I guess, I should smile? (:

And it's not I don't want to believe you, Cheryl yknow..
I just don't want to raise my hopes.

Then




fall












again.


Like *SMACK!*.
Well..


OKAY THINGS ASIDE , weather was like killer la!
I thought it's rainy season eh? Was raining like whoosh, I think last week, was super shuang.
Geesh. Oh night study, GREAT! I can totally NOT study/do anything related to studies at home after comin back from school. LAZY LAZY LAZY, blblahbaahbah.
So, I guess wantin it or not, going for night studyin takes me away from distractions and temptations at home. Okay, hopefully I could start revising and doing my homework, which I don't normally do... AAAA OOOPS.

Hm, I wonder if..

IM SORRY, IM SO SORRY.
I shouldn't have.. I shouldn't have made things so difficult.. for you.
Sorry.. I should have let it go.

Im sorry..

sorry.

No, now I feel more like




Sometimes part of me wanted to walk to t left,
then t other'll want to walk to opposite way..
Most of t time, I feel like it totally isn't right to do or feel somethin,
but I still went ahead wih it.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
Questions that can't even be answered by myself.
Hold on, or should I just let go?
OMGGGGG! WHY CAN'T ANSWERS JUST FALL FROM T SKIES?!

.
.
Aaa.. well, that's cos.. they don't!
o.o

Sometimes I feel like this,

Aaaaaaaaa, and I hope everythin is fine over there with all my girls, no?
I feel kind of hopeless, I don't know how I could help or do!
So, just want to let yknow that,

I'll always be here.

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Went to SPSB's concert today and it was awsome!
HAHA, and Chee Ming has got sparkles in his hair -.-
Have got photos! But the TING! TING! Idris left his camera with me, so I've gotta like return him tomorrow.

And I miss storymakin with MRS SPECS,
HAW HAW HAW HAW!!

Okay, short thang today.
&&&&&, I'm tryin not to think too much
nor allow my mind to wander in its paradise..


Kay, some photos lest this post looks bah.
Was so long ago! But was double choc muffins topped with cream cheese frostin!
Joey wanted to try bakin, so here there are!









T frosting was fucking good! But muffins were way too chocolatey.
Nevertheless, it's finger lickin' good heh hehe!

Alrights, need a shuteye.

HAW HAW!

Tagged by SER LEE, HOHO.
20 beautiful people that comes into my mind,

1. Suhana
2. Cheryl
3. Samantha
4. Vani
5. Wan Teng
6. Nuzrath
7. Idris
8. Rafi
9. Shak
10. Ahmad
11. Wirda
12. Joey Foo
13. Yok San
14. Sunbear? :x
15. Sulaiman
16. Thiyvan
17. Jason
18. Norlinah
19. Ain
20. Huimin!


How did i meet 14 [Sunbear]?
..... AROUND IN SCHOOL, lor. I think.. aa. First sight la!
... WHAT AM I SAYIN?!


What would you do if you never meet 1 [Suhana] ?
Wow, no one'll sing songs like We Belong Together with me, ): And love me like she would! Had t same crushes and shared problems with one another last time.. :]


What if 9 [Shak] and 20 [Huimin] are fated?
Aaaaa... urmm.. I'd still bless em! :D


Will 6 [Nuzrath] and 17 [Jason]date?
I don't think so.. Cos both of em have got someone in mind! :x


Describe 3 [Samantha]?
Pretty, adorable, focused, and need I say.. adorable x 10000!
And when she gets serious, I scared scared ):


Is 8 [Rafi AKA BROWN RICE] attractive?
HMMMMMM UMMMMMM ERRRRRRR, hahah ok ok, Y-E-S! (:


Describe 7 [Idris]?
Oh t Ting Ting tooth fairy's real nice but real pain in t ass sometimes!
AHAAHAH cos his jokes'll kill t shit out of you! Either way, he's a real good person and friend to be with! Annndddd, GAIN SOME WEIGHT WILLYA?! (stop being bulimic! hehe.)


Do you know any of 12's [Joey] family members?
Yeah! Long list haha. :D


What if 18 confesses to you he or she likes you [Norlinah]?
WE'RE IN LOVE! :X


What language does 15 [Sulaiman] speak?
Malay and english, maybe bit of chinese? :D


Who's going out with 9 [Shak]?
HMMM... He's single yknow *hint hint*


How old is 16 [Thiyvan]?
I think it's 16! And his dog would be 2 doggie years! :D


When did u last speak to 13 [Yok San]?
Friday! In t toilet about her smexy bikini shot! :x


who is 2 [Cheryl] fave singer(s)?
WAHAHAHAHA GERARD, JAY CHOU, PARAMORE &&& many more which I'm not sure of!


