NOOOOO!!
i CAN'T HELP IT!!
uggh .
i'm sooo stressedd!
and i can't control not posting =D (its fun ..heh hehhh.)
guess i'll b back to post again!!
well well .. i don't study you see ... i'm so f*cked upp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate you studies!!!
uggh .
why does everything seem to come back to me right now!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!

hyehhh ... i can't get myself to concentrate on my studies no matter how hard i try.
UGGH !! i hate myself!!
i suck so muchh!!!
i hate this world.
i feel so much pain.
i HATE MEMORIES!!
uggh ... i hope i never had memeries ..
they hit me back so hard , it hurts .. helppp .. ~
but , primary school life's the best .
really ... really miss those days .. miss those eyess ..
UGH!? what the hell am i talking about??

i hate myself!!i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!
i hate myself!!i hate myself!!


i had enoughh.

haven't been posting for a long time!!
wells .. i'm kinda busy .
studyingg ...NO!!
i'm NOT!
spent most of my time .. reading magazines , sleeping and wandering around the house ..
hehe bleahs.
BUT NOW!!
i guess i would have to stop posting for a while .
i will be back on 13rd of May!! ..
now , i have to concentrate on my studies (although its hard for me to ..)
sigh .. so sad.
if i don't get good results .
i'm done for.
CURSE YOU STUDIES!!!
blahh .
well .. time for me to go.
take care of yourself guys.
bye xiaobaii n blog. (:

blah blah.
its so boringg.
didn't go out todayy , myy exams in 2 weeks time ..
so my father don't let me out .. and i'm so freaking boredd!!!!!!!
uggh .. HELP ME!
and he keeps telling to study , study , study ..
i din't study though ..
just did homework and slept in the afternoon.
and myy stupidd air-con leakedd. yeh , it did. the sound woke me up and i can't get back to sleep.
pfffffff. >.<
i hope it rain.
its so hot and humid nowadays .
i hate to sweat . T_T;
i'm going to jurong point with my family later to eat dinner .
haiz , life's so boring when exams are coming ..
blahhh .

radio saidd it will rain.
but HAVEN'T RAIN YET!!!
ughhh!! curse the rain..
blah blahh.
i'm so boredddd right now.
omg , i think there's something wrong with myy braces .
ahh shit man :( ..
its all because i ate a pear ..
too hardd
ughh.
i scare the doctor scold me on my next visit >.< ..heheheh.
bad luck on myy favourite day .. ughhhhh ..
irritatedd . i'm so boredd like hell..
faggg ..
why is it not rainingg??!!

lalala.
i think its going to rain soon..
lalala..
hmm , don't know what i'm going to do tomorrow at home.
study?
nahss. i hate studying.
heehee.. wells .
new skin ^.^ ..
nice mahs?
came across this picture above , thought its quite meaningful ..
lalalala.. hmm.. nothing to talk much todayy..
just glad its finallyy friday (:

oh yay!!
can see all myy posts le!
pheww.

wells , going on mood swing todayy..
aiyahh ..
i want to apologise to my dear.....
umm umm..
i gave him attitude just a moment ago..
so..very sorryy.
didn't meant to..
i feel so guilty.
i hate myself!!!!
i felt i wasn't good enough.
I was the one who wasn't good enough for uu dear ,
not uu..
sigghh.
i regret so muchh.
ugghh.

its friday soon, YAY!
wellss.. time passes by so fast this week.
i hope i wasn't a student at all..
ugh..
but .. hey!
today's art lesson was fun!! heheheheh.
i'm going to complete my BEAUTIFUL painting soon.
kekeke. i'm so eager >.<
oh yarr.. i have yet to complete my literature scrapbook.
ugh geography tomorrow.
geography test next friday!!
ahh!!.....
better studyy .

omg .. i postedd but it didn't show up at all..
or did it? i'm not sure.
something wrong with myy blog!!!!

how would you feel if you were accused of something that wasn't true?
sucks right?
well, i was accused of being pregnant!
i know this sounds crazy.
IT IS driving me crazy.
how can my mother not trust me?
oh yah.
whatever
i don't belong to this world at all.
i guess i'm just a freaking outsider of the world.
freak me out anyway.
YOU think i want to be here?
NO.
i don't want to suffer anymore.
i rather live alone than with my parents
they're driving me nuts.
they're making me feel i'm so SO wrong.

