BLOOD

I can't answer those questions.
As to why did I.
Maybe I was immature. But immaturity has nothing to do with it.
Immaturity has nothing to do with making one fall in love.
You fall in love by chance, not by choice.
We all fall in love in the most unexpected ways.

Sometimes we fall in love with the wrong person.
Yes, and from the start we know we shouldn't had make it happen.
But still, how could I.... just ignore everything.
Words all make it seem so easy, but could you just tell your heart not to fucking feel? I doubt so. I really doubt so.

Honestly, I don't know what I should do right now.
Don't tell me to give it all up because that's not something I can really do right now. Don't ask me not to think anymore, because I CAN'T.
Maybe I'm just a shitty person like that, I think of all the negative things.
Even the positive can't outdo the latter.

What the fuck is wrong with me?
I want to be happy.

How do I get out of this pithole again.... ?
How do I convince myself not to fall too deep.. How can you make your heart do the opposite?

Then again, yea. Maybe it was all my fault for not being able to lie to myself that it's not possible.

Haha fuck my life.