And then I'm not even recognised for th time and effort I've put in for them.
Bah, okay whatever. Sigh.
What is love, tell me what is love. Or like, or admiration.
It's all silly dilly, at this age, get together, break.
Even after believing in HAPPILY EVER AFTER.
HA HA HA, seriously, WHO BELIEVES IN THAT NOW? Not me, uh huh, duh.
Aiyah, experience la di la di da, yknow what?
Getting in a relationship ain't that simple. You got to understand each other, please each other, satisfy each other needs, give each other space and keep each other happy! Yeah, after a long time, you'd have to keep that spark in your relationship going, if not, wave fucking goodbye.
It's not that easy to maintain yknow. Sigh. I'm not pointin at anyone, I'm just feelin so.. fucked. Well, I just feel like rantin yknow.
I love chewy gums. No, that's that banned stuff, just.. gummies that are chewy.
Okay, my fucking com almost died on me, I couldn't switch it on just now. HAHA, yeah, if you're really dead by now, I'd be fucking cursing th shit of you. Anyway, even my pops gave up on you lah! HA HA, so I'm using me brother's com now. Weee.
Okok, don't cry already, Pop's gonna get a fucking cure for you already - hard disk.
Get all my memories stored in you transfered to it and get you reformatted and stuff. Ahhh, why am I telling you this shit. Just go under general
Okay, I sound so bitched up, I'm really pissed, at myself, or at nothing at all. I don't know. I just feel so.. tensed. OH, AND FUCKING ANTS ARE CRAWLING ALL OVER MY FUCKING TABLE, AND I HATE AND AM SCARED OF ANTS. HA HA, anyway, it's just three or four. fucking. ants. GRRR, DONT THEY GO DEAF UNDER MY SCREAMING? *roll eyes*
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I miss you lah darling! To be feeling like crapped out because I can't do anything much to help you.. or even if being there for you doesn't help.. I feel so helpless and useless. Whenever I used to be down in th past, you were th one cheering me up.. And now I can't even do th slightliest stuff to make you happy again. I don't know what've happened, and I don't even know how you're feelin now. As long as it ain't happiness, I'm not feeling that good as well. We used to share and bitch about everything under th sun.. Even shared same crushes! Which is funny..
Well.. You said you didn't want to hurt me.. Apart from missing you very, very much.. th only thing that hurts is seeing you taking all th pain yourself. And I can't be there to see, and share your pain. Yknow.. well. Ever since we've been in different classes, we've been seeing each other lesser, and it affected out communication as well.. But somehow, deep down inside, you're always there! All th memories etched.. You smiling lesser now.. Even if you're not th old Suhana, you'll always occupy that part of my heart :').
Take care, with lots of love from th other girls too.
I just want you to be okay, smiling and happy all day.
:'(
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