Perhaps..

Who am I to you?
To me, you're someone very very special :D

I know, we're not meant to be.
I'm trying my best to keep you out of my head.
So I'll escape reality,
just to keep you out.
I won't ask myself those questions anymore,
because it's all NOS.
Okay, case shall be closed.
I don't want to think about you.

Messed up feelings again? Drown in your sleeps.
What helps to make you sleep better?
Sometimes I wish I had sleeping pills with me.

^-^

HAHAHAH, CUTESY EMOTION.
:l

Anywayss, today was pretty normal laah. Umm, didn't complete my 2.4 :D
Totally Lazy to run you see, ahuh.
Uhh, SS test was unexpectedly 25% for CA2 and SHIAT, yes I did study but I forgot everything -.-
DUMBARSE, I can't believe me.
Oh weeell, the Chemisty paper seems like its going to be tough too. &&&, Physics? Uhh, what topic maanss. If its on Aceleration, I'm so going to be a flunker. :D
FUCKERFLUCKER, HAHAH.

Hhmmm, gee siao today? Cos, I guess.
I just want to be happy?
And I want you to be happy as well.
If only life could get any simpler.


Hooooooooot!

再爱 = 伤害




BLOODY HELL! POPS WANT ME PUT AWAY MY GUITAR UNTIL EXAMS ARE OVER.
MIGHT AS WELL LOCK ME UP IN MY FUCKING ROOM WITH JUST BLOODY BOOKS INFRONT OF ME.
THEN I CAN BLOODY SLIT MYSELF AND BLEED TO DEATH IN THERE.
BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS,
LIKE IT'S SO EASY TO HANDLE LIKE THAT.
STOP TELLING ME THAT YOU CAN PASS ALL YOUR SUBJECTS LAST TIME.
STOP COMPARING ME WITH YOU IN THAT ERA.
COS IT'S FUCKING PAST, AND KNOW WHAT NOW?
ALL THE BLOODY SYLLABUS HAS FUCKING CHANGED.
THE STANDARDS HAVE ALL RISED UP.
YES, BLOODY STANDARDS.
SPEAKING OF WHICH, I WON'T LET IT REMIND ME OF THE TRAGEDY ON APRIL 16.
Okay, it just did.
Fuck.
If I am that studious, I won't even have a blog for life man.
IT AIN'T LIVING WITH JUST BOOKS IN YOUR EYES OR BOOKS STUFFED BETWEEN YOUR BOOBS, GEDDIT?! FUCK.
Heh, guitar rocks! :D
I'M SOOOO NOT LETTING IT GO.

Ahem, needed some space, LOL. -.- How pissed.
Anyway, reply to Nuz's tag,
YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND!!



The best I could do! Please, don't pull it down D:
Loves.

Why can't you just say.. ?

Uhhh, practically nothing much to say now. Lol.
My four fingers hurt much, been practising on my brother's guitar!
It's tough, but I won't give up! :D

Alright, up the photos!


Why does it seem like I'm faking a smile everytime?


Shhh.




Hhmm, I-like-effects.


Undone art piece.
CAN'T WAIT TO GET IT UP YAAA.
Hopefully :D



Okay, I'm tired and I don't know why!
Pops brought back sushi! WAHAHAH,
I miss my brother ): He got field trainin and he can't come back this week.

Oh sigh.

Falling.

Pictures tomorrow! (Actually it's just plain camwhoring. GEEEEEE.)
Everything is pretty fine now.
Thank God.

But I'm falling.. fallin into some place deep.
Dark and cold.
I don't know why either, that's the problem.
HAHAAHAH! STUPID.

OH, TODAY MR HON CAME BACCCCCK! ~
HE'S BLOODY HOT IN HIS SMART SUIT OUTFIT, WAIT, HE IS HOT.
HOT HOTOHTOHTOHTOHHOTHOOOOT! But just waved and screamed HIIII, & embarassed myself, LOOL
Ahem, there's a hole in someone's pants today! Very funny! Then he keep blushin laah, hahah, but yknow, WE SAW NOTHING! (:
Okaay! Will not let him down! Will study hard hard for my ___, and pass the test! (:
With uhh, flying colours? :l

I don't even know what I'm sad about,
maybe everything's just messed up.
Maybe I should just sit there and wait for the mess to be cleared.
I'm sick of clearing the mess and then letting someone mess the shit up of me again.
HAAAAAAAAAH.
Love you girls.
Miss you.


