i dont know. ive expected. life always go for a big u-fucking-turning when it nearly comes to a great start. why? friends are supposed to make you realise who you really are but now im stuck. i even more confused. i dont know. youre right, i dont know who i am now. im trying too hard. im always trying too hard. because i just wanna be a better friend, better girlfriend, better person to everyone. but you see? everytime i put in t effort, and i kick aside my ownself just to aid others, shit happens. nobody seems to fucking appreciate and i feel used over and over again. then again what is fucking love? fucking hell. maybe he's right. you're not serious. am i a substitute for your ex? why am i always a ragdoll? am i to fucking play with? why is everybody treating me like one? thrown, played, toyed, kicked, stabbed, all just for t sake of themselves and then they toss me away. friends. what are friends really? i thought they are t ones who you will feel comfortable with. but nah, heres a change. im just really disappointed because i thought i could trust them.. haha, what was i thinking? everyone just say thanks and that all. they'll never remember what you've done. moral: i can never trust anyone in my fucking awsome life.
not even the closest. argh fuck life fuckers
sho kute riitex? hehex.
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