Ventured far to deep,
I think I lost myself.

OMGGGGGGG !

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh!!!!1
I WANNA GO TO SINGFEST, BUT THE ONLY REASON FOR ME TO IS JUST COS OF TOKIO HOTEL!
I DONT WANT TO SEE NO WONDER GIRLS OR KATY BOOBY PERRY -.-
&&&& GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!! TOKIO HOTEL IS COMING DOWN TO BUGIS JUNCTION NEXT WEDNESDAY AND THEY R GUNNA AUTOGRAPH THEIR SPECIAL COLLECTION OF THE HUMANOID ALBUM!!!!
I DONT KNOW WHETHER TO BE SAD OR HAPPY! (: :):(::(:(:(:<>:(

JUST HOLD YOUR OWN CONCERT IN SG TOKIO HOTEL!
I'll BE SO FUCKING THERE!!!!!!!!!!1111

Gosh.. Yknow,
I wished I was born as the opposite sex.

no matter what happens, i'll still lose.
i need to get a grip of myself.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey

OMG! Went out with Cherylalala and Sammie ;3 !
We had yummy Yoshinoya for late lunch (Which I havent had for like, MONTHS WTF@#$@#$324) and Japanese Gelato ice cream yumymumyumyum the one at Taka's basement hehehe.
We went for a shopping spreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I swear I was the happiest girl HWAHWAHWA, just that I contained my excitement. x)
THANK GOD there's still some sales going on. I FINALLY STEPPED INTO TOPSHOP OH MY GOD. many good stuff are gone alr I bet ): I bought some stuff tho!

I set aside an amount of money when I got my salary allowance to my parents so that they will safekeep it for me! And that way, I won't spend ALL my allowance and feel like shit when I go broke. I got some stuff online too cant wait for them to arrive! WAHAHAH shopping does make me happy, (when I can afford to!)

Oh! This is gonna be my last week working at my current location niao, another reason why I'm feeling so happy yippee. & after a week's break, I'm gonna work at the restaurant located in the Singapore Zoological Gardens.
Yea, it's a pretty big step. It's not like I'm totally unhappy with where I'm at now, but I know I'll be sooooo much happier there.

YEA! I can't wait for this week to be so freaking over. Cos Cheryl and I were planning so much for next week's outing AND I WANNA MEET ALL MY GIRLSSSSS TOO!!!!!!!
Hehehe eggcited!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTTTT
I finally feel like I'm gonna have a piece of my life back.
Thank God.

Night owls and stars! *_*

P.S Went KTV with the girls last mon and we celebrated birthdays! x)




So adorable! I lurve yall!

countdown: 5 fucking days FUCK YEAAAA?

Giving up on love.

I don’t believe in love anymore. I once was love’s biggest fan. I loved love. I believed in love at first sight, true love, soul mate, all that mushy-gushy stuff the best songs and books are written about. It’s what every little girl dreams about. One day my prince will come….blah blah blah. I used to believe in love. I was in love, like I’m talking head over heals, stars in your eyes in L-O-V-E. I loved you with all my heart even though I knew you weren’t perfect. You were always more sure about us. Then we broke up. I still loved you, you said you loved me too. But you got with someone else. I was mad at you. I hated you. I still hate you. You left me hanging, all by myself while you frolicked with her. It doesn’t matter now that you regret everything, if you still have feelings for me. You turned my heart into stone, you made me bitter towards love. I don’t think I’ll be able to love again for a very long time. You walked out on me when I needed you the most. You said forever, but you got with her the moment you were free. I’m just sorry we couldn’t keep our promises. It’s a shame that I don’t believe in love anymore. Because if you don’t believe in love there is nothing to cry about, and I don’t have anymore tears to cry. I gave up on love because it gave up on me.

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So one day, it just happened. You added me on msn but we didn't talk. Until I saw you saying something about L4D2 on your personal message that's when I picked up my courage and used that to start a topic. We were so crazed about L4D2 coming out that time. But I was more interested in getting to know you more.

Our first date was awkward, but funny as hell when I think about it. You said you forgot to bring your house keys, and you'll have to wait till your mum comes home. I said, why not, let's go out for dinner then? I was at school for some reason and you took a cab down to meet me. We didn't know where we were going to, but Plaza Sing it was.
Our first dinner together.
Our first walk in the rain together.

And after we got together, you told me that actually you didn't forgot your house keys or anything. :)

I remember when we were working in the same kitchen. I overheard you saying that you added everyone in fb. I was secretly hoping you found mine too. And you did. I accepted it without hesitation and the first thing I did was to look at your relationship status. It read: Single. I was so elated that I literally jumped for joy.
I wanted to add you on msn but I didn't anyway, I just waited for you to appear online on fb so I could talk to you but you didn't that night. I went to sleep with a smile on my face.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I´m not over you

And if you don´t want me then
I guess I´ll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know

"Have you ever wanted to ask a question, but you didn't because you knew your heart wouldn't be able to handle the answer?"

What do I do?
All I can do now is try to push our memories out of my mind.

countdown: 12 days

gee it still seem like a long way to go

despicable me is a good movie!
I like those little minions, i wanna grab one home and play with them all day.

want to know something ridiculous?
that dream became reality LOOOOOOOOOOOL HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHa

I always thought there will be rainbows after storms
but this time... after such a painful fight, there's nothing.

countdown: 14 days

you told me you didnt know how to feel anymore
it was in my restless dreams
but it felt so real
if we could experience pain in our dreams, I would have died
ha aha ha ha.

Countdown, 19 days.

"Sometimes I wonder if you ever think of us. And what happened between us. Or, really, what never happened between us. Sometimes, I just have to wonder."


It's hard. It's really difficult my dear.
I can't fight alone. I'm losing this battle.



Oh gosh would anyone understand?
How much it hurts.
How much it fucking hurts.

HAPPY BUFFDAY SUHANA-WHOS-NUTS-ABT-SOCCER AND VANI-BROWNIE!!!!!!!! <333333333





THIS WAS LIKE WE WERE SEC 3, AT SUM LEADERSHIP CAMP I THINK???
WAS LOOKING FOR A PHOTO OF SUHANA AND VANI THEN I CAME ACROSS THIS WAS PERFECT EXCEPT THAT IDRIS WAS INSIDE TOO HAHAHAHAH
BUT ON A SECOND THOUGHT, HIS BUFFDAY WAS JUNE TOO SO WHY NOT!!!!!
WE SHALL CELEBRATEEEEEEEEEEEE AGAINNNN LIKE COMBINE BUFFDAY CELEBRATION!!

I LUB EUU GUYS MANY MANY MUCH.
I MIZ EUU GUYS MUCH MANY MANY TOO ):
THIS COMING MONDAY GONNA MEET THE GIRLS! WE ARE WATCHING TOY STORY TREE!!!! !!!!!
YES AGAIN!!!!!! :D I wanna see peas in a pod :3

Geeeee I wonder if you guys read this! LOL

P.S PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST, VANI, REMEMBER HOW MUCH YOU LIKED THAT DOG PLUSH THAT I HAVE AND DECIDED TO NAME IT BROWNIE? I'll always remember those days :') <3

i think i have sum serious moodswing.
Reminiscing.