-----------
Maybe I'm just trying to run away from the pain
the cold hard truth.
I'm just running away like a coward
Away
Far, far away from reality.
It hurts.
Time seems too little
then maybe again, it's cos I didn't treasure them?
Or I'm just thinking too much.
Maybe, maybe.
Popping questions, but hardly answers.
I need answers
They're all over the darkness.
I feel like it's all over.
It's all over
Over, over, over
LALALALALA.
What's wrong with me? :l
I DONT WANT TO FALL IN LOVEEEEE.
Stop giving all those unwanted crushes or bullshit.
I really detest things to end so soon.
It hurts, it hurts.
And it hurts everyone else.

GIVE ME A SHOT TO REMEMBER. :D
A shot just to forget every bloody shit!
Bloody DEAD! :D

GEE, I TALK TOO MUCH AND THINK TOO MUCH.
Think so?
Bloody. :l
Sigh.

Sweet dedications.

To my girlfriends. My beloved girlfriends.
Memories of the past, will always be etched to my heart.

The moments we went through, the moments we enjoyed.


















Idris not included. :x




























How can I ever forget the times we had together?




Even if one of us made a grave mistake, it's not easy to let go of the strong bonds we've built up over the years. The high and the low, we've all been through it together. I miss all of us, all of you. I love all of you.
It've been miserable for everyone, but all we simply need is an apology. I hope you'll come back.


I love you girls! My darlings!

HAHAHAH!

SNAPE IS HOOOT!
Just agree with me ;D LOOL.

The weather is goooooooood! I like it when the wind blows and you'll shiver but in GLEE HAPPINESS! The weather is hardly so nice.
Hope it'll be the same tomorrow!



I like diggin ma nose.



Hhmmm, shalalaaa.



!?!?!?!?!?? @#$@#?!




HOLY FUCK?!



WEEEEEEE, I'm startin to like my phone.


HEART STILL ACHE WHEN I SEE K810I! D:
GAGA.



GRRRR, if only there's art lessons every day.
Like, ROCKS! Whole day Art'll be the bessst.
Oh okay, reply to tags!

wanteng(:: we will not drift apart! dun think too much(: LORVE
>OKKAAY! I will try too! But things seem to be getting more complicated. :l LOVES TOO!


marcus: dun cut with my pen knife!! its rusty!
>UUHHH, ;D It's just for photo-taking purposes.. or not? HAHAH, okay lah.


Qiqi!: darling, though i don't know what happen, don't be emo uhs? you will age older if you're emo. if you smile more, you will age slower
>Hahah, I'm ooolldd already :D 2 years older! But still, loves! I'll stay happy, you too okay? *HUGS*


Wildberry!: Christinaaaaaaaaaa!<3 I mean, your english is superb! Hahahah. ;DD Cya around in school~
>Shaaaaaaaz!<3 Aahem, I use Microsoft Words for reference. HAHAH! :x


candis: hi chris
candis: ooohhh nice emoticons
>Hiiiiiiii Candis! Cupcakes are niceee!, that's why ;D


Huimin:D: christina! Hahaha, love that photo. Got that penknife on it. Looks so .. emo. Yeap. Hahah, okay. I think after reading your post, i guess .. snape's hot too! (((((:
>Yeeap, he's hott!, so are you :D! Take care of yourself! You seem rather tired nowadays :l <3.



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Take care Nuz!
Take care ____! No matter what happens, you know you're always be part of my life. Because you've been there. So, at how much I get frustrated at you, my feelings will still turn into sympathy.
Sigh, hope this could get over soon.

Sh*t.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG?!
CAN'T YOU STOP RUNNING AWAY?


Aww, another week in chaos.
I feel so.. weak.

I wish we can reunite again.

The world is so beautiful, but now, one word, catastrophe.

I miss my darlings..

Oh my girlfriends, my darlings..
My world seems like it's falling apart.
Without yall, I wonder what I'll do.
Sitting alone as a loner,
being laughed at as a nobody.
And if one by one we start to drift apart
the hardest part of this
is leaving you.
All of you.
We're never be complete if one of us have gone.
Treasured and never want to lose
You girls are just so important.
Nothing else, just you girls.
I dont want to care so much,
don't want to worry so many.
Life is so tough, I want to let go of everything.
Everything.

So sick, so sick.




