Sadded.

Somehow I feel that way.
Moodswings? Or too much thinkings?
Or just too lonely? :l
I feel unsatisfied. AAANNDDDD, too much teevee programmes lah, yknow, influenced -.-

6th! 6th! 6th! 6th! 6th! (:(:

I feel like making a new skin :D
Oh, today I damn tut can! Suppose to do both Paper 1&2 cos I'm in CLB and each paper's duration is only 1 hour. But I thought only must do paper 1 then after break do paper 2.

BUAANNNGGGGg, ended up must do both. Luckily my chinese teacher let me complete it. Heng mans. Although there's no counted marks for the CLB, but still must get a pass at most. :D

:l So after all our hard work and efforts we still get a bronze? Talk * lah that darn headmaster. Damn bloody wasted lah, efforts down the drain and somemore get looked down. What have we done to deserve this? Like so simple to get meh? Wacau, really damn saddening. More saddening for __. Can't take it.
Alright, I still can't get it off my head cos, sigh, who will ever understand the pressure and loss we get?
At least we got a few more chances to prove ourselves this year.
Hopefully there's Genting competition too. Pray hard! ):

Kanasai mansssss.
UGH I WANT TO GO OUT TOMORROW!!11.
Bloody hell, must stay home and study cos no one to shop with -.-
ALRIGHT LETS STUDY HARDDD.
*. I really want to vomit blood now.
BANG!

I miss this blog.

Aw, I didn't wanted to post anyway -.-
Aahhah, i'm a little stuck in the throat and tomorrow's our MT paper.
*swings hand* Whatever.

Alright, you're boring biatch.
Yesterday was hell for me ):
Sorry people, nothing to say.
Loss of blogging instincts hah.

It's damn funny.

NOT.
Passed my Napfa 5 items today! :D
I actually managed to do 3 inclined pull-ups! (Cos Mr Hon was there ((: )
BWAHHAHAAHAHAHHAH!!!!1.
Tomorrow's 2.4km test and I'm soooooooooo not going to pass! :D
HAHAHH, every PE do retest lah, I rather it be that way I guess.
I'm sick of having to run for the sake of PASSING it. And for the sake of PASSING it, it's for a fucking nothing. Not like it's going to make me score distinctions or whatnot.
-.- Fucking bore
Yeah, I'm agitated.
I've been resisting myself from the food temptation! );

AAANNNDDDDD, today's weather is HOT
Not that warm, burning HOT, but as in that HOT little thang :D
I LOOVE IT. Hope tomorrow won't burn our asses.

I. feel. like. eating. Meltz.
ARGGGGHH (:
&I'm saving $$ for birthdays too -.-
(Can't help but squander em away HAHA.)
Watermelons are teh hot stuff.

I'm so troubled.
&I'm so depressed until I don't know how to cheer myself up :]
HAHAHAH. And I dont want to care about what people think anymore.
I shall just shutup, ignore and let you be.
I'm sick of everything.
If being all shitty, moody and depressed just for you to get a grip,
I can be that way for the rest of my life.
I rather be that way.
I want happiness, not fighting for it.
As I said, I'm sick of everything. And you're making me sick of life.
Fuck.

Mid shit.

WWEEET! This is my 600th post.
HAHAH! -.-
Ahem. Anyway, won't be posting that often cos my mids is almost here yeah.
So, I can only use the net on friday night and weekends (:
KNOW WHAT?! THE FREAKING EXAMINATION SCHEDULE SUCKS!.
After the paper on April 30th, school school school till May 11th!

LIKE WHAT THE FUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKK?!!!1!?!.
Or is it? I don't know, and I lost the schedule ;)
Still kanasai lah. Dont know why they come out with such schedule -.- JUST GIVE ME THE PAPER AND GET DONE WITH IT?!
Ugh, June holidays aren't going to be pretty holidays anymore. Scarred with plenty of remedial lessons!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPEEEE!!!!
.
.
.
NOT.

Napfa test+2.4km! $%^#$%^%@%!!!
Walua eh, *shakes head in distress*

I'm bored, totally bored of school.
And I just realised Temasek Polytechnic is alllll the waaaaaaaay at Tampines.
Great.
I want to pause the time and get back on my studies, maybe eat spanich so I won't be a lazy, weak pig anymore.
Comon Christina! MOVE YOUR HUMPS!.
):
And it's a sad sad world.

:l

I can't help it but..
I still feel upset over the competition. Well, gradually.
Ahuh, I've got to get over it. But.. I guess it's a huge blow plus all of us been practicing REAAAL hard. Yknow, life is unfair, and yeah, it sucks.
Arrhhh, will feel kind of uncomfortable if someone talked about the competition.
One idiot even critised us when HE don't even have a freaking CCA himself.
NOW that's what I call "EEEYER, SO LOUSY."
A lousy piece of shit indeed. You disgust me, big guy effing shortie.