but i don't understand.
what fucking shit did i do to make them feel unsecure about me?
ya, they're worried for me.
but they went too far.
i'm shit-ed right now.
fuck this world shit.
uggh..

tiredd shit.
hope i was 16 now.
yup.
i don't wanna studyy anymore!!!!

i've got four words to sayy,

myy day sucks todayy.

ahem, i don't know what the hell happenedd to myy blog.
i posted , but it didn't show up.
maybe it's my com's problem or what .
omg , HELP!

finallyy it rainedd!
wells , todayy.

myy father rentedd a car .
we endedd up searching for the car in the carpark.
the previous owner did not park it back to its original place.
but we found the car after a few minutes.
and was given more time for the use of the car.
irresponsible owner. pfff.
T_T;
we headedd to toa payoh
and found the temple
(wells it took a long time because my father took a wrong route in the middle of the trip)
after praying ,
we went to eat near jalan bukit merah.
i was REAL hungry.
i ordered hokkien mee..
sucks man.
really sucks.
after eating it , i felt so stuffedd up.
sucks alot .. yucks.
i will never in my life eat it AGAIN.
well..
after lunch ,
went to the temple locatedd around jalan bukit merah.
prayedd and then we headed to queensway!!
shoppedd at queensway shopping centre.
(bought ps2 games!!)
weeeppeeeee. !!
then ..
we went to buy sparrows!
5 of them!
we went home after tat & set them free.
it was a very happy occasion though its just a few minutes.
the sparrows were so cuuute!!
i felt so happyy after settingg them free.
heehee.. hope we could set more.
wells. den at night , went to watch pacifier wif myy dear.
yup yups .. nice show.
but i expectedd it to b more humourous.
wells . i heard movie tickets' price are gunna increase next month.
it means,
less watching movies.
haiz , sadd.

yay ..
im so happy today.
first ,
i got the back crystal suhana andd me made!
it was BEAUTIFUL!
it feels like plastic.
but it 100% crystal..
i was so happy that time!!
i can't stop admiringg the crystal..heehee.. (:

then , i can't wait for the school day to endd.
i was meeting myy dear after school.
we went to watchh samara.
hmm..wasn't as scaryy as i expectedd.
now i'm eager to watch pacifier!!
by the way , i'm so dog-tiredd todayy.
i almost slept in english lessons.
luckily , ms kaur (english & lit teacher)
gave us a magazine .. erm.i forgot what it's calledd.
but its like , monthlyy mini-small magazine.
she gave us the magazines the period before recess.
i was reading the interesting sections then i restedd myy head on the table and slept.
still didn't feel any better :\
even after recess ,
i've eaten ,
but it's still of no use.
i'm still sleepy.
zzz.
im so tiredd now too.
myy eyes r heavyy .
ugghhh. but enjoyedd myy dayy today (:
definitelyy a dayy worth waiting for.

by the way , happyy 3rd month anniversary hubby.
love you forever & ever.
i'll never leave ur side.
forever together ..
i swearr.

haiz.
sigh sighh..
tomorrow is the last dayy of sch for the weekk!
& also me & myy hubbyy's 3rd month anniversary!!
lalala..
watching pacifierr ..
heeehee.
so excitedd!
Here's some love quotes which i think is meaningful.

• Love is when two people don't like to be apart.
• Love is a gift , not an obligation , follow your heart and always trust the person.
• Don't wait for the right person to come into your life, Be the right person to come to someone's life.
• The most important things are the hardest things to say.
• The best and most beautiful things can not be seen or even touchedd, they must be felt with the heart.
• True love is when he doesn't hurt you even if you hurt him. He's slient even when you're screaming. He will think clearly even if he's confused, will not let you go, even if you release him.
• If two people are predestinedd for each other, they will find each other despite the distance and time. True love waits forever.
• To love is one thing. To be loved is another. To be loved by the one you love ish everything
• Don't find love , let love find you. That's why it's calledd falling in love because you don't force youself to fall, you just fall.

wells. maybe love isn't easy as i expected.it takes responsiblilty.lots of them.you will break ur loved one's heart if you're not careful.all hearts are fragile...

ehh .
gloomyy weather .
it doesn't seem to rain at all.
thunderstorms , lightnings & darkk cloudyy cloudds.
but the rain don't come.
ugghh..