Been watching MCR's vid over youtube the whole noon yesterday! I'm fallin in love with them HAHAHAHH, lil pretty and I HAVE SOMETHING IN COMMON! *glares*
Right, see, Gerrad is reaaaaaaaaal hottie!
EMO IS HOT. So wild, so hot, Get? ;D

Watched Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix.
Bloody.
I hate Harry Potter and his bloody movies. Used to.
Cos I didn't understand part 1 or 2, 3 or 4.
But bloody did I for this one!
I sat through the movie without having to think how fucking boring it is.
Well, it's real good nevertheless, if you could understand the plot that is.
Hairy Harry is really.. white. (random.)
For bloody once I enjoyed a HP flim. This is the best one I've seen among the rest I guess. My opinion? Maybe, I'll go back to watching the previous one. Cos that one, really don't understand lor. Only know that Cedric died cos mothafucking Voldemort killed him. HAHHHAHAHAAH! Right? :l Heck, I dont even know who Cedric was. Cho's ex? Uhh.

Oh, one really weird fact,
SNAPE IS HOT!
HAHAH! REALLY! I'm not lying! He rocks lah okay, he's so emo. At least he looks like one to me. His hair, LOL. I don't know why but I really thinks he's hot. He got this cold rock attitude that makes him so cool. Awsome lah! Now Hairy, after plenty of series, I still think Snape is hot. In fact, he's hotter, hairy monster! I LOVE IT WHEN HE TORTURES YOUR MIND BWAHAHAHAH! How shuai okay!
Watch the movie, when Snape was a teen, HE'S HOT. FUCKING BLOODY HOT.
Snape's my man. LOOLOLOL. Hot.
(Do not be offended by what I've said about Harry Potter. If you are, accept my apologies! ;D)

Ohh, K810i is too ex! D: My pops is totally NOT getting it for me.
Ssooo, another phone. Velvet Black! ;D
But whenever I see K810i, my heart breaks.
COS ITS SO BLOODY GORGEOUS.
BLOODY FUCKING HOT, GET?!
AAAAAAAAARGH.
Alright, at least, this phone is soo much better than my current phone.
Laugh at it's 10mb storage, I can't even store the songs I like. D:
Now, welcome the 64mb storage! :D
NOT MUCH, at least it's not built in.
AND 3.2 MP ;D
HAPPY!
Same with someone though :l, but no choice?
Cos I really want 3.2 MP cam!
Sorry to someone!

HAHAHAHH,
can't wait for new baby to come.
Still, heartache over K810i. ):


Madness,
I'm so sorry.
I'm just not ready.


Comon, just the truth.
Love you babe.
Miss you.

Denial.

Uber sad.
I miss Nuzrath! Wonder if she's back yet or not.
Today was kind of like uh, sucked.
So was the whole week actually.
Or was it my life?

Look what you've done
You made a fool of everyone.
Just the truth and everything will be okay.
We'll forgive you, we won't walk away.

I'm tired :l
Still have to go and fetch pops from the airport. He's reaching back here at around 11.30pm! Have to withstand 1 hour+ of MRT. Sucks.

SLAP MY BLOODY SELF!
I soooooooo detest myself. So why must this bloody shit come out and make me hurt people? HUH? WHAT?! WHAT FUCKKK?!
CAN I JUST .. CAN I JUST SLEEP FOREVER?
I'm so sickk.
I just want everything to be so fine.
EVERYTHING WAS FINE, BUT WHAT NOW?
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?
GOD! WHAT THE BLOODY HAPPENED?!
WHHHHHYYY?!

God, save me.
I dont want anyone to be hurt.
I'm sorry, I dont deserve your love.

After everything is solved, perhaps.
Where is my soul
Where am I?

>:(

Today like very trash.
And the weather's like really, killer. Killin.
I'm killed insideeeeeeeeee.
Fuccck!
Everytime when I'm going snacks or something, my mum will go, "Don't eat so much lah, wait fat fat."

FINE, GET IT?!
HOW BOUT I DONT BLOODY FUCKING EAT ANYTHING AT ALL AND
DIE OF BLOODY STARVATION?
FAT AFATAFAFAFATFAFFAT!
I WANT TO VOMIT EVERY FATS OUT OF MY BLOODY BODY.
FUCKING FAT OKAY.
FUCK.
BLOODY DIE
DIE DIE DIE DIE.
BLOOD UNDERSTAND!?
BLOOOOOOOOOOOOD.
FUCK.
Let's fucking immigrate to some better countries.
Let's elope to our world, our paradise.
Let's all kneel down and bloody die.


As if you'd understand us like that. Sigh.

The earth is burning.