Would you ever date with 4 [Vani]?
Well, she's one of my hot girlfriends! SHES ONE HOT MAMA!


Will you ever date with 17 [Jason]?
No, cos I believe we both have someone else in mind ^^.


Is 19 [Ain] single?
Yeaaapp, but, she can ring me up! :x


What is 10's [Ahmad] last name?
Mustafa?! Mustaqim I think.. :x


School of 3 [Samantha]?
YUAN CHING SEC SCH!


Where does 6 [Nuzrath] live?
Hahaha, 9 storeys above me! (:


What is your favourite thing of 5 [Wan Teng]?
She'll always be there and her sunshine smile!


Have you seen 2 naked [Cheryl]?
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..


3 people I choose to do this quiz:
1. WANTENG :D
2. CHERYL :D
3. IDRIS! *ting ting* :D

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Hahahah okay, am wishin I had a webcam! I mean, all of my girlfriends had one! Then it'll be so fun to see each other while chattin. Esp when Cheryl and I were talkin bout..
Ahem.. .. So I didn't wanted to go out with my parents cos I wanted to study for Organic Chemistry (&LAZY).. AAAAA, not for t sake of t teacher , but I personally like chemistry okaaay! Wanna do well for it too cos my physics ain't as strong.

AHUH! T reason why I took down my tagboard some time was because I was so bloodily fucking pissed with t wussy pussy lard. Yeah, told ya I was really FUMING MADDDDDD like NEVER, EVER, HAD, BEEN, IN, MY, LIFE! Arrrgh, aye shall stop talkin bout lard.
So now a happy endin! My BOARD IS BACKK!! Hows it? User friendly? I hope it is! Just that t upgradin link on top of it IS irritain, can't get it off! BAH NVM!


Annnnnnndd.. it sucks to feel this way, no?!

I just got fuckin shot
straight into t core of my heart.

Yeah, thanks. I'm pretty much awake now.

YEA I'M COMPLAIN.

WOO!!!
WATCHIN T BLACK PARADE IS DEAD! AND IT'S FUCKIN RAININ AT T SAME TIME?!
Awsome feelin !
I know! I'm goin to talk bit about MCR and their freakin album, The Black Parade Is Dead! IT FUCKIN ROCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I DONT CARE WHAT T OTHER FUCKS GOT TO SAY!
(Okay, to skip all this, look for an end ---.)
And Ray has got cute tummy fats when he plays t guitar BUT I DONT MIND, RAY, I DONT! LOVEYERRRRRRRRRRRR! AND AND AND, WHAT ABOUT T REST?
Yeah, ALL OF YOU ARE FUCKIN AWSOME! Like, Gerard is so HOT even without makeup, I love it when he goes, "A surprise party for me?". HE SOUND GOOD LIVE TOO!
Frankie IS LIKE TOTALLY MELTIN, and his tattoos makes him even hotter! LIIKE WHOOOA! AND WHEN HE GOES UP TO KISS GERARD, I wish I wasn't *straight, serious.
Bob has hair longer than mine BUT HE TOTAL ROCK ON T DRUMS, and his deep blue eyes, like totally mesmerising! HIS BLACK LIPRING THAT MADE HIM OH-SO-FUCKING-HOT.
MIKEY SWINGS HIS BASS LIKE A LITTLE PRETTY GIRL, He's so fuckin cute, and the fact that he's married doesn't STOP US FROM FRICKIN LOVIN' HIM.
OH LASTLY, RAYYYYYYYYYYY. Okay, I better not get started, reader'll get bored yo! HAHAHA I'm CONSIDERATE SHIT ALRIGHTS?!
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In school, I am constantly disturbed by some lard. EVERYWHERE, TOTALLY! I mean, how sick is it, when t sight of him not only irks, but makes you naseous? Sorry, I'm not tryin to pin-point anythin, but it's a fuckin fact! I'm tryin to forgive and forget yea, he's just irritatin/annoying us like every single day. And he's gettin worst each day. Iiii don't know, whatever. Bah.

And I should start to believe in myself and my friends and not allow people's views to bring me down yknow. Like it fucking hurts but what the hell, aye'll live with it.
FALLIN IN LOVE IS HURTIN! Yes? Yes? No? No?
OH MY GOD, FACE IT, Y-E-S!
IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS! What t hell happened? Nothing! THAT'S PRECISELY! Awwwwwwwww, WHATEVER HAHAH!.