OH YAY!
btw , myy class made blue crystals todayy!!!!
but we can onlyy collect it tomorrow.
oh boy oh boyy.
i'm so excitedd!!!
CRYSTALS!!!!!
lalalala.
so tiredd ..
i slept at aroundd 8.45 p.m yesterday night !!
but still so tiredd.
hope i get sick tomorrow.
so i don't need to come to schh!!
hiyahhhh..
feelingg ratherr dooownn now.
don't know whyy.

" i've always been trying to find myself , which was trapped in the darkness.
But there's no light to guide me. i'm alone , cold , in the darkness.
I don't what to do.
All I wantedd to do is to forget about you , erase you from my mind.
But i realisedd it wasn't an easy task.
I don't know where I'm standing now.
I don't know what I'm doing right now.
If only someone could tell me.
If only someone could guide me,
out of this cold darkness. "

RAIN RAIN!!
RAIN TILL TMR!!!
RAIN TILL FOREVER!!
lalala.
thunderr cann b heardd..
like its going to rainn..
RAIN RAIN!!!!!
lalala ... ehh.
todayy was VERY VERY sunnyy.
i meant REALLY VERY sunnyy.
i was like a raw egg on a pan.
ughh.
i hate sunnyy days.
todayy so happii.
no science & chinese lessons.
wahaha
wahaha.
ehh .. i heardd samara was scaryy.
i wanna watchh!!
btw pacifier haven watchh..
cuz myy dear lorss.. have familyy dayy ..
n i taggedd alongg.. T_T; .
hehe hehe.. but nvm larr. watching movie ishh the same as familyy dayy.
lalala.. aiyahh.
if reallii rain , hopes it rain till tmr night.
tat wouldd b extra superr great.lalala.
FASTER RAIN LEH!
omgg .. i saw lightningg.
better stop liaos .. myy home's power supplyy sucks de.
alwayys cut off ..T_T; .


RAINN!!!!

haiz .. i hope Singapore,
was a coldd countryy,
rains every mondayy & tuesdayy morning,
doesn't have strict education system,
allows marriage at 13/14,
no crime,
no bad guys,
no molesters,
no stalkers,
no disasters,
sells stuffs at cheap price,
beach (not man-made),
blah blahh.

i wan to buyy a new bagg!
myy father doesn't let.. boohoo.. :(
eh .. now i crave to studyy on maths!!
weeeeeeeee.. wonder yy.?
wells.. tmrr got historyy test ..T_T;
didn't studyy..
lalalalala.
btw , i feel tat myy stamina increasedd!!
WEEEEE!! lala .. lala ..
plus , myy eng/lit teacher didn't come todayy!!
WOOOO!!
but i wouldd appeciate more if she didn't come tmrr insteadd of todayy. ..
cuz tmr got her lesson from 12.15 - 1.55 ...
after schh , got lit enrichment.
UGH
UGH
UGH.
T_T;

nyeh nyeh nyehh..
life's so boringg.
haven't done myy homeworkk..
heehee..

weepee!! myy pet! \(^-^)/
ain't it cute??
it reads myy blogg n it'll understandd it ..
uu can get one too!!
http://www.devirc.org/blogpet/
uu can readd more on wat it does ferr uu!!
i name mines as ,
xiaobaii ..hehes ..(:

ehh .. no posts the last two days?
i did post.. but den got internet problems.. so cannot post at first .. den later the page cannot b foundd when i tryy to get the blogger..
i was like ..UGH!
cannot tahann ..>.<
but todayy finallyy can le!!
heheh..
todayy going to watch pacifierr wif myy dearr..
ehh..yesterdayy dun feel liek watchnigg samara ..
okk .. i admit i scare..ahhahs..
i scare i watchh liaos cannot sleep in peace ar..
even cannot bathe inn peace..hahahs..
i like tat de lars.
im a scaredyy cat mahhs.
but now i feel like watching lehss..ehh..
dunno bahs..
shldd b watchnigg pacifierr anywayys.. hehh..

ehhh .. tmrr got chinese caligraphyy ..
can't skip it!! AHH!!
noo .. got chinese & eng tmrr.
ugh ughhh.
hehe hhee..
wanna watch samara & the pacifier..
ehh, yups.
samara mayb i watch wif siew yuu , sze yee on sat!! dunno whetherr theyy all free anot..
hyeh hyeh hyehh...
so tiredd right now ..
haizz ...
ya no hmkk . wait i tinkk got.
T_T;
BUT TMR DUN NEED TO PASS UP!
WEEPEE!!.
go make a layout liaos larr.
can't go on like tis.
muacks everyone.

