baby need to let you know

- without you. i don't know where to go, what to do,why i'm here, who i am . without you , i'm incomplete. empty inside , worries , pain and sorrow . how bad can it be without you ? please stay by me , make my life colourful . i'm afraid to be alone , i don't want to be alone. i don't want empty promises. i want everlasting love . i want your everything . i want to be yours , i want you to be mine . i want you for life , forever. i love you really much. you meant so much to me. once you leave , my heart will be empty , my brain , full of frightening thoughts and sad memories , my eyes , full of tears of sorrow , my lips dry , my hands , nothing to hold to , my arms , nothing to hold on to , my soul , gone . i love you , and always and always. i'll hold on to you , never let you go. i'll never make you cry . i'll never stop loving you till the end of my life. -

sneezeee.

wee! going to band camp tomorrow till friday afternoon!
yesterday, went to sentosa with some of me band seniors and me friends. BORED! realisedd the monorail was cut off . so we couldn't get to most of the places that we wanna go. we're stuck at siloso beach T_T ate at sakae sushi for lunch!! woohoo! ..yumyum. =P played with water too. hahas. the waves are so nice. and the smell of sea water ..so refreshing. too bad me lao gong not by my side. if not , it would be so romantic to be in the water together .. *dreams* .
no fair!! me brother bought a ipod ! uuggggh. lol. his mobile phone already have a mp3 storage. damn him!! uugghh. fine , me very guai. won't waste money buy mp3 . btw, my brothr used his working fees to buy it. he never buy a treat for me . hahas. at least a treat at sakae sushi or crystal jade ... hmm ..yum. =P .. so bored today! later going out to buy someone's present. sigh , kinda excited about camp tomorrow ... oh nooo! me haven't packed me bag. hahas. better do it now.

cats & dogs

its raining so heavily just now in the early afternoon. AND IT WAS SO NICE!! hahas. vey cooling ..
sigh.. didn't went out anywhere today. i'm stuck up at home . so boredd. can't think of anything to do. wanted to go to jurong point with sze yee .. but it was raining so heavily , so we didn't go.well , tomorrow , some of my band members and MII are going to sentosa !! to play and stuffs. woohoo!! sigh .. if only mii lao gong could go. haven't seen each other for bout , two days? miss him alot. yeahh ... i hope that if YOU , yeah YOU , have an interesting site to kill boredom , please tell mii in the tagboard! i'm going NUTS over boredom!! thanks!!

yummy lamb stew

went to IMM for dinner today.. ate lamb stew at secret recipe.. yum yum..heheh.. its been a long time since i've eaten lamb meat. hehe. oh sigh .. don't know what to do tomorrow's afternoon. but i'm not going to be stuck at home , doing nothing . SO BORED AT HOME!!! hahas. stress =P


- lamb,lamb, yummy lamb stew ..~ -

BOREDOM

sad..so sad. not gonig out today with mii lao gong. sigh. but never mind! next week will ! ^^ i don't feel like going for tution tomorrow. it's like already june holidays. i want to have a GOOD rest. haha hmm..sigh.nothing to do right now. im dying of boredooooooooooooooooooooooooooooom. ahh!!!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

woohoo! finally june holidays are herreee!!!! happy holidays everyone!! remember to do ur holidays assignments instead of slacking around ok? hahas. lalalala. been waiting ferr holidays to come. tomorrow hope mii lao gong can go out. then we're going to watch Madagascar!! yipeeee! hmm..mii eyes very itchy and painful.. *rubrub* .. so bored. hope i was with mii lao gong right now .. at least i won't feel so bored like i am right noooooooooooooow.. next wednesday's mii band camp. three days two night! yay!!! quite excited , i heard that we are going to the parade square (where we line up for national anthem & plege and annoucements) at night or midnight and talk about ghosts !! muahahah.. quite excited bout that .. it was optional .. we can choose to go.. but well , confirm most people will go for it. by then, not much people left and it would be creepier. so, why not join the crowd rather than being ALONE ? hehe

