I hate myself because of all these emotions that I can't control. And all these thoughts that came to my mind, how I wished I could blow them away with a gentle sweep of breath and not having to pretend like nothing ever came across my mind. They go to the back of my head, and I wake up with a bitter heart to remind me of that I've been running away.. and how I've always been running away.
I've been patiently waiting, and I am sick of it. Because I've been too nice, and I tend to protect you with chances. And instead of blaming it on you, I've been pushing it to myself. See, now I am stuck between what's right and what's wrong.
How can I move on to understand that the world, or specifically, Life is unfair? No, honestly I think I will never learn to understand it, I can only accept that fact that I am here, breathing. That is a sad truth.