OH YAY!
CRYSTALS!
CRYSTALS!
i love CRYSTALS SO MUCH!
mrs lim saidd if we haf time next week , we can make BLUE CRYSTALS!!!
i wan like YAY!!!!!!!!!
OMG
OMG
OMG
uu haf no idea how muchh i loooove crystals!!
everytime i c one , i'll take it n examine it!
its like so beautiful n nice!!
I WAN TO MAKE ONE
FERR MYSELF!!
aHHHH~
CRYSTALSSS!!!!
lalalala.
i wanna own one right noww!
CRYSTALS! , HERE
I
COOOOMEEE!!!

hahas.. sorrii..
got crazyy ova em.. i love them so muchh..
hehehess..
ehhh. its goingg to b sat soon!
yay! ~

well well .. nothing interestingg todayy.
but im behavingg real REAL badd todayy.
hahas .. ah lians ar mii..hhmm hmm.
must tryy to b guaiii ..
later myy dear come n scoldd mii >.< ..
keke just kiddingg .
haiz .. so sadd.. sat den can go out wif him ..
fridayy actuallyy can de lorrs.
suddenlyy teacher gave us a stupidd form.
SAYING TAT WE HAVE
TO GO FERR
CHINESE CALIGRAPHY
THINGY
ON FIRDAY
FROM 2 TO 5
....
NO FAIRRR!!
ughhh . feel like skippingg it.
but its complusaryy .. f tis programm
UGH!!!!! . haiz .. tmrr wednesdayy ..
boo..
feeling dayys r passingg byy so slowlyy.
I DUN WANNA STUDY ANYMORE!
i wan a miracle to happen :D

i've been startingg to neglect myy blog!!
wells wells..
didn't haf time n ideas ferr a new skin.. haiz.
HATE TUESDAY THE MOST!
cuz got the ever so boring history , eng & lit.
N I HAVE TO STAY BACK BECAUSE OF THE LIT ENRICHMENT !
i wanna go home n sleepp..~ verii tiredd n the lit enrichment damn f-ingg boringg like hell.
rather go home den stay backk ferr tat. T_T;
shit myy sch dayys.
yay myy holidayss..faster june holiday lehh.. (:
ughh .. hate mass run so berrii the muchh.
i suck at tat
I SUCK AT JOGGING!
i run until cannot tahan liaos , difficultyy in breathingg , the teacher still force mii to jog.
myy legs so tiredd .
f sehh ...
now i hate mass run even MORE.
ughh ughhhhhh.
tmrr got pe.
surely tell us to run again.
feel like smackingg hes face..
muahahh . im evil. (:<

hmm..
woke up todayy wif a heavyy headd.
n swollen eyes.
but it gets better in the afternoon.
MY EYES ARE BACK!! (:
feelingg betterr rite now.
everything seems to come backk..
im abit too impulsive on myy post yesterdayy night.
hahas .. sorryy.
kinda fedd upp bout studies.
ughh . sucks .

hmm hmm...
myy tummy ishh full right now.
eaten too muchh chocolate in the afternoon i guess .
heehee.
im GAINING WEIGHT AGAIN
AHHHHHHHH!!
after sucesfullyy losingg 1 kg,
i gainedd backk myy lost weight.
T_T; im so greedyy on food.
shit mii..
...

waw sports dayy reallii sians.
& hot too..

den todayy ...
haiz .. dun wanna tok about it.
myy eyes r swollen from crying.
having headaches n a lil fever.
i dun wan all tis.
but i can't help it.
feel like slappingg myself out of tis world
anyways , i come to the worldd to enjoyy life!
not enjoy shit stress n pain.
studes studies
yap yap yap.
blah blah blah.
no matterr how farr uu pushh mii to studyy , i won't!
even if im in a lockedd room wif a table n a mathematic acessment book , i'll raather scribble n draw den studyy
i won't study!!!
I DUN STUDY TO MUCH!
studyingg sucks.
i wonderr WHY some ppl like studying.
cuz,
they r nerdds!
f-ing nerds tat wan ppl to praise them.
stupid knowledge .
f-ing worldd.
get mii out of here.
i dun wanna suffer anymore.
ugh.