new skin

sigh.. made new layout lo !! ..nice maahh. hehehe. took really long to fix this whole thing. finally solvedd everything today ! its really driving mii crazy!! sigh, tomorrow last day of school!!!! yay!
if uu don't have quicktime , i don't think you can hear the music. its lonely no more! woohoo! enjoy (:

damn pissedd off. my flirtatious "classmate" went to flirt wif mii lao gong. and i WITNESSED it. fuck her man! how could she? bloddy bitchy asshole. she already have so many men to flirt with. why TRY TO FLIRT WIF MII LAO GONG!!! FUCK HER ASS MAN!!
i hate her to the core. ever since mii friends and mii startedd to think she's a flirt. she acts cute , acts pretty and FLIRTS LIKE HELL!! plus , she ain't pretty at all. she's skinny and her eyes are so small .. still try to be a flirt queen. puuuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! shit her. i feel like hacking her into pieces and telling her she's a bloody flirter. someday .. somehow .. i will tell her. lucky mii guy never flirt back , if not , both of them will DIE !!!
I HATE FLIRTS!
I HATE BEANICE THE BLOODY ASSHOLE BITCHY FUCKING FLIRTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm not going to forgive her ferr what she did. she really pissed the hell out of mii.

bored bored.. a new student came into mii class today. FLIRT. that's all i could say.
damn , now i realised , mii class was full of flirts. one group of them. even the boys. i hate the sight of them. pffff! why people like attracting the opposite sexes!? FLIRTS SUCKS!! I HATE THEM ALL!!!! i've been thinking alot lately , thinking , thinking , thinking .. but i just couldn't figure out why and what i was thinking about and of . my heart & soul was lost. they were wandering somewhere. sometimes , i have the urge to go a place . a place near mii school. but well , heck cares. i don't want to be bother by it. geez.
TWO MORE DAYS BEFORE JUNE HOLIDAYS! WOOHOO!

boredd in school

so bored today at school! we had inter-class games. I HATE IT! ..hahas. ms soh ( mii form teacher) FORCED ME INTO PLAYING THE GAMES!!!!!! AHHH!!!!!!
hate it so much. anyway, its super hot today. but later in da afternoon, it RAINED!!! woohoo!! hope it rain.. tmr morning. woohoo! ..didn't had any lessons today! the inter-class games lasted till recess ,then after recess is mii class free timE!!!!! heehee. but also quite bored . in the classroom doing nothing but making noise. hahas. but really very bored.. hmm , next wednesday is mii band camp a.k.a music camp !!! woohoo! but it can b sorta creepy at night. so scaredd. errrr..suddenly i have a strong urge to go out and watch movie. hahas. too bored in school. i hope i don't need to go to school tomorrow. its like you go there for nothing T_T; go there make noise .. uhh .. why mii teachers no let us watch movies? like spider-man 2, Incredibles , or maybe SpongeBob SquarePants The Movie! .. as long there's something to watch. i rather watch then stay in class and day dream.... T_T;

rain rain...

sheesh. HAPPY VESAK DAY!!!
hello hello. long time no blog. hehe.
very bored . ermmm.. today not sure whether to go out or not. im craving for cup corn ..hahas. and i know queenstown sell em.... yum yummmmm...ah crap .. have to eat mii lunch now. cya all.