People, I might be becomin like insanely sensitive, paranoid or indifferent.
I'm just protectin myself from fallin like fuckin flat on my face!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH, ok, I must have scared everyone away
I must have scared you away cos I'm like, vulglar and everythin.
I'm not sweet, I'm not gentle, I'm not beautiful.
SAY, IM LOVIN' IT.
AND I'M LOVIN MY NEW LOOK, SO CAN FUCKTARDS STOP TRYIN TO BRING DOWN MY ESTEEM?!


NEXT!


* I was kiddin bout the not being straight thingo.
** Serious.
*** Why does t song Cancer brings such an solemn atmosphere round me?
Gosh, you must fuckin know that I _____.
**** OMG, I'm okay! (:

o_o

I'm elated, yet confused at the same time.

But! I don't need to be puzzled with anything cos.. well.. it makes no sense!

Ha! Ha! But wouldn't it be special if t person had t same feelings as you do?
I mean, how rare would this happen eh?

Just some random thoughts since I... just watched some drama back then.

OH! And I've been applyin Palmer's Cocoa Butter Formula for toning and stuff.

Waitin for visible results! It've been a week yo :D

Other than it's yummy chocolatey+butter scent, I don't know why but it makes me feel good about myself! ....

Mind's quite empty, I don't have much to say today, except that, JEFF CORWIN IS FUCKING HOOOOOOOOOT! Ahahah, you must be wonderin who he is but aaa, he's someone you'll actually see on.. Animal Planet! - My no. 1 TV programme. HAHAHAHAH TSK TSK.

......

......

OKAY. MUST. DO. HOMEWORK.

fire at will

OMGGGGGGGG, homework not done! Been talkin with my peeps yo!
And and, Rafi A.K.A BROWN RICE gave me his creative webcam (which he got for free), cos he got a awsomely brand new webcam which he refused to show.
Great right? Then never/forgot to give me the installation disc.... BAKA!

Today, was kind of embarrassing. I mean, sometimes you'll get so fuckin shy that you dont even know what you're doing, what you've done until you've sat down in a corner and reflect.
OH MY GOSH!
SOMEONE KILL MEE!!!!
I'm like dying of this embarrassment,
Vani keep giving me that OMG-YOU'RE-BLUSHING-RED-look.
AAAAAAAAAA!!!!
FINE!, I mean, yes I'm...
I'm.. I'm.. I'm FUCKING LOVIN MCR!
Oh no.. that's not what I wanted to say...
DAMN! I JUST KILLED AN ANT AAAAAAAAAA!!
I'M FUCKING SORRY! IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!
I WANTED TO TIANK YOU AWAY BUT YOU WERE MOVIN SO SWIFTLY..

I MISS MY BLACK PARADE IS DEAD! ALBUM.
And I missssssssssss....
GERARD RAY FRANK MIKEY BOB and err.. James Dewee? HAHAHAH!
Andddd..

Bottoms up Cherylin! The sun's still shining! <3

HOLYYYYYYYYY.

I've just awoken from nap.

I've just awoken from nap and found the house empty.

I've just awoken from nap and found the house empty ; parents went out to Vivo
.
I've just awoken from nap and found the house empty ; parents went out to Vivo. ; no dinner money on the table or anywhere else

I've just awoken from nap and found the house empty ; parents went out to Vivo. ; no dinner money on the table or anywhere else; no dinner for me


OKAY!!!!!!!! WORST OFF IS, I'M SUPPSOSED TO BE DOING MY MATHS AND SS HOMEWORK BUT MIDWAY, I WENT TO LIE ON THE BED AND POOF, 3 HOURS GONE.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
): OMG! MY TUITION HMK NOT DONE. UGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH.
Why does weekends pass by so quickly?!
ARGGGHHHhh, #$%#$%#@^&&^&@!!!((&&*.

Attempt to be studious and hand in work on time = FAILED
Hahaha! Now t problem is.. I'm going to face difficulty sleepin at night already.
AAAAAAAAAAA, *slaps head on pillow*


... *stomach growls*

You moved me.

OKAAAAAAAAY, I'm bored so I decided to dig out pictures I've taken since gazillion years.
Actually I think it's months ago or so.

My brother's birthday brownie! Oh, it's 4th t May.

M&Ms: WEEEEEE CHOCOLATE POOL! Cream cheese frostin!

MMM TADAAH!

