You're right. As time goes by, people change.
What I realized, is that feelings change too.
They intensify or grow...
Or fade like ashes blown away.

What about yours?

Beaten

I looked up and saw a kite high up in the sky today
I felt tears welling up in my eyes.
God knows how hard I've been trying, with all my tears, all my blood, all my heart.
But this is all I'll end up with..
mending up the broken pieces alone.

It's always like that. You dont even seem affected by it.
When we quarrel, im the one who loses out. You're unshaken. When I cry like fuck, no one is there. No one is there to comfort me, hold me. Not even you. I lost count of the times I cry walking back home. You said I like to make people think youre a bad boyfriend because I always post shit on my blog or facebook. Then here's a big question for you, were you ever there for me? I'm suffering, but you're out happy with friends and family. Im non-existant in your life when you don't need me.
Im broken.

No toy gets left behind.

I caught Toy Story 3 with boyfee after work on sat!
It was AWE-SOME !!!!!!!!!1 I tickled the inner child in me ahahah. When the toys are all having fun, it just puts a smile on my face :)
I like all characters! Even the bad mean strawberry teddy, Lotso. I mean, yea he's a baddie but he's so huggable!!!!! And he used to be a sweet loving toy until... well! Though that Big Baby toy freaks me out lol. My favourite toy of all has to be the peas-in-a-pod!


BECAUSE THEY ARE JUST SO BOUNCY AND ADORABLE AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWwwww.
I HOPE SOMEONE DECIDES TO MANUFACTURE PEAS-IN-A-POD CUS I WILL SOOOOOOOO GET IT!
(click on the pic and watch them animate!)

Yeap, it was a tearjerker as well. The ending made me realised how fast I've grown. Toy Story first came out in like what, 1995? I was only 3 years old. And now?
Eighteen.
15 years whizzed by.
I cried at the thought of that.

How innocent and carefree we all used to be as a child.

My dad would be off work, my brother schooling and my mom doing housework.
I'll just sit on the floor with my bucket of toys and play with em.
I remembered I had this heart-shaped bucket and it'll contain all my cookery toys HAHAHAHAHA. I'll pretend like I'm the world's best chef and cook for my imaginary friends or toys. As I grew a little older, I started to have "adventures" with all my cuddly toys HAHAHA. With like those Limited Edition Hello Kitty we could get with a Happy Meal at Macs and random animal plushies. I used to have 4 dog soft toys which I'll always sleep with. I will kiss every 4 of them goodnight before I go to bed. :)

My mum took them away cus I was always sneezing and she said that it's because my toys are homes for dust ):
She kept them somewhere but I think she donated them alr..
I miss them ):
Somehow, as a child, I've always believed that toys, they do come alive and have feelings lmao.

It's clear now that the difference between then and now is vast.
I grew up with a mentality that the world is happy place.
I grew up to find out that the world is actually filled with greed and corruption.
So this is it huh, it's what we call, Life.


P.S Anyone wants to watch Toy Story 3? Cos I wanna go for a second round ;)
P.S.S Pixar creates the best animations ever! Watched Up and Wall-E umpteen times and it'll never fail to melt my heart.

There're spikes in the front and pitholes at the back,
so I'm stuck right here in the middle.

Im really scared.
Would you hold me or would you just watch as I tumble down like a worthless child?

S.O.S

No matter how hard you try, you can never be oblivious to what your heart says or how it feels.

the cruelty of mankind.
everyone has a limit to their own.
I've been pushing back this gushing blood
but I'm soon to lose all my strength to hold back anymore
I just wish ..

OFF DAY!

AIYAEYAE.
So thus, my one and only off day is coming to an end ):
Spent it fruitfully with Sammy and Suhana! The two BIG Ssss.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Made a -.- journey to school to erm, settle some things then went to meet them at cineleisure! We watched Nanny McPhee! Suhana's favourite nanny HAHAHAHAH! Can see where she got all her nanny skills from niao :D

AND OMGGGGGGG POPCORNSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSsss I have been craving for them since.....! I don't freaking know when! I mean, yea I had popcorns @ GV some time back but........ their popcorn sucks! I mean, it's barely even sweet! Cathay has got the caramelish, sweet candy popcorn! MELTS-IN-YOUR-MOUTH-KIND-OF, *drools*
I mean, GV, cumon!!! You used to have that caramel popcorn too, where'd it gone to?

Wokay t rest of the photos!





Didn't have border cos it's gonna completely cover hana's face lulz




Haven't camwhored in a while, sigh.


After t movie, we had dinner at Korean BBQ and the service sucked. Whatever! Had catching up with the girls :') We shall have an overseas trip one day yea!? All TNFS!
Sam had to go off so Hana and me went for a little shopping since yall, its GSS! HAHAHAH managed to get some stuffs buttttt, HEY! ITS ALWAYS NOT ENOUGH!
O well, next mon prolly (: Have yet to step into Topshop's .. ;)

O yea, you've seen Lady Gaga's Alejandro MV? I don't like the song personally, but the video's cool. It's kind of disturbing, weird prolly. But I'm sure there's a picture behind it. The scene where she was wearing a white robe with a red cross? That kinda reminds me of .... something ... demonic.