so bored today

weeeeeeeeeeeeee!! june holidays are just NEXT WEEK! BAHAHAHAHHAHAR
woohoo! weepee!! so happy!! lalalalalala. lalalalalala. hmm..but nothing to do. lol. this coming thurday is Be Yourself Day. so myy school allow us to wear home clothes! woohoo!! yeah yeah!! ..dunno what to wear though T_T;. hahas. i'll just wear my favourite RED T-SHIRT ! plus jeans . woohoo!! hope it rains tat day. then won't feel hot. WOOHOO!
teehehehehe.. so excitedd (: (:
don't know what to do tomorrow. hmm.. go out? sleep all day ... er er?! sigh. life could be so bored at times. ARGH!
well well .. i'm going to change myy layout soon! hehe.
sigh , failedd to catch sesame street today .. UH! lol. OH MY GOD!! i can't believe it!! i can watch on MONDAY! WOOHOOOOOOOO!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! ..... (: teehee. laLAlaLAlaLA. its super hot today in school. and selectedd students went to OMI-MAX THEATER to watch a flim. SIGH! i wasn't selectedd. onlyy few top students who scoredd high in science. T_T; yeah , i suck. sigh .. speaking bout my results ......errr ...o_O. no comments.
2 As and the rest Bs. erm .. one C and D. HAHA .. oops!! . =P because i failedd my lit ferr myy CA1. yup , they are the overall results. mid-year exams ( SA1 ) + CA1 . hwhw..btw, im so fortunate that my SA1 didn't test us on history,geography N lit!! BAHAHA!!! prettyy lucky huh ?? . but ferr the CA2 , these subjects will b testedd earlier.
geez..i suck at lit. i meant, i SUCK AT ALL OF THEM!
sigh .. myy studies..

sheeshhh .. got

63 ferr english . B4 .

WHAT'S HAPPENING !!! AHHHHHHH!!!
i expectedd to get above 70 T _T; .
i got 37/50 ferr my paper 1 !!! myy letter and composition totallyy pulledd mii down !! AHH!!
im so sad. very sad. very very sad. very very very sad.. crap .. i better buck up.. ARGH!!
woohoo!! tomorrow got band le! hehe. and during school hours ,mii class at 9 or 8 go to a don't know what plant .hahas. inceriation. ......erm. dunno lar. but woohoo! no lessons !! woohoo! can relax! WOOHOO! ME LOVE THURSDAY!! ..heheh.

hur .. so tiredd right now. i hope it rains tomorrow!!! ..ahh .i lobe the rain today.it was so cooling and cold..hehe.. rain tomorrow please!! sigh got

67 ferr science. B3.

sigh..i expect more ..its all because of myy MCQ !! i failedd myy MCQ , so that's why. it pulledd me down. sucks eh..
and myy chinese .. im very scaredd i'll fail. ugh , so stress...

damn!! i'm so freakingg shitedd out right now! i don't dare to tell myy father bout my maths results! AHHH!! HE IS GOING TO GIVE MII MATHS TUTION. 7.30-9.00 !!!
how the hell am i going to live like that?! DIE DIE AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! who can save me! i know he will surely get disappointedd in my maths. FUCK YOU MATHS! fuck my days. what have i done?!!!?!? by the way, i'm still not going to work more on my maths. i don't freaking care a damn shit about it. fuck off maths.

got back some of my subjects' results ,

D&T
82 , A1 !!! yipeee!!

Art
75 , A1 !! yipeeeeeeeee!!!!

Maths
61 T_T; , B4 .... im so disappointedd in myself . truly. sigh .. hope i can do better next time. I HATE MATHS!!!

i wish i get good results for myy other subjects. i'm sure none of them get lower than maths!!! uggH! . maths' result made mii so sadd.. T_T;

tomorrow is school ...T_T; . how i wished that it was june holidays, ugh. oh damn, a mosquito bite.,, lol..itchy , *scratch scratch* hm. so bored today. nothing to say.

sigh. so bored.saw yvoone lim (lim right?) at Newton Circle yesterday night.She is acting in the show Beautiful Illusions , calledd "xiaofen" . hmm..she looks kinda white. hahas. shes very fair. i hope i have fair skin like her too.. *drools* ......
no cookie monster today. can't watch cookie monster anymore on weekdays!! ahh!!!! .. going to miss him n his letter-of-the-day-cookie. hahahs. bye cookiee monster. c uu some other time. elmo too!!! sob.
oops. hahas , yeh , i watch sesame street . =X surprisedd right? hehe. but now mid-year exams are over , not going home early anymore. notwatching sesame street anymore.so sad. im so sadd today. freaking no mood.. don't know why? maybe because its morning. (: hahas. ..blah.

