Monday, April 26





Your girlfriend isn’t clingy because she cares. Isn’t psycho because she wants to know who you’re with. Isn’t doubtful because she fears losing you. Isn’t insecure because she thinks another girl isn’t pretty. She isn’t boring because you don’t see her dolled up anymore, she just feels comfortable. Don’t blame her if she doesn’t call you all the time, she doesn’t want you to think she’s crazy. She just wants you to have some space. When you ask your girlfriend if you can do something and she says yes, it doesn’t always mean sure, go ahead. Yes she trusts you, she just doesn’t always trust the people around you. She’s not territorial. She’s not controlling. She just likes you, wants you to stay, and is just being the normal, caring, loving, will-do-anything type of girlfriend she is. So don’t break promises, even though we know you will. So don’t ignore her, even though we know sometimes you do. Don’t take advantage of her kindness, even though you already have. & Don’t hurt her. Us girls don’t ask for much, just a moment of your time, a hand to hold, shoulder to cry on, & ears that will actually listen. We don’t expect you to be perfect because we already think you’re perfect for us. Your imperfections just make us love you more and more. So don’t hurt her, because she dropped her guard for you.

- tumblr

Saturday, April 24

cycle





Today's lunch and dinner was fully packed
I was like @_@
Sometimes I'll just stop awhile and force myself to think of something to do cus everyone seems so busy and tied up. It'll cause some headache lol.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, so tmr is sat! YAY. I thought today WAS sat but owells, nows the weekends, 2 more days to go and it's off day time ................
Should I be eggcited? :l ..... let's not expect much shall we?

It fucking sucks to feel like.. im not worth it... your time.
The things you used to say, really contradicts your actions.

How does it feel to be in a plight where someone loves you more than you do?
Shiok right? Because you don't need to care about the other person but he or she will still be there for you.

It hurts, imma go to sleep.





bad

Saturday, April 17





















I was like, "Hey apple! Hey! Hey! Apple!"
And she turned around and gave that face LMAO



Sam's thinking about her secret guy :D





Shak and Markoos behind us, Idris was trying to start the fire and Rafi was taking the photo for us!





Finally after 987324 times the whole of TNFS is present!
Haaiiiiiiiiiii feels like secondary school days...
&I look weird with fringe pinned up :D Hate it when your fringe sticks to your forehead and eventually clump together cus it's wet soooooooo...
DID I MENTION THAT WE HAVE BEEN TRYING TO START A FIRE EVER SINCE WE STARTED?!
YA! THROUGHTOUT THE WHOLE BBQ!! Bwahahah we were cooking the food with pathetic fire but it's all cool all cool, we still got to eat till we were sick of crabsticks, hotdogs and prawns lmao :D BBQ-ed marshmallows and Chivas were the saviors ;)

Started attachment, pretty hectic but the days are passing by like zoom zoom!
Today work starts @ 3, had some really queer dream and woke up @ 12.
But I stilll feel like ==.==
Had like close to 10 hours of sleep and still ?!!?
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

wtf today sat alr!

Thursday, April 15

This sucks!!!!!!!!!!! Why do I have feelings like this!?!?? It sucks cus I'll be the only one feeling this way and it sucks even more to know that you'll be okay with it!!!!!!!!! Need to get this fucked up feelings out of me!! I don't want to see how it'll go. No time no communication no initiative. Fuck. Ok I need to learn. Work work work.

Friday, April 9





In your brown eyes i walked away
In your brown eyes i couldn?t stay
In your brown eyes you'll watch her go
Then turn the record on and wonder what went wrong
What went wrong

If everything was everything but everything is over
Everything could be everything if only we were older
I guess it's just a silly song about you
And how i lost you and your brown eyes

In your brown eyes i was feeling low
'cause they're brown eyes and you never know
Got some brown eyes but i saw her face
I knew that it was wrong
So baby turn the record on play that song

Where everything was everything but everything is over
Everything could be everything if only we were older
I guess it's just a silly song about you
And how i lost you and your brown eyes brown eyes

Everything was everything but baby it's the last show
Everything could be everything but it's time to say goodbye so
Get your last fix and your last hit
Grab your old girl with her new tricks
Honey yeah it's no surprise that i got lost in your brown eyes
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Eggcited for BBQ tmr! Vani's gonna bring over the comics that Cheryl, her and me have created during FUCKING BORING lessons when we were Sec 4! HAHAHAHAH CANT WAIT TO SEE EM. Sure gonna lose some kilos laughing my guts out :D

Wednesday, April 7




I just want to protect myself from hurting myself.
6 more days to attachment.

I just watched as time wizzed past me
yet, no one sees the importance of time

why am I me?

Saturday, April 3




The most powerful, influential and beautiful thing on Earth;

Love

It's priceless.





But in the end I'll always be who I think I am.
Someone who gave her heart but never got it back.