Today is sooooo bloody hot okay! Like, like, really hot cross buns baking in the oven.
Hot cross buns, hot cross buns ~
Sounds yummy.
Feel weird cos pops' not at home! D: So only mummy and me at the dinner table.
Compass programme tomorrow! Heard from the rest that it's bloody boring.
I'm so not looking forward tomorrow. SO NOT.

Umm okay, I cut my hair and now it's worst D:
Feel like wearing a wig.
Reminds me of the korean horror flick, The Wig.
NC16! I remember I wanted to catch it but due to its bloody ratings. BLAHBLAH AND BLAH. HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA.

Oh, during SS today, Mr Paul Lim showed us part of the movie of Bloody Sunday.
Fucking sad okay, innocent people shot down for not bloody reason. Walua! Then saw the news today, three suicide bombers? War here and there, it's like, Humans are so pathetic! WHY AND WHAT for are they all doing this? Not like as if they can gain control of the world. They're not immortals, they're just bloody Humans, just like us!
Oh bloody, Bloody Sunday, how sad.
Uhh, I miss outings with my girls.


NO BLOODY LESSONS TOMORROW!
HURRAAAAAY!
Hope it rains.

please mean what you say.

Bloody.
Remember when I posted up something about my father saying that when his mobile's plans expire, he'll get the phone that I want for me?
NOT
Detest! D:<

He was like,
If you want camera phone, just get a camera, cheaper somemore.

I damn unhappy like DUH.
It's a bloody hot-looking with good features phone. With cybershot camera, how better could it be?! W
hat if on the streets I suddenly bump into Johnny Depp?! Then by the time I take out the camera, and I still have to bloody switch it on, he run away liao can!
With a bloody hot phone like k810i, I could just take it out from my pocket, click on the camera function and FUCKING SNAP! His great image would be aaaaaaallllll overrrrrrr my waaaaaaaalls. :D

THATS WHY THEY CALL IT CAMERA PHONE.
HANDPHONE+HANDY CAMERA, GET?!
ALTHOUGH IT'S JUST A BLOODY 3.2 MP, HELLO! IT'S EVEN BETTER THAN THE DIGITAL CAMERA I HAVE AT HOME.

D:, I want I want I want!
My parents can't bloody stop nagging today. I wonder why.
Sad, my current phone only has a bloody storage of 10MB. Oh, I was blind that time. D:

*screams*

OH, today went to dine at Sushi Tei! :D
The salmon was just mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, BLOODY FRESH AND TASTY LAAH!!
Tried the sea urchin sashimi, and uhhh, it really taste weird.
So does salmon roe and scallop sashimi! D: Too fishy :l
OVERALLLLLLLL, I'm still coming back for more, cos there're too many choices to make on the menu! Aahh, tad expenisive though.

Pops' flying over to Chicago for a week, business trip! Chicago! Bloody! One of the places I totally wanna be at. If only I could tag along HAH


Hmm, sometimes I wish I have wings of an angel.

BLOODY HECK, MY MUM'S NAGGING ME TO SLEEP AT 10.35PM!?
TODAY'S SATURDAY, THANK YOU.

Pleads.

Oh God, please tell me what's happening.
Why?
I hate it when I can't sort out the puzzle.
Then I could to ponder and get so tired of finding an answer.
I JUST WANT TO CHERISH WHAT I BLOODY HAVE NOW SO STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH MY FEELINGS AND LEAVE THE ME ALONE.
So which one? My mind or my heart?


I'm totally boreddddddd. Onlined and none of my pretty girls online! D:
Oh, wonderful day today.
2 satelites, 3 stars. (:
I keep seeing Sony Erisson k810i! Bloody tempt me. D:
Sigh.

Gunpointed.

Sigh, I don't understand.
I want to cut my hair asap, it's fugly on me okay.
or rather, yeah, fugly whatever.
pfffft.
Cheer up Vani! *hugs*
I wish you'd understand.
There isn't much time left.
&you're hurting everyone.

Pathetic.
I pity all of us.
School sucks.
I should just faint and lie unconsiously in the hospital bed.
Sleep in my paradise forever.
Forever.

Out of the blue,

I miss my long long hair okay!
I want ponytailllllllll!
ROOOOOOOOAARRRR!
Bloody hell, I want hair extensions! :D
Lame, just feel like posting cos I really MISS ME LONG HAIR LAH!
Alright, let's go back to sleep for school tomorrow.
Half day for me! *looks at Vani and chuckles*

OH HELLO!

Yay title's back! &it said hello. :D
Today didn't went to school *chuckles*
Well, I feel bad about it. LOL.