Father and son quality time. HAHAHA, POPS' SOME HOT STUFF, YEAH.Btw, they were playin Tennis on Wii Sports ._.
Last piccy, Mcgriddles! I personally don't like em, sorry to lovers out there!
I'm gonna breakfast with Vani @ Macs tomorrow! Then art art art ar ta artart.

Okay, after school today, went to "audience" the Buzz98. Anddddd, well guys, YOU HAVE ALL IMPROVED SINCE T LAST VISIT! Bravo! Keep it up, I want to see you guys rock t stage someday! :D Woah, if I was drunk in that space, I would have hopped/jumped/silly dances/crawl/star-jumped/(insert funny actions here)! Cos music makes you high, and gay. As in, joy. Okaaaaaaaaaay, it's so fun being in school nowadays cos we girls can go on and on and on and on about.....

OUR CRUSHES LOL! :x

Love yer girls! Really do.

NIGHTS OWLS AND STARS :]
Drowsy from sleep yo!.

Some teensy rants.

OH NOOOOO.
I hate it, I detest this icky feel.
Everytime I look around,
Wow, she's lucky to be thin.
Wow, she's lucky to have (insert good assets here.)

YA! I FEEL SO LOUSY ): And things that I wanted to always have, DONT FUCKING FIT!
WHYWHYWHYWYH?! I know this feelin sucks.
There's always a time when girls like us feel extremely lousy about ourselves,
because all of us want to be pretty and look good right!
AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaa, I know beauty is just in t eye of the beholder.
Lookin at all the fab stick-thin models in t clothes I wanna own so much,
I CANT HELP IT, I want to be as gorgeous looking!

That thick black frame specs don't even fit my fucking face! THATS WHY I WAS SO PISSED SOME TIME BACK AGO. Because I was goin to get one with degree but I look like teh shit in it! WHYYYYYYYY? I WANNA LOOK ALL PREPPY AND GEEKY AND CRAZY LIKE WOAH BUT NONONONON ONONNONO! CLOTHES DONT FIT COS I'M NOT SKINNY ENOUGH AND I DONT HAVE A PRETTY FACE!!!!!!!!!.
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Okay, after gettin it all out,
I'm a new wholesome person who is esctatic and confident about herself! :D
(Sorry bout t use of "esctatic", I just learnt it during English lessons today.)
Just needed some coolin down, cos t world is so unfair sometimes.
Well, but I'm contented because I'm livin with beautiful and handsome people around me!
MY FRIENDS HAHAHAHAH.

Geesh, I talk alot nowadays. :l
HAHA, now everyone knows about my _. :x
BLAME IT ON TRUTH OR DARE!

:D

Cheryl, remember this? (:

I get a bored sometimes over weekends.

I can't wait for t celebration tomorrow AAAAAAAa,

GUNNA BE AWSOME! :D

Anyways, I've a surprise for someone special tomorrow!

AND THERES SO GONNA BE MORE.

Cos I still owe,

Idris, Vani, Suhana, Samantha, Wan Teng, Rafi..

PRESENTS!

Soooooo, sorry yer guys have to wait ):

Okay, I have to complain bout somethin that happened in t salon. (It's Shirley Mah's can!) Well, it was so long ago but, DO YOU KNOW THAT MY HAIRDRESSER DON'T KNOW WHAT BANGS ARE?!?!?!
Holy fuck, he apparently thought I wanted a slanted chopped fringe. (WHAT?!) Yeah, so I kindly told him again, that I want BANGS, even gestured and asked him to chop my fringe below my eyebrows. I SAID BELOW MY EYEBROWS YOU NUT! He go chop above. So ya, that explains t weird clippin of t fringe.
Strange enough, he left out t right side of my fringe, and that's why I had to chance to clip it up to hide everythin. BUT I HAD TO EXPOSE IT COS I WANNA LET IT DOWN, HOWEVER, IT'S SO ANNOYINGLY FUGLY GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

THE END. ):

Lawl, celebration time, comon!

HA HA

Maths lessons are gettin on my nerves. They are like, awsomely bored, and I'm sad to know I think that way BECAUSE MY MATHS NEED SOME UPPIN'!
I'm tryin to focus on t Mensuration notes but look where my itchy hands ended up to.. ._.
IM SUCHA ...
Okay, I shan't say failure, a true failure is when she gives up on herself!