Wednesday, March 31









LOVE YOU PRETTIES!!


Was out with my girlfriends on Mon and we caught How To Train Your Dragon 3D!!!!
It was unexpectedly goooooood. I fell in love with the dragon characters, the BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL graphics (WATCH IN 3D!) and storyline. I realise that animations always have a morale behind. It got me teary-eyed, and doughnut ang was sniffing ! HAHAHAH oki cute girl (: Gonna meet them tmr againzzzz! This time Nuz and Vani will join us! And the gay boys HAHAHAH i mean young men ;) Yall coming right?!

OH YES AND A VERY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SAMMY SAM SAM!!!!!! <3
All the luuuuurve going out to ya and better tell us who the lucky guy is hor if not we will keep pestering you! WAHAHA

My work attachment's gonna start in what... a week's time ? Andddddd though I've gotten into a decent place, I'm not so excited. Perhaps, yet. I still want a longer holiday ... ): Oh hai. Plus somemore I started playing FFXII . LMAO!!!!! Wanted to continue FFX but the disc went missing so I play FFXII again.
Oh hai, anyone understands?

I chionged 4 hours then I went to nap, Player XXXTINA is gonna continue her quest HAHAHA THAT RHYTHMES OKGAY wish time can stop then i can play everything I want until I satisfied/got phobia of gaming wahahaha.
Hai wishful thinking.


Maybe if you were me one day, you'll finally understand how it feels.

Monday, March 29

HAPPY ANIVERSARY!







Old photos but still, fresh memories.
WAHAHAH ITS BEEN LIKE WHAT, 6 YEARS ZOMG
Can still remember when we were sitting together on that typical long school benches in the old school's canteen. We were having packet dinner and it was our Secondary 1 Orientation Camp. Vani and Samantha were laughing at Sam's mug and then Vani laugh too hardcore a grain of rice flew to Nuzrath's dinner HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

I remembered we loved band so much, we would go for group sectionals whenever we are free. Playing Phantom of the Opera with Suhana on the piano. Ghost stories about the music room. Asian Selection 2, Norweigian Rondo, getting frustrated with the guys when they start doing stupid stuffs. So we practically watched ourselves as we became from band rookies to pro members of the Band! HUAHUAHUA I AM PROUD OF US! Remember Genting trip? WILL NEVER FUCKING FORGET THAT IT IS SO MOTHERFUCKING MEMORABLE! Like if they sell the memory record tape of it I'll get it and replay it over and over again. HAHAHA omg :')

And the ecstasy in us when we achieved Gold in the National Band Competition? Fuck, people may laugh at us, telling us we are silly, it's just an award. But no one will actually understand how we feel at that point of moment. We were Sec 4 and despite our O levels and parents objecting, we sacrificed our studies and time and I have never regretted it. Of course, the support of the rest who couldn't join us was essential as well and that alone is enough to boost our morale.

So to people who thinks it's no worth shit, these are the people who probably havent been through the process of working so damn fucking hard to achieve something which in the end, finally pays off every single bit of effort, tears, blood and sweat.

Woop sorry I got carried off so then we got separated when we were Sec 3. Within the period of Sec 3 and 4, many things happened. Whether unfortunate or good, past is the past and we have flaws in us. We pulled through and made it out together <3

SO HAPPY 6 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP TNFS!!!!!!!
This bond of friendship will never ever be forgotten..
AND REMEMBER AR! CHERYL SAID BY 25 YRS OLD ALL OF US MUST GET MARRIED TO GOOD MEN!
HUAHUAHUAHUA! Good luck to Nuz to her A levels this year! Oh and Idris the emoxsoshi boy HAHAHAHAHAHAh.

Oki. I want to hug every single one of you ):

Love msARTEE

P.S I miss pirates of the carribean! LOL.

Friday, March 26





Disneyland ): Gorgeous ain't it?
I WANNA GO UNIVERSAL STUDIOS DAMN BAAD!!!!! I CANT FUCKING GO OVERSEAS WITH FRIENDS I NEED TO FEEL LIKE I BEEN SOMEWHERE OUT OF THIS TINY ISLAND BEFORE I GO FOR ATTACHMENT! NEEEEEEED.

Fuck. I hate waiting. And waiting. And in the end you realise you been through all the fucked up thoughts and emotions just to find out actually it's just a false run-through.

Feels like I'm the biggest idiot in this fucking world
yay me!


STOP TREATING ME LIKE SHIT

oki I need to cool down
I feel fucking bad deteriorating my health lik that but
let's just say we live life once.
Experiences come and go.

P.S I FUCKING HATE MY PHONE! ITS A DAMN MINI N97 SERIES DONT GET IT PEOPLE ITS FUCKING LAGGY EVEN THOUGH I'VE DELETED ALL MY SONGS IN THERE AND MY MESSAGES ARE LESS THAN 100. I NEED A NEW PHONE! -.-