Okay, let's look on the positive side of life yeah? Alright T_T I'm listening to Overture Jubiloso and it's freaking beautiful. I hope I'll get to play the piece someday. Aahh, so sad..
Had drills today and was hell loads of fun! Love you guys! And damn that squeaking gay T_T.

EErr, I'm scared cos I'm slacking like I don't even bother! Well wait, yeah, I dont freaking bother -.- I'm so dead meaat.
Better push myself up before I really regret. UGGHHH.

Weather = horrible
Studies = worst than horrible.

I'll love to post up plenty of photos but umm..
Not photogenic, and times are real tight yeah? That's sad because I used to cam-whore alot last year. This year like can diee. Hah.

Any concerts coming up?! Cos I soooo wanna hear great pieces. October rocckkkkkkss! Not the month of the year! But a wonderful piece ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!.
Great, I'm blabbering.
And I feel sad too cos of ___. Things are changing and once you realise something isn't right, it'll always be until you correct it. & I don't know when it'll be. I'm confused.


KNOW WHAT?! I CAN'T WAIT FOR SPIDER-MAN3 :D
And Pirates of Carribean. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! JOHNNY DEPP IS HOOOTTT!.
Mr Hon is hot too. *winks*

Oh ya, one more thing.
I was banned from using computer but here I am HAHAHAHAH@!!!!1.
Ugh, I'm tired. ):
AND I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!111111.
Not.
At least I dont go around.. oh wells nevermind.

Hi.

Beefy.

Ugh, I really want to thank our Principal for understanding.
Though it's darn sad lah, but I guess, I'm okay now.
Blahblahblah, I don't know why I just cried uncontrollably today ):
AND I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORRW :D.

I LOVE BANU
I LOVE EVELYN
I LOVE XIUYING
I LOVE HUIMIN
I LOVE NORLINAH
I LOVE NADYA

AND I LOVE SAMANTHA THE MOOOOOOOOOSTTTT!!!1.
Hahah, mighty mouse :D

I LOVE MIAO (:
I LOVE SUHANA
I LOVE VANI
I LOVE WAN TENG
I LOVE CHERYL
I LOVE NUZRATH

I LOVE MY DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER
I LOVE CORN KERNELS
I LOVE CUP CORNS
I LOVE CRAB
I LOVE MY ART LESSONS
I LOVE MY DS LITE
I LOVE MY BAND
I LOVE ALL MY BAND MEMBERS
I LOVE MY CONDUCTRESS
I LOVE MY CLARINET
I LOVE MY COMPUTER
I LOVE MY BAG
I LOVE MY MASCARA
I LOVE MY EYELINER

I LOVE MUSIC
I LOVE MY MUSIC SCORES
I LOVE CENTURIA
I LOVE SUNRISE
I LOVE .. ASIAN SELECTION 2. ):

I LOVE ANIMALS
I LOVE DOGS
I LOVE DASHCHUND
I LOVE TOY POODLES
I LOVE HUSKIES
I WOULD LOVE POACHERS TO SUFFER AND DIE.

I WOULD LOVE MYSELF TO SHUT UP NOW.
Oh wait, DO catch 200 Pounds Beauty because it's darn nice to watch I'll give it 4 and a half stars out of 5 (:
The actress damn hoooot!
MARIA AVE MARIA! :DD

-

I'm darn scared and worried sick.
But I'll be strong tomorrow.

All the best.
Bless us, my dear God.

Dedication.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR DEAR AYRON!!.

And um, had a great time at his party. ANND HIS GOLDEN RETRIEVER DAMN CUUUTEE LAAHh.
Yeah, was inspired by Ayron's preaching. :D
So I decided I shall read more about my own religion, ahuh.

I guess everyone let out all the anxiety and stress today. That's a good thing (: Now we won't be afraid anymore, instead, we are stronger and more confident.
YCMB WE CAN DO IT!!!. Let's prove we ain't a band to be look down at.
Thanks to my dear dear dear girlfriends, section and band members who cheered me up! ESP Vani! She was strooong man! *HUGS* I love hugs so hug me more girlfriends! LOL.

And to Banu, my greatest section leader, I will never forget you because we have been through so many things together, that's so unforgettable! And for the many things you did for us! So don't be upset that you are not able to come for band. Once a YCMB member, always will be.
Same for Xiuying and Evelyn!
Xiuying for being so bubbly and being there for me when I'm errrr, lost last year and Evelyn for making everyone laugh because of her CUTENESS AHH! :DD

Anyway, what we meant by "WE WILL GET THAT SILVER" wasn't just the pride we would get when we get a silver medal.
What we really meant is that we want be play well and get that standard of a good steady silver and earn it as we deserve it.