Yeah, despite what that GOBY said in t morn, another wussy pussy fucked up the day.
HE apparently claimed he didn't wanted anything to do with us.
Well listen here, FUCK YOURSELF UPSIDE DOWN.
Oh, you may have some difficulties, too bad.
You're a fucking letdown to your seniors. They had passed their knowledge down to you and you had to go, "OH, I DONT WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM. I AM DISTANCING MYSELF AWAY FROM THEM."
So? By putting such selfish words through your mouth, you had disappointed your section, who have been through thick and thin for the past 2,3 years with you.
It's just like when you see newly recruited juniors still leavin after you have wasted your darn time teachin em.
If you have fat guts to say such a thing, you shouldn't even consider yourself as part of the band.
You sounded like you don't even appreciated what everyone back then have done for you.
Okay, you totally disgust me. Your true colours aren't what I want to see in a friend.

): I spent bout 30 mins doin my post, I've almost forgotten about my notes!
HAHAHAHA, CHEH, ACT GUAI SEH.
Just like some pussies.


Overall, I'm still yippee kay, I just can't believe that some thick-skulled people don't know how to appreciate what we've been through and done.
Don't we deserve at least some decent respect?
SO YOU THINK IT WAS SO FUCKING EASY? SO EASY TO GET THIS?
OH MY GOD I NEED TO COOL DOWN.
I'M HOT-HEADED BECAUSE I THINK IT'S SO UNFAIR TO MY JUNIORS!
AFTER ALL WE BEEN THROUGH, EVERYONE STILL THINK WE'RE PEANUTS!
IM NOT TRYIN TO GET SYMPATHY, BUT WHY IS IT ALWAYS BIASED TOWARDS US? EVEN AFTER PROVIN OURSELVES, ITS STILL NOT ENOUGH?
oh my god can you fuckin cool down not!


HUUU HAAAA! Okay.
I'm okay see, (:
IM FUCKING OKAY.
IM not o-fucking-kay!
(:
Tomorrow's t trio-three periods day.
HAHAHAH, 4E3-ers get what I mean?

Tears of Joy!

OMFG
I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS
I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS
I FUCKING LOVE YOU BAND
WE DID IT!
AND WE SAW YOU SOARING
NOW YOU'RE OFF ON YOUR OWN
BUT WE KNOW, ALL OF YOU COULD DO IT!
YOU MADE US SO PROUD
I UFCKING LOVE YOU GUYSSSSS!!
EVERYTHING
EVERYTHING THAT ALL THE SENIORS HAVE BEEN THROUGH
IT'S ALL WORTHWHILE.

AND OF COURSE OUR CONDUCTRESS.
WHAT ARE WE WITHOUT HER?
THANK YOU SO MUCH,
AND WE REALLY LOVE YOU!

The feeling that we get when we see our juniors flying on their own confidently with independence?
It's priceless.
I felt like, a heavy load lifting off my shoulders when the results were announced.
I'll never forgot that moment, that emotions, and how everyone were so supportive..
That would have been, the most beautiful music I have ever made in my life.
Thank you, band.



GET YOUR REST PEOPLE!
Sleep well!

aw sugar.

Packed week.
I don't know, I don't know about you guys.
Even though it's not as frightening as SYF 2007,
but whenever I remember the day we cried listening to our own trial recording
I knew it meant that much, how much we wanted it to go
Despite all the blood, sweat, tears and sacrifices.

Perhaps it's cos it's the sec 4s' last chance,
not to prove our strength,
but to bring the band to a whole new path where they see bigger hopes and dreams
YOU, WE, US, we can all do it if we just believe in it.
Nothing ever, will bring you guys down.
So what do you say, hm?
Are we on?


What's on my mind now? Countless.
Left, right, back, front,
nothing at all.
I feel so lost in this place.
It's empty, everywhere I go.
Every soul reappears and disappears,
Like lights that shine
Like stars that dies

Everything that happened, I had to question myself.
I had to be paranoid, I had to be careful.
I had to be paranoid.. I had to be careful..

Maybe that's what's missing.
Myself.


I needa scream my heads off for Arts Fest later.
Night party, owls.


Babe..
I have nothing to say.
Take care.

WAAALLLLEEE.

Fuckin short alr. ):

Omg, the movie Wall-E left such an deep impression on me.
BETTER WATCH IT PEOPLE!
REGARDLESS OF YOUR DAMN *cough* PAPERS!
Hmm, it's as good as Kung Fu Panda, but I'll give it a 4.5/5.
It's short, simple yet it's inspirational and something like, touches your soul? (Lack of vocab, check.) Aaaa, let's put it as emotive.
and you'll fall in love with Wall-E for sure!
One thing that'll ring through your mind after t movie?
Conserve our Earth!
You won't want to end up being obese because... well..
Find it out yourself.


