of Peas-in-a-Pod and a bunny stuffed toy. Hai, damn childish but let me be happy ok? I only dare to show this to the world trololol.

I'm 50% done with my canvas! Loving how it looks now! Set a target to finish it by Friday, and then weekends would be all the minimal stuff left to do.. Oh dear, I can smell sweet freedom coming to me but then my heart is beating 50% faster because I keep thinking I can't finish everything by Monday. I die die also must ya.
Vhy m i tokin 2 myself.. offf to sleepeppppp

Everyday, people mix up two words: love and like. They should never be used under the same terms, since they are NOTHING alike. When you love someone, you take the relationship onto a whole new level. It is when you see a future with that person, when you feel you can tell them anything because you feel so much trust. You feel so lucky to have that person by your side at all times. You know it is love, when you feel you never want that person to let go and leave your side. That individual, makes you so happy, makes your life worth living. It's the only person you need in your life

- love-tragedy.tumblr.com



Too busy with school work, le sigh.

My love for you grows with each passing day, along with fear, that one day, I will never hear you say and mean those three words again.

I really want to watch the fireworks on the beautiful rooftop of Marina Bay Sands with you next year. Actually it doesn't matter where, as long as you'll still love me the same. As long we are still standing strong together. :>

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remembered you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

We hold in our hearts, the sword and the faith.

Breast friend Wafi talked some sense into me today. I guess I was selfish. He was right. Trust is a choice. My friends, my boyfriend, my family.. They are more than willing to accept my trust in them. I was just blinded by overthinking. Maybe I was just so afraid of putting my trust in anyone. I'm a sensitive person and I tend to keep it up, because I don't want anyone to feel that I'm needy or emotional. Then this bulids up till full to the brim and I just cry it all out alone, of course, without being a burden to anyone. And it goes on repeat. I guess that's how my life goes. Trust isn't just about telling all your secrets and having them keep it a hush. I'm talking about that Trust, you put into someone and believe that they will never want to hurt you physically or emotinally. That they will never make use of you or step on top of your head to gain something for themselves. That they will never badmouth and backstab you with other friends.

No one is perfect, I admit. I'm sure everyone will have at least done one of the actions I've mention, I am guilty too. I guess that's why they say life is a risk-taker. It's either you decide to trust that person, and had em crushing that trust like a paper cup, or not trusting a person, who is totally trust-worthy? You'll never know.

Yknow what I'm saying? The world is too harsh for the word, Trust.
Thinking about it, it's just so sad. How I understood the phrase, "Trust is like a mirror. Once broken, you can fix it back, but you'll still see the cracks."
Because right now, I can still feel it. That void.
That vague moment, sitting on the closed toilet seat in the handicapped cubicle, hiding away from everyone, listening to My Chemical Romance's Desert Song.

We hold in our hearts, the sword and the faith
Swelled up from the rain, clouds move like a wraith
Well after all, we'll lie another day
And through it all, we'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come
To stare or wash away the blood?

Yes, I will and can forgive, but will never forget the moments that scar me for life. This song pulled me through, and it tells me that, yes, we'll always wonder if tomorrow every comes. It will, if you grit your teeth, pick yourself up with all the last remaining strength you have, and fight for your battle to a stronger you.

This is why I had the first paragraph inked.
It tells me to always prepare myself for obstacles (swords up) and hold faith (aka shield) for people whom I love and loves me back the way I do.
And I had it remind me that even if every last person I ever loved had betrayed me (super touch wood), I have myself and I'll fight for ME till my very last breath.


For now, I'll try to put my past aside, and learn to start trusting. Cherish every single of your loved ones before it's too late.

I am ready.

There's no one I can really trust right now.
I tell myself all the time, I fight this battle alone.

Little bunbun!

Pix from last sat's Helipad!






Jaggerboomz to start the kickoff! Amazing people to dance the night away with, can't wait for perhaps Phuture the last week of July! Then school'll start in Aug and I'll prolly tone down......... not that I party daily or weekly though lol.

