Left or Right?

When I think about it
I wonder if they do too.
At first, I thought the scars are nothing, just dried lines marked.
Permanently, faintly etched.
But who knew it could change my whole perspective of life?

After O levels, where am I going to go? I had plans in mind, but my parents are most likely to reject. Because Pops had bad judgements about the school I really wanted to enroll in..

So I had to search for other choices.
That day t school went to Ngee Ann Poly for open house, I was inspired by nursing. I wanted to help people, tend to patients, and if I'd really become serious in this course, I would be willing to overcome my slight fear of.. blood. Nevermind the high points, I believe in our burning passion and what you really desire to do.

I told Pops, I got rejected, straight down. I felt I lost half of the battle.


When I heard that Temasek Poly had a course specially in Veterinary Science, (whopping 10 pts wtf) my hopes are newfound. A vet is also a doctor what. Mostly, every parents want their child/children to be DOCTORS, LAWYERS, (INPUT OCCUPATIONS THAT ARE WELL-KNOWN AND HIGH-PAID HERE). So I thought, Pops would support this decision.

I told Pops over dinner, but I got a "NO", straight down.
Reason being, working with animals is too dangerous.
A hidden reason I guess, is that he doesn't like animals, esp pets.
BUT THE FUCKING THING IS, I DONT EVEN MIND! I WOULD BE WILLING TO SACRIFICE!
WHY? BECAUSE IT'S MY DREAM TO WORK WITH ANIMALS! TO SAVE THEIR LIVES!

If I can't take up courses which Im really keen on,
then, tell me, do I force my way and break my parents' hearts
or do I follow according to their advices?

Yesterday, Pops asked me, which poly am I going to go.
I kept quiet.
Inside me, I had lists of goals and plans set out infront of me,
but I had to keep them inside.
You know, the agony of keeping something you yearn to let go?

I yearn.. to feel it,
I want to be able to feel it,
to feel the joy or being able to freely tell my parents what I wanna do, where I'm going to go, and that I even wanted to set up my own little diner!
Also, my parents, supporting by giving their sincere blessings and confiding the trust in me that I will suceed, do well and make them proud. That will completes it.



but i had to keep them allinside.
All inside.