mii gaining weight T_T; just ate at seoul garden ferr lunch and i'm going to eat at another resturant tonight for dinner.. hurhurr.. i'm going to be so fat today. BUT!!! maybe tomorrow mii n mii lao gong going to play badminton!! wohoo! i must slim down ...i must slim down ... well lol. been addictedd to pool games lately. wonder whyy..... teehhee.
g2g , i hope i can eat steak =X

tomorrow, mii and mii lao gong going to celebrate our 4th anniversary!! (its actually on sunday)
its because seoul garden prices are cheaper on weekdays. YUP! he is going to treat mii to seoul garden! WEEPEE!! i can't wait ferr tomorrow!! kekeke.
anyways, i was kinda disappointedd because the movie i wanna catch so much , The Amityville Horror , was NC-16 !! i was so so so disappointed.. sigh.. and mii n mii lao gong actually wantedd to catch it after our lunch at seoul garden , but later found out its NC-16 movie ..T_T; ITS SO SAD!!!!!! now we don't know what to do and where to go after our lunch .... sigh ..hahas. i want to watch it so much..
FINALLY,EXAMS ARE OVER!!!WHAT A RELIEF! yay yay. yay.
didn't complete my art today T_T; not enough time .. maybe its because i'm too slow. hmm.. but im not the only one ..lalala. didn't complete my background yet. sigh.. what a failure. SOB!
hmm..nothing to do..so boredd.
well ..g2g .cyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
COOKiE MONSTER: ME EATEN COOKIE.HARHAR.BYEBYE.

yay! new skin worrrr...!! i found three boa pictures and blendedd them together. its myy secondd blendd, hope youu all like it!i hate pink though.. but still , well , a pink-hater using pink ain't an offence right?
(no offence to pink-lovers)
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!! at last , i can relax. tomorrow having art exam. so i don't need to study now.. hehehe.. been strictlyy told not to use the computer until exams over ,..that's why i didn't post ..for the previous days. I MISS ME BLOG!
by the way, i love cookie monster. haha

TODAY
d&t test was easy . A2 or A1 ..heh heh..

YESTERDAY
science . brain almost went dead. hahas. stress during exam. at least a B3.

THE PREVIOUS DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY
MATHS! BRAIN DEAD! VERY STRESS DURING EXAM! cannot take it anymore. i can faint during that painful moment.never wish to go through it again.... at least a B3 .....or a pass.

LAST FRIDAY
english compo & paper. hmm pretty ok for mii. a B3 or A2.

LAST THURSDAY
chinese compo & paper. erm , i don't know about this though .. at least a B4 . hey , i wasn't good in mother tougue..pfff.

the end. now to get some sleep , for the art exam!!
zz.

eh.. sigh. exams not over yet. so tired of studying T_T
eyes so sleepyy....
tution tomorrow... WtF?
sigh sigh..

i don't know why , but i want to say sorry. i wanted to give uu a peck on your cheeks but i can't bring myself to.

: > today watchedd spongebob squarepants movie ferr two times!! kekeke. very nice to watch .hehe. patrick is soooo cute!!! ahh patrick >.<
hm , speaking of spongebob , i think the season two of spongebob series are out in DVD .
feel like buying leh. :D
I LOVE SPONGEBOB!!!!!
but i love my dear more den anything , anyone (:

its raining , man its raining .
i'll wait.

what have i done? fuck shit.

sucked.




i still have the fucking cheek to laugh.

i realised i'm so selfish.
i realised i can't give you anything good.
i realised i can't give you happiness.
i realised i'm not good.