Ah well. I feel bad for saying that but, it's what I thought so.
Andd. I dont know, I'm still feeling messed up.

To my band members out there, drink lots of water and don't put too much pressure on your ambochure (sorry for the wrong spelling) and rest early at night. (WOOPS O.O) Don't stress yourself too much too, if you gotta let out, it's best you let it all out right now before the competition. You'll be stronger.

T_T, I think I'm soo going to be banged for posting this up. Hahah.

Lust&Love?

:(

I dont know what to say :D
I dont even know what my heart wants.

All I know now..
is I need to use the freaking toilet :D
And I'm having a bad flu! LIKE WHY MUST IT BE NOW?!
Oh my mars, pray hard that I'll get well before SYF.

.

Failed my 2.4 test.
When I was Sec 1 and 2, I'll usually cry out of exhaustion and disappointment after that. BUT, hahah, now maybe just a little disappointment. I dont want to give much damn about it. At most run every PE lor. Sigh.

I'm !ginome
HAHAH. And I feel like __.

Ehh, thanks my dear TNFS for caring (: I'm fine. As long as I'm with yall, I'll be. (:
By the way, WHEN WE GOING OUT!?!?!?. :D

Today's SYF results more chiam. And made me feel chiam-er.

But we must carry on!

..I shall be a good girl and complete my homework.
UGH! MY FILES ARE IN A MESS! MY ROOM IS IN A MESS! MY HAIR IS IN A MESS! MY LIFE IS IN A MESS! And i'm in A mess. HAHAHHA!
I know I shouldn't be saying this but I uhh, SUCK :D
Loads of italics today. Because I'm feeling horrible. Or shitty or whatever. And I can't believe you got the fucking guts to poke me and think it's funny. Fuck you, it ain't. And love isn't a fucking game. I'm not your voodoo doll. I'm not superwoman. I have feelings just like you do. And now I'm being fucking accused. Yeah, I'm fucking happy but you're fucking saaaaaaaaaaaddd. AWWWWW. Pathetic.


THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS - It Ends Tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.


P.S, not the complete lyrics cos I cut and paste them according to um, what I'm feeling? Blah.

Bye.

Mazed.

A mixture of emotions yet again. Sigh.
6 more freaking days... oh my..mars.
And today's SYF results for the band competition was VERY VERY scary yeah? Standards were all pushed waaaaay up, not forgetting that there are SEVEN judges instead of five the past few SYF.
I JUST WANT TO CRY CAN!. I'll be strong.

Today's maths lesson like hell long lahh. And there's PE tomorrow. GREAT. Furken UGH. BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH, I hope I faint in the middle of it.

IM SO SICK OF SCHOOL AND YOUR NONSENSE HAH.
What the mars.
There's something stuck in my throat and I can't seem to get it out. T_T It's all the crap in my lifeeeeeeeeeeeee weee!.
Nutty.

): BUGGERS.

Ewww!

Ever seen the smoking advertisement about oral cancer?
I can't believe they even got the poor lady to speak about the dangers of smoking on TV! And hell yeah was I stupid or rather, KPO enough to watch on.

It's so frigging disturbing!
I was eating my fruits today and was flipping through the 8 days magazine when POOF! A huge ad on that oral cancer. I almost puked.
Why the heck?

If you watched the advertisement on TV, maybe you'll understand.
It's so... like GROSS AND DISGUSTING?!. Have they ever thought about the poor children watching TV and then suddenly they see this? They'll have nightmares! I tell you, the first time I saw this ad, it was running through my mind! Like it was haunting me because it's so darn freaky and disturbing!
Maybe because I'm weak or exaggerating, but I really do feel nauseous after watching the ad.
Sigh, who the fuck invented the ciger in the first place.
Invent something that harms? Must have nothing better to do.
Some as drugs.
The world is so greedy, to come out with something addictive yet toxidic. The sellers just want money. And they don't even bother about the health of the buyers. Money money money. Fudge.

And wars here and there, for what? You want a fucking war just because you're not fucking happy? Whats your problem? Hey, do you even realise you're killing your own people? Killing innocent lives? What the hell do you want?
What the hell is wrong with this world?


WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?! D:
Zzz.

This cracks me.

HAHAH! Okay lah! It's damn emo funny can!

Do you know that the original Tickle Me Elmo! costs a freaking $99.90!?!.

OH MY FFFFFFFFFFUDGE! It's so darn expensive.

And what does it do?



TICKLE!



Somehow you "tickle" the happy red guy and he'll laugh his ass off, lmao-ing, lol-ing, rofl-ing and then wirggling like he's desperate.








I STILL LOVE YOU ELMO, I JUST HATE YOUR DARN STUPID GOLDFISH.


Oh, went to watch The Number 23 today and ITS NOT BAD HUR!.
If you fancy suspense movies, yup, this is for you.