OMG DEJA VU-ED ABOUT BLOGGING THIS!
eerr err, kay imma go sleep early cus well, my day is.. practically over. ):

P.S Is it wrong, if you had ventured fairly deep into what you thought you seemingly wanted but realised at the end, it's not what you really want? Is it too late to turn back? Is the time taken wasted, or is it worth it because probably it made you realise that if you pick yourself up once again, you know you will be even stronger and wiser this time round? I really don't know, I mean yea, people shot back at me with, "Then you shouldn't have even taken this course." or shits like "Then you wasted time and your parents' money."
We all make mistakes. We make wrong judgements too. Yea I am passionate about what I like to do, but is it enough to push me or carry me forward to stay in this line? Or do I see myself carrying on? No, not really. Now I'm just some confused young adult who doesn't know where she should go. :/ Well, it's too early to say anything now. But I'm waking up to mornings thinking, "Ohhhh fuck." And then I think again, "What the fuck have I gotten myself into?" and those wise words came intruding in, "You should appreciate what you have now. Many wanted to be there but couldn't, but here you are." And yea, it really hit me. Maybe it's just that I have no motivation to stay on. It may all sound like some kind of excuse, the fact is, all I really have now, are questions.
I have a choice to be happier.


P.S.S that was a fucking long P.S note.

It's been more than a week since I've gotten Gingy and he turned real dark O_O Like like sandy brown to slight damp soil kind of colour.
I think he wants me to eat him.
OKAY! I WILL EAT YOU THE FIRST THING IN THE MORNING! (Not easy to resist a delicious gingerman anyway hohohoho)

ANYHOO! TOY STORY 3 IS STARTING THIS JULY 17 I CAAAAANT WAAAAAAAAAAAAAIT!!!!!
and ermmmmmm what was I gonna say???///
arrrrrggggggggggg,
2 more days to off day.
the day which I will never ever fucking get enough of LOOOOOOOOOL

Im just bored okay?
And I miss my boyfren. he's prolly doing like 100 pushups everyday now in camp huahuahuahuahuauhuahua.

I WANNA SEE MY TNFS TSOOON TOO!


P.S Actually I secretly can't wait to eat Gingy
P.S.S Woop not a secret anymore
P.S.S.S I'll miss Gingy ):

I am sick.
Really sick :(




Lovesick.

I'm bored!

Hey people! Today's gonna be a picture-less wordy post!
So today I headed back to sch to get my transcript. Pretty much surprised with my results?
Good surprise I'd say.. Guess I wuss lucky.
So anyhow, there's a fucking ugly "E" alphapet right beside "Appreciation of Japanese Cuisine"
Waaa? I don't recall having to sit for any paper or getting involved in a Japanese practical exam.
So, what the big o fuck is going on?
Ohhh look I don't think I really mind failing that subject because we were told it was a subject of appreciation, which sorta means it's a.. bonus subject?
but hooray now we have to pay freaking $200 just to retake THAT.
Whaaaa...? Are you serious-o, school?
A $200 fee just so you can have a taste of our bentos that we are expected to make for the retake?
Hey! Buy your own freaking bento @ Sakae Sushi or something!!
Gosh! Take a loan from the bank or something, not resort with some sneaky tricks like that! Cum-mon!!!

Aside that, I am so gonna get fried this week. I don't want to think about it. 1 event is bad enough, 3 events, 3 days in a row?
That's just... Maybe I'm just not up to it.
I want my life back.

I'll never forget the times we had.
I miss all of that.

universal studio!

Oh well! Went to Universal Studio with Chee Keat, Joanne, Kar Dong and Ogre A.K.A Mark (yes I gave him a new nickname heheheh)
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&7777777777 it was ...... average.
Expected better but oh wells, it fails to impress I guess!
The weather kind of killed the fun. ESP when you're queuing for a ride, the heat just depletes excitement loolol.
Soooo, IMO, rides I recommend will be the Shrek 4D, Mummy Returns, Rapid Falls (Prepare to get wetsoaked from head to toe) and perhaps the Battlestar Galactica, it was under maintenance but heck it's no doubt the biggest attraction of all in the themepark. If queue timings aren't long, give the Canopy Flyer and Enchanted Airways a go too!
Oh! We were so bored there, we took the Mummy ride for 4 times! ITS GOOD HAHAHAHAH.
But I hate queuing up.
Oki enuff talkin shall post em photos!


















Hehehe I was sadden by the fact Shrek Forever After is the final sequel ): Shrek 4D is based on the first flim though.




Shrek's swamp! (Pond instead of mud??? Comon -.-)




Smoked turkey! MMmm ogre likes it!


I keep fantasizing that it's some kind of magical plant




I BOUGHT GINGY THE GINGERBREAD MAN!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY HAPPY!


MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER FROM SHREK! Because its so... gingy-like.


Cheesecake!












HAHAHAH THATS ALL GOTTA GO,
WORK TMR ._______.
....
BTW, above photos are taken by the iphone,
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.
ENDING THIS POST WITH A PIC OF GREEN-HATING-OGRE




xoxo