HAPPY BELATED BITHRDAY WAN TENG!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAFI! :D
Loves! Faster go get IC! Then realise it's for nothing. -.- Why they make us make Ics on our 15th birthdays? Not on the 16th? Weird huh? Well.

Gaga, I can't wait for my birthday :l LOL, so far away can?
OHHH, today's experience at the Jurong Polyclinic was like shiaaaaaaaaaaaaat!
Bloody shit.
The doctor was like so bloody rude can (Female somemore, and I thought she looked quite decent and nice.)! Even the staffs are more polite and courteous. Oh, I hate that place. Never steppin there ever again! Blah.


I love my bestie skittles.


Music is in part of me.



It's raining. It's gorgeous.





Camwhoring at the back of the car, .. AT NIGHT, :D
Grainy collections!







Realised I'm more in the camwhoring mood during rainy days.
I WANT K810i! BLOODY GORGEOUS! I finally touched on at Courts today. LOL.
Bloody happy! Can't wait to get it. Or not? HAH.

Alright, life's so much better now.
Thanks everyone for being here for me!
A big thanks to all my girls,
Vani
Suhana
Nuzrath
Wan Teng
Samantha
Cheryl
Wirda
and Joey!
BIG HUGSSS AND BIG LOVESSSS!
Sorry if I keep giving hugs to yall. Too much love to give to yall lah! LOL.
A big special thanks to my guardian angel too (:
Loves!


Hence, I shall end by saying,
THERE'S BLOODY ART TOMORROW!
*hops around gleefully*

Bloody hell, someone please tell me why I can't bloody click on the title box? So now, all my posts will be title-less? T_T

Camwhored, editted, but lazy to post up.
Tomorrow hopefully.
The weather is improvin, i'm loving it.
Lessons are getting more boring? I'm hatin it.
OKAAAY, nothing much to post so I'll just put up one bloody image.
..Okay, how bout two or three? Won't hurt right?


Look! It's the ghostly image of Suhana behind :D Ohh, if you've been wondering who Brownie(Vani's love) is, it's that little dark brown puppy she's holding.


See piglet? Poor piglet is bullied by Vani and Suhana.

Ohhh, yeap, you must eager to know who Suhana's admirer was :D
TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!


He loves her.
She dislikes him. D:



I don't know if I should trust this love.

Can't click the title box, can't input title D:
Oh wells.
My two darlings came over today! Skittles and Vaniiiiii ~

1) Skittles harassed Vani
2) Skittles has a new admirer (In my house)
3) Vani loves my BROWNIE. (You should know why. :x)
4) They bullied my poor piglet
5) Vani and I still can't stop LMAOing at Bobby Lee as a North Korean Scientist video.
(Bloody cute, I'd say :D I want the specs!)

After that, Skittles and I went to Raffles to get someone's present ;D It's damn adorable, I'm sure she'll love it lah! Ahuh, we went shoppin around after that.
And we saw this pair of gorgeous shoes at River Island.
BLOODY GORGEOUS LAAAAAAAAAAAH! $89.90! But I still want! ):
I NEED a job. Like, really, bloody need one. But so busy with school work! Plus my cca :l ..


OH, I need a new haircut. Bah, for the past few years, I'll been tryin to find a suitable hairstyle. But fuck not, it's so hard to. Fugly.
):
I miss my long hair, OR NOT!





Skittles wore "tie", and I wore "bes"! (:
Alrigght... So for dinner, Skittles and I had BURGERKING!
BKBKBKBKBKBKBKBKBKBKBKBKBKBBK!
Bloody rocks! I had double mushroom swiss burger.
BLOODY FUCKING NICE! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!
Eat somemore, eat somemore! Gagaga. Fats :l
Hhm, I'm pissed at my parents.
Like, almost everything I picked or wore, she say I look auntie, or not nice.
Fuck, look, I know i'm fugly, just don't add fuel to the fire.
I suck alright? I hate myself okay?
I hate going out shoppin with yall cos everytime I want to buy something YOU have to make the decision for me. Bloody, I'm the one wearing it, NOT YOU. So leave me alone, I'm already depressed over fugly-ness.
I just want bloody blings, $$.

Random camwhorin and photos.









Weird.



Mooks rocks.


Honeydew green tea with mixed fruit jellies rocks my black socks.



Idris claims that his black water bottle is his dick. And thus, it should be a sin to be seen





Sin-ed.


Sin-ed.


Sin-ed.

But I like. (:
Oh, it rained in the morning! ;D
Wedding dinner tomorrow. So might not post?
Aahh, bloody school on monday -.-

(A).