Won't mind watchin it again at the theatres cos t quality isn't as good as watching it online *hint hint*. And... I'm in love with Wall-E :$


Aaaa, supposed to be @ school this mornin for art, but I fell ill.
THE FLU BUG IS BACK! ITS BACCCCCCCCCCCK.
And sore throat and everythin.
Mum keep insisting I don't take any medication o_o
HAHAHA, maybe I'll get a fever tomorrow and not go to sch.
P.S 5 periods of maths can! (inclusive of remedial lessons)







And all I ever hear is ay ya ya ya ya
You're talking way too much
I can't even hear me now
All this noise is messing with my head
You're in my head, get outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Get outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Outta my, outta my head




LOL OUTTA M OUTTA M HEAD. I think this song pisses Samantha off! :x





Tomorrow's schhhhhhhh people! I miss children's day!
We kiddies get lotsa free stuff and sweets and candies and jellies and performances and celebration and no lessons and we get to play blind mice/police and thief w/o t twisssst pls/iceman/hide and seek/hopscotch/monkey bars and we all get to fall down and cry.
HAHAHAHAH, OMG PRI SCH DAYS.





Hmmm, Wall-E loves Eve. Lol, superb cute.
and sad.

Classics.

zomg, I missed o classics of Looney Tunes and Walt Disney.
Been watchin em all night!
I LOVE DAFFY AND DONALD DUCK! Don't ask me why heheh.

Totally classical. Check out Bugs Bunny in blue bra. :D

I wonder why they don't show it anymore on tv? Or they still do?

Donald Duck super cute here HAHAHAH.

Lol, 5.19's hot.
Oh my gees, I miss childhood times.
I still had some old cds on Road Runner, Betty Boop and Felix Cat!
BELIEVE IT OR NOT HAHAS.


aaaa, what else can I say?
I guess it's true.
You never did really consider this feelings.
And yet I let the pain go...
But will it all go?

T_T GROW HAIR GROW!

Wah, super pissed off.
Imagine asking your hairdresser to have 1/4 of your current hair length to be trimmed or cut.
Then he/she fucking went ahead to snip of 3/4 of your hair. Result isn't what you wanted really.
Great?
GREAT.
Now I have to wait for it to grow again. =.=
Fugly to fuginity.
HA HA HA, so sick of all the misfortune phenomenon happenin right now.
THE LAST THING YOU GIRLS'LL WANT IS A BAD HAIRCUT EXPERIENCE.
And aaaaaaaaaaaa, yeah, I'll be ticked off by my hair till t day I'm satisfied with it.



P.S AND THIS COMIN' TUESDAY'S PHOTO-TAKING WHAT THE FUCK.
P.S.S I NEVER HAD A GOOD HAIRCUT EXPERIENCE IN MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE.
P.S.S.S FUCKING DAMNIT! FFFFFFFFFFFFF



Hanaaaaaaaaa, thanks for the gift, it's so sudden, but it's so sweet.
Lookin at its golden case, memories all seem to flow back.
Back then, looking forward together seems so fruitful and slow.
Present, flipping through the pages in the past seemed so far away,
yet it felt like yesterday.
I remembered we'll always end up with the same crushes, hahah.
Now so many things've changed.
But you know that you will always be in this place of my heart.
I miss you.



aaaaaaaaaaaaa, study. need to get motivated, yet.
I feel so insecure, like if I stepped on just a trap,
everything'll snap straight at me.
Ouch.

Fuck.




MY HAIRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr. TT_TT

:'(

AHA,
taht yas uoy raeh ot tsuj pu yats ot elggurts t'ndid i

FUCKING TIRED, EVEN IF I SLEPT AT TEN AND WOKE AT 6,
I FELT LIKE I NEVER SLEPT A F WINK.
OH MY GEES.
Haha, I laughed alot today.
But t ad I saw on tv pierced my heart through.
Yeah, I'm speakin bout the one on family.
I miss my kiddo moments.
No worries, no stress, and I love papa and mama.
I give them kisses and hugs.
I miss em all.

But now, I've changed.
Things've changed.

meteor.

I'm running away.
I won't be able to face the cold truth.
Just for this moment,
till I come back with a smile.
As the waves come to wash sandcastles down,
then maybe the crabs'll come out to play.
The salts in t sea made me teary
I got to my knees to beg for mercy.

Mercy to let me go
Rest my soul
Clear this tragedies

So just let me sleep
so soundly this night.