These pictures are from Liying's btw! She's at Thailand now, coming back on Thursday I guess? Cos we are going to City Plaza again! Hehehe, I can't stop myself from shopping. Hai, money fall from somewhere leh.

Had a mini celebration with D! Yup, it's our 3rd month, it seems so slow cos I feel like I've known him for like ages but it's only been, well that long. We agreed that we should go for like yearly anniversaries but I don't know, we just decided we should have something special today! We even planned for a vacation over to Phuket or Bali for our 1 year anni! Yea, the future is scary.. :l But hey, just a thought yknow?
But anyhoo, he surprised me with a bunny doll that I've wanted for quite long now, hehe, little buns!




I love you baby boy!

USS!

Whew! Sat night was a whippin good time with the usuals @Helipad! It hurt so much in my new wedges but the pain ain't gonna make me stop dancing hehe! Anyhow, had a few hours sleep after that and had to wake up early to go USS with D and his friends :>!

HAD AWESOME FUN! Despite the fact that it was scorching hot.. I really enjoyed.. this time round :)



I really wanted the potion bottle thingy and D bought one for me! Yay hehe! It's going to be our love potion :p





Y U SHO KUTE????



Kungfu Panda! Hehehe so big and cuddly!


Lunch @ Chilli's. D and I shared this trio platter but we still got damn full! Only the greeny fried wrap thing was nice though :( AND THIS WAS @ A PRICE OF $23.9 . DAMN! Overpriced and just average western food = pass. Maybe I should have topped $4 more for half a pork rib! Slurpsssssss..


Lollipops EVERYWHERE! Makes me happy ^_^

Been to almost every ride except for the kiddish ones, Waterworks and the water ride @Jurassic Park. Yeah such a waste, but I'm not going to wait for a ride that's a hour long! Missed the timing for Waterworks (It's a AMAZING show I bet!), so decided, well, next time!

I went extreme man. I am proud to say I've sat through both Human and Cylon @Battlestar Galactica. It's no kidding, ITS EXTREME. If you're wondering which one you should go first, take Cylon, the red one. THAT, IS, FUCKING, CRAZY! Or prolly cos it's the craziest ride I've ever taken because I screamed the FUCK OUT OF MY LUNGS and I'm having sore throat now haha. I can't get over the part where it brought us the first exhilarating drop, I couldn't even scream, I just cringed my face and thank god there's no sneaky candid camera if not it's gonna be the joke of the day.

So when D's friend wanted to go to Jurassic, we gave it a miss and decided to go home and take some rest because the both of us didn't have enough sleep the night before!
Of course on the way we had to make use of all the potential we can have at USS and took pictures with the mascots!

Woody Woodpecker's girlfriend was so mean! Look how she totally disregard me in the photo :( Plus she tapped D on his shoulders after we were done and blew his a flying kiss! I shot her in the face, "YA GONNA BE KENTUCKY FRIED CHICKEN NEXT YOU MOTHER BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!".



Naw just kidding! Hehe!



Those awkward facial expressions cos Frankenstein was strangling me!



Chicago mix, Cheesecorn and Caramelcrisp! It's the sexbomb baby! Cinemas should sell sexbomb popcorns like Garret does! So far only Cathay has the best caramelised popcorns. The rest like, meh, YOU CALL THAT SWEET?

Hopped gracefully to my motherland, CANDYLICIOUS.


Jelly beanies! Yummmmzzzzz, should totally get toasted marshmallows! Skip the dark chocolate cos as tempting as it sounds, it's gonna disappoint you like how it did to me. *pouts*

Gotta love candy shops! It just makes me feel so warm and giggly inside, like a fat kid surrounded by candies and chocolates :) Awwwwwwwwww..


When that happens, wipe it off with napkins which are made from recycled materials.



Muaks! :>

Been craving the whooooole day for chicken rice! Gotta get my fix tomorrow, lunchtime! Hehehee ooo salivating now .... no! I mean, I'm just..

so random, bye! :)