sigh. maybe i shouldn't have fallen in love so soon. i don' want to suffer ..
maybe because i don't wanna lose you. but everytime i think to myself , what did i do?
i'm petty,
i'm selfish,
i'm bitchy,
i'm not happy,
i'm frustrated,
i'm not satisfied,
i'm grumby,
i'm crazy,
i'm lazy
i'm everything that guys won't want to come near me. but why you?
everytime i used you like a scolding machine retriever.
why do you still like me?
probably there's someone not like me.
someone who can take better care of you.
i'm speechless.
i don' know why i'm here.
i don't know who i am.
i don't care bout me!!
.....what the hell.
i think i'm insane after all..
i'm so confused.
whose world am i in?
mines or? ....
whatever T_T
i suck.

oh man .. its so freaking hot today!!
but it got cooler after that. i was like perspiring the whole time lor!! why so hot de? hate the hot weather!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i hope it snows in singapore ..
haiz ..

why doesn't it rain in the morning but noooow ?! ahh...
i wan it to rain whole day!! by the way , i'm having my first examination tomorrow!! cHINeSE!!!.
kekekeke. gee .. i'm kinda .. erm scaredd. not actually scared . but erm worried. ABOUT MY MATHS!!! i'm so damnedd worried about my results . if i don't get good results ... something really really bad is going to happen. REAL BAD .. oh well , strike hard !! btw, i got A1 ferr my maths ferr CA1 !!!! WOOHHOOOOOOOO!! i was so HAPPY! . first time got A fer maths since pri 5 T_T;
shalalala.. tuesday , my classmates made an presentation and they showed THIS!!!

Friendship
Usually
Contain
Kindness

and everyone was like laughing their heads off. even the teacher was laughing!! but after it alll ended. they got scolded. bahahah. i think it ish meaningful though. i can't believe they have the guts to show this .. gosh. >.<

TODAY VERY STRESS AT SCHOOL! all my teachers were like rushing through everything!! my MIND IS EXPLODING!!!! especially maths. i was like scratching my head the whole time!! i wished i wasn't in school today T_T; . my head keeps hurting ..ow. hmm .. i prefer primary school's science lessons. the questions are more challenging than secondary school's one. oh boy .. guess i really miss primary school days (:
miss all myy teachers ..hahas. :P (P.S. I NOT LES)
hmm..i better go study now .. but .. very tired.. zzzzzz. hehee.mayb i go sleep after i bathe. ...LALALA
(:

yay! its raining againnnnnn !!! ...came home drenched T_T;
but never mind , i haven't been soaked in the rain ferr quite some time already! ..hehehe..
hmm ..my lao gong back from malaysia liao!! (n he didn't tell mii.. i'm suspecting something ..hmmmm...) LALALA
uggh. exams coming soon. i hope it was tomorrow.can go home early .. and ... erm.



sleep.



LALALA ... uggh .. so bored studying ...teache still give homework .. ooooOOHHh!
ms soh cut her hair n re-rebond !! hahas .. she lookedd like a clerk. but kinda weird. i prefer her past looks. eh .. duh.
so tired today .. i feel like eating cake!!!! ..hahas. i'm fat ..T_T;
.....
...
i meant i've put on weight. or not. i dunno. sigh. i hope i my weight can balance ..errr (:

ekk ! haven't been posting for quite some time .. yeh.
by the way , IT'S RAINING!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!! i hope it rains tomorrow morning too. so that i won't have pe lessons.. LALA.
been busy , so that's why i didn't post for so long. i'm addictedd to the game The Legend Of Zelda : The Minish Cap . yup yup. so been playing it all day long . i've almost completed it (: .. right ..
myy examinations are near , three more days to it. so , yeh ..probably no more posting till exams over. i don't know. i'll try to post whenever i can.
ughh .
myy lao gong went to malaysia and have not reply my email yet!! its been three days .. and i'm very worried. oh dear , i hope nothing happened.
haiz , well .. i miss him alot... alot alot. wished he was by my side right now. wonder what's he's doing now. hehe , hope he's doing fine. (: