Left or Right?

When I think about it
I wonder if they do too.
At first, I thought the scars are nothing, just dried lines marked.
Permanently, faintly etched.
But who knew it could change my whole perspective of life?

After O levels, where am I going to go? I had plans in mind, but my parents are most likely to reject. Because Pops had bad judgements about the school I really wanted to enroll in..

So I had to search for other choices.
That day t school went to Ngee Ann Poly for open house, I was inspired by nursing. I wanted to help people, tend to patients, and if I'd really become serious in this course, I would be willing to overcome my slight fear of.. blood. Nevermind the high points, I believe in our burning passion and what you really desire to do.

I told Pops, I got rejected, straight down. I felt I lost half of the battle.


When I heard that Temasek Poly had a course specially in Veterinary Science, (whopping 10 pts wtf) my hopes are newfound. A vet is also a doctor what. Mostly, every parents want their child/children to be DOCTORS, LAWYERS, (INPUT OCCUPATIONS THAT ARE WELL-KNOWN AND HIGH-PAID HERE). So I thought, Pops would support this decision.

I told Pops over dinner, but I got a "NO", straight down.
Reason being, working with animals is too dangerous.
A hidden reason I guess, is that he doesn't like animals, esp pets.
BUT THE FUCKING THING IS, I DONT EVEN MIND! I WOULD BE WILLING TO SACRIFICE!
WHY? BECAUSE IT'S MY DREAM TO WORK WITH ANIMALS! TO SAVE THEIR LIVES!

If I can't take up courses which Im really keen on,
then, tell me, do I force my way and break my parents' hearts
or do I follow according to their advices?

Yesterday, Pops asked me, which poly am I going to go.
I kept quiet.
Inside me, I had lists of goals and plans set out infront of me,
but I had to keep them inside.
You know, the agony of keeping something you yearn to let go?

I yearn.. to feel it,
I want to be able to feel it,
to feel the joy or being able to freely tell my parents what I wanna do, where I'm going to go, and that I even wanted to set up my own little diner!
Also, my parents, supporting by giving their sincere blessings and confiding the trust in me that I will suceed, do well and make them proud. That will completes it.



but i had to keep them allinside.
All inside.

:'(

Bigger view for the lamest shit. (nothin is perfect shh-)
I just really wanna celebrate after each paper lol.
But can't. Emphasis on "can't".
Oh and emphasis on "YET"
CAN'T YET, GET?
MY BROTHER'S GOING TO BANGKOK THIS WEEK WITH HIS FRIENDS LAH,
so I'm feelin grumpy. ._.

Oh oh, I've received this emails from PETA,
and had t shock of me life.
http://www.marscandykills.com/

Just to satisfy OUR sweet tooth, poor rats are used in brutal experiments to determine effects of the chocolate ingredients used in chocolates and sweets like Mars, Skittles, M&Ms, Snickers..
Hella god, I've always deem these snacks as gulity-food.. but I never knew.. about this cruelty.

"Experimenters force-fed the rats by shoving plastic tubes down their throats and then cut open the rats' legs to expose an artery, which was clamped shut to block blood flow"

"..mice were fed a candy ingredient and forced to swim in a pool of a water mixed with white paint. The mice had to find a hidden platform to avoid drowning, only to be killed and dissected later on."

And? The company which was in charge of these candymaking, Mars. Inc, actually funded and supported these experiments?!

RIDICULOUS!
WHY CANT PEOPLE LIVE WITHOUT HARMING ANIMALS UNNECESSARILY?
DUH. INSTANT KILL IS BETTER THAN A SLOW, TORMENTED DEATH YOU FUCKHEADS.
WOAH FUCKING PISSED.

LIKE THE CHICKEN FARMS IN USA. CAN'T EVEN SLIT CHICKEN THROATS PROPERLY, THEN PROCEED TO DIP THEM IN BOILING WATER TO REMOVE THE FEATHERS.
YAH, HOPE SOMEONE SLITS YOUR NECK BUT OH MISSED YOUR MAIN ARTERY BY 0.1 MM THEN PROCEED TO BAKE YOU IN A BIG OVEN UNTIL YOUR BRAIN BURST AND YOUR GASTRIC ACID MELTS YOUR ENTIRE ORGANS, then you finally die :D

Thank God most of the fast-food chains are halal. Which means, poultry are killed, the quick and religious way(WHICH SPELLS APPROPIATE). ^.^ HURRAY!

And I loved Mars bar.
LOVED. With a -ED -ED -ED -ED at the back.
SUPPORT PETA! SUPPORT PETA!
Your every little effort helps ;)

EDIT,
http://getactive.peta.org/campaign/mars_animal_tests
And start by sending an email to Mars. Inc to drop those tests!

I'm sure, it is always more comforting to know that the food you're consuming does not have any involvement in cruel animal experiments ^.^

Here, I sincerely thank those who have made an effort, to save the animals' rights, which would have made the world a better place to live in. For every living thing.

SICK.

THIS WORLD IS SO SICK!
What am I expecting?
WHY AM I EXPECTING?
WHY WHAT WHY WHAT HUH HUH
Today is Friday.
Friday.
FRIDAY!!
FREAKIN FRIDAY LA!
BUT WHY SHOULD I EXPECT ANYTHIN,
WHEN I KNEW IT FROM T START,
IT'S JUST ALL IN MY THINKING?
WHATS WITH ALL THE SHIZXZXZ LOL

Wait wait, why am I rantin?
OHHHHH, whether you know it or you don't.
So be it. It's the ultimate best that you dont.
That you dont do anything, and gradually fade away.
No, dont you fade.
Today, no tears will be shed.
After the moon sets and sun rises,
you'll just be forgotten.
I won't ever feel th same again.
AND CONTINUE TO SMILE FOR LIFE AHHAHAH.

Tsk, like you'd even notice a difference,
HAW HAW HAW HAW HAW HAW!
Too oblivious, tskk.

Kay, back to studyin.
I just realised my Art's final piece is gonna be a chore to finish (3 hours confirm not sufficient too) , so.. I'm so tired.. I'll just, do some work, and replan my Art like tomorrow.
Gee I sound so sick.
I can't sleep yesterday night, my sleeping periods are so irregular now..
I might die of fatigue one day LOOLOLOLOL!

I feel solemnised asshole, okay?
It's just so hard to breathe sometimes.

WORK HARD STUDY HARD PARTY HARD AFTER Os
(:

O_O

Why is it easier to PLAY HARD ALL DAY
rather than STUDY HARD ALL DAY? -.-
Ummm umummu umm yeh.

Anyhoooooooos, went for dental appointment today
AND AND AND, my dentist was transfered to another place so a female dentist took his place. Shes really niceeeee. LOL.
It's like the first in my 3 (or so) braces years have I ever spoke more than 3 sentences to the dentist.

Haahah ok whatever. Today's also the fastest appointment ever. Like less than 5 mins. She just spoke to me about a few points of NOT putting on the darn retainers, and passed me a brown box. HMMMM cranky, what the hell's in there?
LOL! ITS A SCRULPTURE MADE OF CLAY OF MY WHOLE SET OF TEETH, before and after -.-
WHAAAAAAAAT THE CHEEEEEZ. Actually, it was really quirky and weird.

Okok, shall shift my focus back tooooooo,
(A) Maths
(B) CombSciences
(C) Social Studies
(D) Geography
(E) None of the above?



CHANG CHANG! THE ANSWER ISSSssssssss ,







(D) G for Geography!
No pressies for the right guess BWAHA
._.

P/S. I DONT LIKE PUTTING THESE RETAINERSSSSSSSS
SHALL RANT ABOUT IT ANOTHER DAY.
*yawns*

DIABLO SAN!

HOLY COW
DIABO III IS COMING!!!!!11111

FUCKING DIABLO III!!!!!!1
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
GO SEE THE TRAILER
LIKE FUCKING NICE LAAAAAaaa

DIABLO III!!!!!!!!!
DIABLO SAN lol.

Okay i'll be nice and put the pwnage vid here.





me likes me likes me likes me likes
I like awsome overdose spawn of monstersss
then WHAM! BHAM! CRACK!
all dies in splatters of deep blood loooool.
N'way, the Barbarian character looks like God of War, no?

Me know me words are bigg.
me excited for Diablo SAN.
NOT ICHI, NOT NI, BUT SAN!
Diablo I and II was awsome nonetheless.
DIABLO SAN IS LOOKING FUCKING GOODDDDD.
Hmmm, me feel like playin Diablo II now..
bad idea.

Just wish that it's compatible with my com when it comes out. Looking at the smooth graphics and detailed textures, might need to get those graphics card blahblahblah. -.-
BUT! ANYTHING FOR THE ALMIGHTY DIABLO SAN!!!
It's due in.. two years time -.- SHALL SAVE UP THEN!
*squeal like a pig*
Sorry I just ate.


P.S realised I made Diablo sound like a girly game LOL. DIABLO IS A KILLER ASS GAME ASSHOLES! Yum.

editedit,
Think Barbarian is boring?
WAIT TILL YOU LOOK AT THIS NEW HERO CREATED, THE WITCH DOCTOR. *smirks*



Chao.

OH OH, P.S/S. CHECK OUT WITCH DOCTOR'S WALL OF FIREEARTH ZOMBIES!
AWAWAAAAA, that's the quirkiest shit ever WOOHOO!

In a blink of eye, Pops and Mom turned a year older.


.. A year older.

EDIT

lol, look girls,

I just realised it, we're like all together even in the class photos! o_o
Esp the front row, haha how sweeet.
I miss 1E1/2E1, includ. Ms Soh. ):
Feelin t guilt for treatin Ms Soh so bad back then HAHAHA.
But lest, she's in happily ever after now. (:

...Ugh Combined Humans is sucha pain.. >.<

):

Won't be updatin much till,
everything's over.



Extremely stressed, like a thread that's likelyto snap.
I hate how I get so tired after like 2 hours of studyin?
Can't they invent something like, the, STUDIOUS PILLS?
Lawl, yah, I sork. at. this. :l
): Dread.