i hate mass run

i hate mass run. i hate jogging . my stamina SUCKS and i can't run!!! i'm not suitable for it!! .. uggh. why can't my pe teacher understand? keep forcing me and vani to run? we put in more effort today , we reached the destination in a much earlier time , but still fail. but , why can't my pe teacher see that we have already put in effort? i don't mean that that was my best but , we are improving!!! .. i can't afford to fail my 2.4 km. once i fail , hell-living will be ahead for me. i'm so damn scared . why? why can't i just have more stamina so that i can pass my test easier? it sucks , damn it really sucks. sigh , i can't believe i suck at this. i just can't believe why the hell this is happening. fine.

well , today i stayed back with suhana,wan teng and samantha. we went to the computer lab. hehe .. we were listening to "We Belong Together" like crazy.. singing all over again. you ROCK, my girl ! after that , went home with them plus shak,idris and ricii . hahas , hope you don't mind me saying this idris , erm. ok , he tried to sing " Don't Phuck With My Heart" . well .. VERY FUNNY. ok.. gayish :X . sorry .. but you know you sounded funny. everyone was laughing. but , i love that! woohoo ... oh. by the way , my hall is air-conditioned! woohoo!! .. love my school more..

i miss my lao gonggggggggggggggggggg ... hehe. miss you honey , muacks.

- i'm losing hope in myself.