Speaking of movies..

SHREK THE THIRD, SPIDERMAN 3 AND PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN - AT THE WORLD'S END ARE HERE THIS SUMMER!.
Youtube has all their trailers. AND JOHNNY DEPP IS STILL AS HOOOOOOTT LAHHH1!11.
Can't wait, can't wait!. I have this HHHUUUGGEE poster of the movie and it stars only HIM HIM HIM AND ONLY HIM ALONE!. I'M IN LOVVEEE AHAHa.



Okay well it wasn't that HUGE. Yknow, normal size of a poster.
AHWELLS.

My mids is around early May sooooooooooo, gotta wait till after the exams are over. Hm, AND AFTER THAT,

JUNE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!
Man! I'm soo excited.







AND I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS SATURDAY TODAY! COS IT SHOULD ACTUALLY BE A FREAKING SUNDAY BUT GEES ITS NOT! ITS A FREAKING YAY YAY SATURDAY BECAUSE THERES GOOD FRIDAY YESTERDAY AND SO TODAYS SATURDAY AND NOT SUNDAY WEEE!!!.
But tomorrow's sunday.
Hah.

When you're so afraid,

you could just cry.
AAAHHHh, the day is a bout a week ahead and.. I guess it's the thing that have been running through my mind 24/7.
OKAY I SHALL CALM DOWN......NOT
Am still freaking out D:

Art was a blast! We had to design our very own white tee for err, I don't know what programme. Well, sad thing is, we can only use this scarlett red fabric paint. But the red IS HOT. Hot the hell out of me HAHAH. I FAVE it (: Well, also must have something to do with Singapore. UUUHHHHHHhhhhhh. -.-

I'm on a moodswing nowadays so um, just look out for me.
I might swing high or low. SWING SWING SWING LALALA.

TOMORROW IS GOOD FRIDAY!!! Yeah! A nice o' break for this week eh? Next week is gonna be busy and tiring.. But I guess the seriousness and enthusaism will take the pain away. I hope!
Let's all work hard hand in hand.

YCMB! LET'S DO THIS TOGETHER AS ONE.
Okay, now I'm making myself more tense.
STTTTOOOOOPIDD!! Hahs.

Super Christina!. Not.

I'M DYING ARRRRRRRRRGGHHH.
Not physically but mentally inside. LOL. It sounds so lame lah hur.
But, life's so MAZEY. Problems stacking up, neverending.
LIKE WHEN THE FUCK WILL IT END?!
Oh wait, this is life, it's reality, it doesn't. -.-
Unfair shirt blah.
Yeah, now I got back my err, "blogging instincts", so I guess I'll head back to blogging hah.
Ummm, feeling rather down and pressurized. Because of __. and __. And I hope we can really really really really really really really really attain a good steady SILVER!
Oh my gummy, I'm just so... scared. I'm really wanting it so much! Just like all the rest of the band members. How long have we been pursuing it? And this is so precious to us. Just that, a few months and a year of tough practice and peserverance, just to prove ourselves worthy of a higher standard than the bloody bronze on that very anxious day. What if? What if?
I can't stop hallucinating, I can't stop worrying. Ugh!
Just bout a week more, I pray to God.

AND HUIMIN MY DEARREST JUNIOR, HUGS AND LOVES GIRL!.
It's not pretty anymore to put on that sad frown on your face SO SMILE! Because I want to see that pretty pretty Huimin smiling back at me (:
Nonon, I'm not a lesbo :D.. You know there's many people around you that concerns and LOVES you! So don't let them worry yeah? You got to be okay! I want you to be okay! SO YOU MUST BE!!!!! lol:D. *Hugs*
And takecare of your health.

Sigh, got chased out of the band room during sectional today cos there's some problem with the room? Our OM asked us to pack up and quickly get out. Hah, think it's the lighting.
Anyway, Mr Paul Lim darn funny today lah. So was inside the band room.. Eerie but such fun! I laughed like mad woman and Vani is the only one who witnessed that LOL. Kinda pity her. But.. WHAT FUN! :D

What is this empty feeling inside?
Is it because it wants you so badly?
Sigh.. It feels like you've gone so far away.

Alright lah, sorry to all my peeps to make yall worried for me. If I'm just a little emo-ing, just leave me aside cos I'll be fine in a little while hah.
LOVE YALL!.
And I love you the most too (:

Hello dead blog.

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW ITS DEEEAD!.
Hah, been busy with..... things HAH. Well, only my peeps know.
Umm, school's been stressful or rather, maybe it's just myself own fucking self. Blah.

I really want to be aneroxic

SYF is in 2 weeks' time! And I'm so darn nervous and afraid! LIKE WHO ISN'T?!
I want to sleep liao. I know I've been a bad blogger, been neglecting my precious blog since.... I don't know when. ):